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flynn - big gay cripple - eternally tired

i'm just thinking abt how many providers i've had who heard my story abt psychiatric abuse + immediately individualized it. "oh, you're so smart + kind+ obviously sane! you didn't deserve that! i can't believe they gave you that diagnosis when you're obviously not like that! they shouldn't have treated u like that when all you did was xyz! they shouldn't have assumed you were crazy like that!"

there is always a third person haunting this interaction- the patient who does deserve that, who is "actually" that evilscary diagnosis, who did Have To be treated like that. if i want to soak up the affirmations of these providers, i must be careful to never become this third person. i must affirm myself by setting myself apart from her- i did not deserve to be treated like that because i am not like that.

i reject this. not only was i like that, she + everyone else like that deserve everything i deserve. they are my siblings + my friends + my lovers. i do not need to cut them out of me to believe i deserved better. i refuse to comfort myself through the lens of someone else's dehumanization. the tragedy is not that psychiatric violence was applied to someone who not insane enough to warrant it. the tragedy is the violence.

Anonymous asked:

thoughts on uuuuum them not putting cptsd or developmental trauma disorder in the dsm because "the criteria is too vague"

personally my thoughts are "if they did they would have to recognize that a lot of things in the dsm are trauma responses and they can't have that"

I agree! I think it speaks to the way the dsm is violent in its strategic inclusion AND exclusion of particular markers & its imbrication with broader systems of subjugation. i think it’s also worth noting that while those disorders aren’t included, something like BPD is — a heavily gendered and stigmatized label that renders complex trauma into individual & often villainous “hysteria”

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Watch: Last-known Tasmanian tiger from 1935 can now be seen in digitally-restored footage. The black-and-white clip, recorded in 1935 and released by Australia’s National Film and Sound Archive, shows Benjamin, the last confirmed living Tasmanian tiger, roaming around an enclosure in the now-closed Beaumaris Zoo as a man attempts to cajole the now-extinct creature into activity. Benjamin died in 1936.  It is believed Benjamin died as the result of neglect — locked out of his sheltered sleeping quarters, he was exposed to a rare occurrence of extreme Tasmanian weather: extreme heat during the day and freezing temperatures at night.    

I cannot describe how sad this made me.

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Palomino Junction

I made this ranch for the household that I'm playing the new pack with. It comes with an open dining/ living room, kitchen, an office, 2 bathrooms, a main bedroom, a nursery for an infant, a toddler's bedroom, a guestroom, a laundry room and a playroom since the kids rooms are to the smaller side. Nectar making in the garage and the stable can house up to 4 horses.

Cc free, 50x50 residential lot, Palomino Junction - Chestnut Ridge

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Uses: All current EP's up until Horses, Werewolves, My Wedding Stories, Dream Home Decorator, Realm of Magic, Strangerville, Jungle Adventure, Parenthood, Outdoor Retreat, Paranormal, Tiny House, Laundry Day, Toddler, Bowling, Vintage Glamour, Backyard, Movie Hangout, Cool Kitchen, Perfect Patio, Country Kitchen, Book Nook, Basement Treasures, Greenhouse Haven, Everyday Clutter, Little Campers, Blooming Rooms, Industrial Loft, Courtyard Oasis.

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ghost houses

[image descriptions: three watercolor and pen drawings of houses in pine forests. the houses are uncolored and outlined in pen, and the trees are painted in monochrome shades (the first is green and the second two are purple). in the first two paintings, trees are also painted partially over the houses, like shadows, or as if the houses are somewhat transparent. the third painting includes several large rocks near the house that are also uncolored. /end i.d.]

I have no idea what is and isn’t considered common knowledge, so I have a tendency to start stories like “So you know how [hyper-specific niche life event that a handful of people in the world are aware of]” or “Are you familiar with the concept of moving pictures? Sometimes referred to as ‘films’ or ‘movies’?”

“I’m not going to do the thing because I don’t view it as important.” Conscious decision made of your own free will.

“I want to do the thing because I view it as important, but trying to get myself to do the thing creates the same reaction as trying to put my hand on a hot stove would.” ← Executive dysfunction, a physical health problem that doesn’t answer to your own free will.

“Trying to get myself to do the thing creates the same reaction as trying to put my hand on a hot stove would. This must mean I don’t actually want to do the thing and I’m just tricking myself into thinking I do.” ← No, that’s still executive dysfunction, but you’re having brainworms about it.

Did some more drawing tonight and they're getting so much better? Partially been painting a bit and getting more confident in just playing around, partially realising that studying anatomy is also reflecting in my figures?

also realising “you don’t have to be productive” applies to hobbies too? Like you can just doodle and see what comes out and take a stab, not every session has to be perfect or studies. can just get guitar and let yourself be sloppy and play easy songs. its fun and like also chances are wouldnt have picked it up and half the time end up developing new skills anyway