in my room on a saturday evening talking to myself like this

Toma, tira otra vez

How the fuck lmao

The one with the one night stand (6)

Your walk with Cap had done nothing to calm you down, you were still thinking about what Henry’s brother had said. He hadn’t said anything new, you had known from the start this was what people were going to think, it was what Henry had thought at first, and what probably he was still thinking even though he didn’t say it out loud. So it was nothing new but Charlie’s word had still caught you unprepared.

The bad thing was that you weren’t even mad, you felt defeated and dirty instead, almost as if you had done something wrong, even if you hadn’t. You weren’t the first person who got pregnant from a one night stand and you weren’t going to be the last one. Sure, you could have been more careful, you were a doctor and you shouldn’t have put all your trust in a condom of which you didn’t even know the expire date. But you weren’t the only grown up that night, Henry was there too so why all the blame should be on you? Why were you more at fault than him? Only because he was rich and famous and you weren’t? Beside he had been the one to buy you a drink, he had been the one to kiss you first, you had kiss back of course but you probably wouldn’t have kissed him if he hadn’t. But you weren’t playing the blaming game so why were they?

When you arrived home Henry wasn’t there yet and you couldn’t have been happier: you would take all the time you could to calm down, the last thing you wanted was to show how much Charlie’s comment had affected you.

It was a couple of hours before Henry came back and when he did you were cuddling Cap on the couch with the tv playing on the background.

“Hey, can we come in?”- Henry asked from the entrance while making sure Kal was behind him. Cap stood to attention, obliviously aware not only of Henry but of another dog in his house. He didn’t move though, it was clear he didn’t want to lose his place between your legs but he kept looking at the new comers.

“Yeah of course”- you smiled at him

“Kal is here too”

“I can see him Henry, it’s not like he goes unnoticed”- you both laughed a little bit -“why don’t you come closer so we can see how they react to each other”

Henry came closer slowly, his eyes repeatedly moving from you to Cap and vice versa. Cap’s eyes were constantly on Kal but he didn’t even try to move. He kept smelling the air but he seemed calm otherwise.

It was like the two dogs were studying each other but neither of them wanted to leave his master to explore further. -“Come on Cap, go say hi”- you said trying to move things along.

Cap looked at you with a look mist of annoyance and betrayal but, like the good dog he was, he got off the couch and approached the Akita. The two dog quietly sniffed at each other and then Cap nipped playfully at Kal before running of. Henry had barely the time to free Kal from his leash that he was already after the German shepherd.

“Well… that went well”- you laughed

“Yeah it really did. Listen y/n about what Charlie said-“

“We don’t have to talk about it”- you stopped him before he could keep going-“I know that’s what people are gonna think if and when they’re gonna find out .”- you shrugged trying your best not to show how much it had affected you. Beside you had no intention to continue on the subject-“I was about to start lunch, wanna eat with me?

“Sure”- Henry said and you both went to the kitchen. You momentarily closed your eyes: two dog playing together on the couch, a man slicing the tomatoes while a pregnant woman was cooking the pasta.

From the outside, It looked like a family….

The next weeks spent with Henry were actually nice, he and Kal fit quite nicely with you and Cap. Henry never brought up his brother or his words again and you were happy about it. You had buried it deep inside you and you didn’t want to bring it up. You weren’t going to let anyone ruin your pregnancy.

You and Henry had established a routine already: he usually woke up before you and went for a run, he came back and took both of your dogs for a walk. You still remember the first time Henry had took Cap with him and Kal for a walk, he had asked you if he could the night before, it was clear he wanted to help you in anyway possible, he still wasn’t happy about not paying the rent, so you had said yes… he deserved a win some time. Although you had said yes, you had been anxious while they had been out, you had woken up just as Henry was going out with the dogs, so to avoid walking all around the apartment for the whole duration of the walk, you had cooked some breakfast for the both of you. Despise your anxiety, Cap had come back exhausted but happy with Kal on tow.

So that’s how the routine had started, Henry took the dogs for a walk after his run, and you had the breakfast ready for when they came back. You usually went to work after breakfast, your chief had been kind not to put you on any night shift for the duration of your pregnancy.

You didn’t know exactly what Henry did while you were at work, you never asked and you weren’t going to, what you knew was that, most of the time you came back home from work, Henry was on the couch gaming. The first time you had found him like that you had said- “So I see how it is, I bring home the bacon and you have fun”. The words had come out before you could think them through, you were about to apologize but Henry’s laugh had preceded you.

