“For the first time, I’m putting me first.”
STACKEDIARIES | march 10th | “i was feeling epic”
[Caption: gifs from The Vampire Diaries. With her arms extended forward and blood running down her nose, Bonnie faces hellfire as she struggles to contain it. She screams at it with determination, saying. “No, no… I can do this. I can do this! I can beat you. YOU CAN’T HAVE ME! IT’S NOT MY TIME!”.]
disliking Bonnie because of Caroline’s transition is always funny to me because y’all will bluntly ignore Bonnie’s trauma with vampires at that time to strengthen your disdain for her during her reaction to Caroline’s transition. “Caroline needed her friend…it’s Bonnie’s fault she turned in the first place..” blah blah blah.
While I agree that we shouldn’t take time for granted. You’re still fucking young in your 30s… it makes me furious that -women especially- feel old once they reach 30 whereas with men, omg they’re in their prime!
There’s always a solution for everything. I’m not sooooo young anymore and right now I don’t have a partner, I’m thinking about freezing my egg’s because yes, I’m aware that there is some sort of timeline for women to get pregnant but there’s a way around it, same with career paths, life goals idk there is still time!!!… sorry for the rant. I just - I hate when people in their 30s see time as their enemy…
i'm sorry, homie, but that is some grade A copium. 30s isn't young. it just simply is not. and i promise you that none of my mid-30s male friends feel like they're in their prime. they are all just as jaded and exhausted as i am.
when i actually turn 34 in september, i could very well end up in a place where i'm talking about smut with a full-ass full-grown adult of legal age who was not yet born when i lost my fucking virginity.
30s isn't old, but it sure as hell isn't young.
when i worked at the cemetery, whenever i came across a file for someone who was born around the same year i was, i always made it a point to go out of my way to pull their death certificate so that i could see their cause of death.
more often than not, it was self-inflicted.
because time has a way of slipping away from us, and we lose things that we can't get back, and some people don't recover from that realization.
i think that that's something that's very important to keep in mind as we go through life. we can't get that time back. once your 20s are gone, they're gone. and all of the stamina and vitality you had in that decade is gone with it -- something i learned the hard way at 31.
i just utterly reject any platitude like "there's no official timeline for life" because it sells the idea "it's never too late" or "there's always tomorrow."
because, sometimes, it is too late. there's not always tomorrow. there will be things in life that will pass you by before you even realize that they're fleeting and then gone.
i'm not saying you should go full carpe diem, but if something is important to you -- really, truly important to you -- you need to go after it. you can't wait.
because it might not wait for you in return.
Do you actually think that Capcom is pulling the plug on the A*on romance? I think it’s plausible in the Remake timeline because the way he abruptly rejected to go with her at the end of the game and it seems like they cut down her role. I’d like her story to continue though where she’s not tied down to a supporting character in Leon’s story. I feel like we’d get to know more about her as an individual character that way.
Remake canon killed it with RE2make, to be perfectly honest with you. The way their shared arc ended in Remake was VERY different in mood and tone than either A or B endings in OG.
Leon already forgave her for not being who she said she was before OG RE2 was over. But in Remake, he genuinely intends to apprehend her.
It changed from "I'll never forget you." To "I never trusted you."
This is very meta, but I feel like Leon tossing the security bracelet off the train to be destroyed with the rest of Raccoon City was symbolic of him tossing away his attachment to Ada.
But idk why him rejecting her offer for a ride at the end of RE4make makes it seem like they've cut down on her role. He doesn't go with her in OG, either.
y'all gotta stop buying into aeon fandom's propaganda. They're convinced that a character's importance in RE4 in particular is dictated solely by how useful they are to Leon's character, as though there's NOTHING ELSE going on in RE4's story at all.
There's so much going on in RE4, and what Leon is doing is the least important part of it.
I've had this theory that Capcom either doesn't know what to do with Ada anymore or just doesn't like her. She hasn't appeared in anything new for at least ten years now, and her role in the RE4 remake was drastically cut down from the original. And with the way that most people disliked her storyline in RE6, combined with the backlash Ada's appearance got in RE4R, I truly don't think they're going to go with ae/on anymore. It's probably too risky.
