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@bandaddictedaf

| 16 | The Netherlands | 👭|
My problem is that sometimes i don’t know how to feel Some nights i wake up at the middle of night my hands shake and my heart beats fast and i don’t know whether to feel relieved that it was all just a nightmare or be terrified because it’s been a long time and these nightmares haven’t left me alone
He was like reading a book at the kitchen table, while waiting for the kettle to boil, and the blinds letting in just enough light as to not disturb the cat (if you have a cat) in its peaceful slumber on the counter, next to the flowers you have set out. That overwhelming sense of home before the eeriness of too much silence crept up on you, and you’d have to move because suddenly the air no longer held the serene feeling it had only a moment ago. He was danger. But you loved it. Because he kept you on edge, that alert he made you feel. Your sudden awareness to everything. He made you feel so goddamn alive. But he leaves, almost too quickly. Like sunlight behind the clouds, and as abrupt as the screeching of steam as water boils. And you realize he doesn’t quite feel the same way you do.

“He was like falling in love but feeling more of the fall than love” remnant-thoughts (via remnant-thoughts)