After that, things had started to change between you two, you had started to develop a new complicity and, even if you didn’t say it out loud in fear of bad luck, it almost felt like a friendship.

Henry had opened up about his past: he told you about his teenage years, how people hadn’t always been nice about him and the fact that he hadn’t always been this fit, he told you how was to grow up with four brothers and how much his mother had meant and still did in his life. You had tensed a little bit when his brothers came up but you were mostly sure he didn’t noticed… mostly.

It had been a little bit more difficult for you to open up but, after living with him for almost two months you had finally spoken up about your life: how difficult had been med school, how you had thought about not being able to get your degree for so long, how you had thought about quitting, about not being enough. You told him about the friendship you had made during your college years were some of the most meaningful relationships you still had.

“What about your family”- he had asked and you should have seen it coming, after all he had said to you about his relationship with his mother and his brothers, you really should have.

“I love them, but I haven’t talked to them for a while”- you had quietly answered hoping that would be it but you had obviously been wrong

“How come?”

“I’m not a good liar”- you had started and it had been clear Henry hadn’t been sure where you were going with that- “if I call them, this is going to come out because I can’t lie to save my life”- you had said while pointing at your baby bump -“and my family is a religious one, and I’m not sure how they’re gonna react to their daughter getting pregnant outside of marriage. I mean I know they’re not gonna hate me or the baby, they are good people and they love me, but I don’t think I can stand to see the disappointment on their face”

You hadn’t noticed the tears streaming down your face, but Henry obviously had, because he hadn’t even wasted a second before hugging you. You still remembered that embrace, you had felt so safe and at peace that it had almost scared you.

That night had changed your relationship furtherly, Henry had started to hug you and caress your bump without even asking and you were really happy. You had always been a physical person , but since getting pregnant you had cut off your time with your friends so you were a little bit touch starved.

The only problem was that you were a pregnant woman and with the pregnancy came your current sworn enemies: HORMONES!

You were constantly turned on, apart from when you felt like a whale and couldn’t even handle your touch never mind someone else’s (Henry had learned that the hard way: he had tried to touch your bump one day and you had swatted his hands so hard that you had almost felt bad when he had looked like a kick puppy. You had apologized after a while but now he always looked at your face to make sure you weren’t cutting dagger with your eyes before starting contact).

Anyway being constantly horny while leaving with a hunk of a man wasn’t funny… not even a little bit.

So that’s how you found yourself in the current situation: Henry was about to leave to take his plane, the press tour for his show would begin in two days and he had delayed his departure as long as he could, and you were on the couch surfing on the internet to find something to help you out.

“Y/n I’m ready to leave… Y/n? Y/n!”- Henry was looking at you like you had grown a second head

“What?”

“I have been calling you for the last five minutes. What are you even looking at?”- he was trying to snoop at your computer

“Nothing”

It was clear you hadn’t persuaded him, you tried to close the browser but you weren’t fast enough, Henry took the computer from you and the only thing you could do was watching whit horror while he stared at the screen where there was opened a page about vibrators. You could drown in your embarrassment.

You saw a smirk showed up on Henry’s face

“Shut up”- you said before he could even open his mouth

“There is nothing wrong with buying yourself a vibrator. I’m just wondering why you didn’t ask me”

“Why I didn’t ask you to buy me a vibrator? Why would I Henry?”- you looked at him weirdly

“Not that, why didn’t you ask me to help you out”

“What?”- ok he had lost his mind for sure

“I mean we already know sex between us is good and it’s not like you can get more pregnant than that”- Henry shrugged, he was so calm, as if he was talking about going grocery shopping instead of the possibility of having sex with you. The man was weird.

“Wouldn’t that complicate our situation?”

“Maybe or maybe not… Damn it I have to go but we can talk about it more when I get back ok? I’ll call you”- he kissed your head lightly before putting the leash on Kal

“Bye Henry, bye Kal”- you saw them to the door and once they left you forced yourself not to think about Henry’s proposal. Henry was going to be away for weeks so there was no reason to overthink it now

It was hours later, you had had dinner and were scrolling through your Instagram on the bed when you saw it.

“FUCK!”

You closed Instagram without even reading the article all you wanted was to talk to Henry, you needed to be sure he knew you hadn’t told anybody.

You heart was pounding so hard you could feel it in your ears, you called Henry and you almost lost your breath when he didn’t answer.

— Harry Style