Personally I wouldn't mind since I'm impartial to Ada and I don't like the ae/on ship, but I feel like the whole fandom would have to go into the equivalent of a bomb shelter to survive the backlash from her stans.
it's far too early to say that her role was "drastically cut down" in RE4make. we haven't seen what Separate Ways has done. it's entirely possible that Ada's role was dramatically increased, and we just don't know it yet. iirc DG described RE4make's Separate Ways as more of an expansion pack than a regular DLC in terms of the volume of content.
I've talked about this before, but Leon and Ashley's story is a side story. the only bit of OG RE4 that's actually relevant to the overarching plot of RE as a whole is Wesker carving a plaga out of Krauser's corpse. if Separate Ways in RE4make actually makes Leon and/or Ada relevant to the larger plot of RE, then Ada suddenly has become a crucial, pivotal character in a way she very much was not before (and totally should have been).
and thinking about this in context of the fandom makes me goddamn furious, because LITERALLY ALL OF US SHOULD WANT THIS FOR HER CHARACTER. but you know that the fandom's going to continue to insist that her role was changed for "no reason" and, at the end of the day, all this is going to come down to is people feeling as though Ada should have sole claim to Leon's cock. because that's all it ever is.
which is so reductive and sexist and I hate fandom. but after all of the crowing about how Luis "stole" Ada's scenes, when that's not at all what fucking happened, I have absolutely no hope of having any sort of good faith conversation about it at all if and when the time comes.
so i’m usually pretty good at seeing where other people are coming from. i may not agree with their position, but i’m usually able to see their thought process and how they got there.
i have NO IDEA how aeon fandom got it in their head that the remakes are doubling down on the relationship and making it “more canon than ever” – which is a real sentiment i keep seeing on tumblr and twitter.
i’ve tried looking at this from every possible angle, and i have no idea what they could possibly be looking at and misconstruing as not just explicitly romantic, but MORE explicitly romantic than OG.
is it that part in RE2make where he tells her he never trusted her? or the part where he genuinely tries to arrest/apprehend her?
is it that part in RE4make where he admits to thinking of her as being heartless? or the part where he explicitly asks her to change who she is? or the part where he literally tells her to fuck off without him?
like which part of their relationship in the remakes is more romantic than OG i seriously do not understand and cannot figure this out
I'm pretty sure that the way that Ashley is looking at Leon in this shot is exactly how I look at him probably 60% of the time. Some stupid-ass shit leaves his mouth and I'm just
The closest that Leon has ever gotten to having a 80s movie Cool-Guy "Is this guy bothering you, babe?" moment in his life.
It's the coolest he's ever been and the coolest he'll ever be.
Just let him have this.
- And how are you doing?
- You know, just surviving.
Hey, I'm the original 25 y/o anon and respectfully, I feel that you may have misunderstood my ask. The comparison to narcissism is a bit uncalled for, though maybe that wasn't your intention. I don't 100% agree with everything you've said, but I do understand where you've come from. I do still firmly believe that no, there is no official timeline. That's silly in my eyes. Not everyone is handed the same deck with the same privileges, experiences and opportunities. Everybody also faces curveballs too and many of them. Does that mean that they can't achieve happiness and make the best of themselves, despite arriving later to things compared to their more privileged peers? No, of course not. I've done the work and proven that to myself this year. Despite the poverty and years of trauma, I'm finally going to college to study something I'm deeply passionate about and learning to value myself and seek out healthier relationships. I'm my own evidence to prove that life doesn't have to become jaded and meaningless, just because age may be unconventional accoridng to stereotypes and capitalism. With respect, I'm sure you weren't intending to invalidate others nor throw out insults! I'm sorry to hear about your friend and her issues with having children. That's a very unfortunate thing to happen to her and I hope she finds fulfilment elsewhere if necessary, I just wanted to clear up any misunderstandings if there were any and I wish you a wonderful weekend. I really enjoy your blog and RE takes + information! Thanks for taking so much time to answer questions for newer fans.
Also, just to add, I don't accept being painted as naive. My life has been LONG lol and I've learned a lot the hard way. I am an experienced adult, but I may have wrongly misinterpreted you too! No hard feelings at all, just clearing the air and I hope I haven't accidentally brought negativity to you or your ask box, it wasn't my intention. Just wanted to share my new found lease on life, which I think everyone is deserving of.
