I GET IT

i get it, shes prettier

i get it, shes skinnier

                                                    i get it, shes cooler

                                                   i get it, shes funnier

                                              i get it, shes cuter

                                            i get it, shes nicer

                                          i get it, shes great

but i wanna be good for you too. everything is revolved around looks and if shes popular and her friends and her past and her weight and her hair and her eyes and everything. but just think, if you stopped and looked in front of you. you’d see, shes not the only one. i may not have all of those qualities but i am confident. im a strong person fighting for myself and my body. i love myself but not as much as you should.

i still love you. you gave up on me, and thats okay. i can live with you dating someone else and me pretending i dont care. im learning how to not care about anyone as much anymore. i love the feeling of being alone. if you were there everything would be perfect, but you decided to choose her. i dont want you anymore. i want myself. its all gonna be okay for you. but for me im not so sure anymore.

from, bella