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BenerandaKate

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|swiftie since 96😅| my greatest wish would be to meet her, hug her tight and tell her that everything's gonna be alright cause we're all with her especially right now..this era| she's the one person who's always been there for me from the stormy nights through the shiny days no matter what|

Taylor sheds one, single tear in RFI music video to remind everyone that she’s not a robot, she’s not a doll, she’s not just a celebrity but mostly she has feelings, she gets affected by hate, she’s like one of us. She’s only human. I can only imagine what she went through in her head. I want to hug her so tight and tell her she’s the strongest person I know.

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She wishes she was able to walk with someone and have a conversation about the universe. She wishes she was able to admit how it terrifies her how we’re so small compared to this never-ending galaxy. For someone to look at her and smile when she becomes joyful at the thought of everyone starting out as a tiny stardust and look where we are now. She wanted someone to look at her like she was their universe and how she’s the sun of their solar system. She talks about the ocean and how it gives her this feeling of happiness she can’t describe. How this abyss of blue that falls deep in the world carries another form of life that sparks up a calming feeling knowing that it isn’t just humans existing. How the waves that crash onto the sand was music to her ears that made the end of her lips curve upwards. How the ocean looked so welcoming like a pair of arms ready to hold her and comfort her anxious soul.  She looks at sunrises and sunsets, her eyes sparkling with excitement as she watches the sun move. Loving the way the sky would change colors and sometimes the moon would be seen before it was dark or see the moon before the sun has shone. She loves how sunrises give her hope and remind her that it’s a new day of chances. A new day to do all the task she didn’t get around to doing the day before. A whole new page in her life and she promises to make all those moments count. She loves sunsets because it reminds her that she made it through another day. Regardless of how hard it probably was, she survived it all and it was time for her to rest.  She sounds beautiful, doesn’t she? Sadly this isn’t the truth of what her life is like. This is what she wishes she could experience. She wishes she wasn’t like this at times, a girl with so many dreams. She would cry at night and look through her friend’s snapchats and be mad at herself at why she couldn’t be normal. She can’t seem to go to any party without feeling like she’s being suffocated by everyone. She can’t talk about the universe without people calling her out as a geek who will never find someone to love her because of how boring she seemed. She can’t talk about how the ocean means to her because everyone else is too busy laughing at that viral video. She can’t talk about the sunrise or the sunset without being judged on as pathetic, looking at the sun for hope, calling it stupid.  She can never talk about anything she wants without people judging her. Then they wonder why she would push herself away from the world and build this wall to protect herself.

she dreams. || excerpt from a book i’ll never write #1 (via wallflowercafe)