So, just as like a blanket statement: if I'm responding to an ask, I'm only directly addressing the asker. My "it's narcissistic" comment wasn't meant to retroactively apply to you -- only to the person who left the ask implying that having a worldview that's anything other than "you can do anything at any point" is pessimistic.
In truth, I don't know why you sent the original ask or what you were responding to, because I've long since made peace with where I'm at in life and the opportunities I've missed, which is why I only talked about the saying in a general sense instead of having a more pointed conversation.
The "no official timeline" thing is something that I think is good to have in the back of your mind when you're looking in retrospect/reflecting on your life. It's not a good thing to carry around with you pre-emptively. "So you got to shit later than society thinks is normal lmao w/e who cares, you did the thing and that's what matters" is way different from "You don't have to do this right now, fuck it, there's no official timeline" -- and the latter is the mindset that I was addressing. It does encourage learned helplessness by reinforcing someone's avoidant tendencies. That's why I don't like people reaching for that as a platitude by default.
And that's also why I made it a point to say I was using a generalized, ubiquitous "you" in my response to your original ask -- because I don't know your story, so I wasn't responding/can't respond to your situation specifically. All I could do/did do was respond to the impulse to tell someone "don't worry about it, you don't need to do a thing right now."
My response to that will always be: If not now, when? And if there's actual barriers to entry for a thing, my follow-up question will be: Are you making a good faith effort to break through those barriers, or are you just building up a wall of excuses that you can hide behind and feel safe?
I will always encourage someone to act rather than wait, because I have watched too many dreams fall apart and had too many friends get saddled with regret as a result.
I don't really wanna eat up any more real estate on my blog with this stuff, though.
me: god it’s so not safe for me to be fuckin driving after spending all this goddamn time in the heat son of a fucking bitch i might die here man my brain: hey me: my brain: hey you ever think about how what really fucked up Leon’s life was technically not the decision to actually drive into Raccoon City, nor anything to do with Ada – but rather, the decision he made to push Claire away outside the city? me: my brain: if he hadn’t pushed her away, the CIA would’ve never been able to catch up with him and Sherry, and the perpetual nightmare that his life turned into would’ve never happened me: brain, shut the fuck up. you’re overheated and exhausted and you’re just saying stupid shit just to say it my brain: was anything I just said untrue??? me: if Leon had the choice to go back in time and stop Claire from leaving his side outside of Raccoon City, he wouldn’t. because if he does that, and he makes it a reality that he was never abducted by the CIA, then he condemns Ashley to her fate as a plaga host six years in the future. he would never make that decision my brain: wouldn’t he? me: ??????? my brain: if given the choice between giving Sherry a shot at having a normal adolescence and the freedom to live her own life on her own terms – or saving Ashley from being Saddler’s mind slave, which do you think he’d choose? be honest me: brain, this is just another version of the “love or duty” question, and we already know that Leon would choose duty every ti– my brain: but, in this scenario, who is the love, and who is the duty? is this a case of Leon’s paternal love for Sherry vs his duty to prevent the millions of deaths that would occur as a result of Ashley’s plaga? or is it a case of Leon being honor-bound to a little girl that he swore to protect vs saving a woman he loves from a fate worse than death? me: me: me: my brain: :)
Biggest threat to Aeon? Media literacy.
part of me feels like this isn't even media literacy, at this point.
this is like
they look at some toxic fucking shit and go "this is the truest form of love"
like
@ the homies in aeon fandom: if a man ever treats you like remake Leon treats remake Ada, GET THE FUCK OUT OF THAT RELATIONSHIP
RUN
GET OUT OF THERE
HE DOESN'T RESPECT YOU
The feminine urge to become an ethereal being not bound by the rules of this world
ngl leon being toxic af to ada makes me way more interested in aeon than i ever was in OG
like the biggest problem with their OG relationship was that ada would just do shit and leon would just let her and it was like “what is the point of you two interacting”
but ada doesn’t take anyone’s shit, so with leon being toxic to her, she actually claps back at him and is probably eventually going to actually beat his ass and he’ll deserve it


