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i may expand on this later but i wanna hear everyone's thoughts on this first:

steve, who is so accustomed to looking after everyone, meeting someone who wants to take care of him. who lets him be vulnerable, who forces him to stop and replenish and relax, who asks HIM how HE'S doing. and he just breaks down bc finally, FINALLY, he is safe to do so without feeling like he's dropping the burden everyone has unknowingly saddled him with.

time to expand! ALSO, if you want a fic like this, go harass @wroteclassicaly because she has this kind of fic in the works!! (do not harass kristen actually just ask her politely if you harass her i'll hurt you!) and she's my favourite steve writer so you know she's gonna do it justice.

  • i think it might start with you tending to his wounds. poor boy gets so many of them, i feel like that's the most logical place to start. he looks after everyone else but then suddenly you're shoving him into the bathroom and sitting him down on the toilet lid, gingerly dabbing his cuts with an alcohol wipe that makes him wince and insist that he's fine but you're not taking any of it. and it touches him, you know? it's so sweet
  • and you're mad at him for putting himself in such danger, and he gets frustrated bc who else is gonna do it? he can't just let everyone fend for themselves bc they'd die
  • "yeah, well, just please look out for yourself, too. or else i'm gonna do it for you."
  • which makes him feel very guilty. but he definitely wants to be looked after but he can't afford to be that vulnerable
  • it comes in small ways. when packing a change of clothes for yourself, you pack one for him, too. when going on a grocery run for the group, you make sure to get him his favourite snack. when he can't quite hear someone due to his bad ear and you see him straining, you supply him with the words he missed. and every time you're in a fight, you watch his back
  • and steve would slowly begin to relax around you. not always voluntarily.
  • he'd have a bad pain day and you'd need to forcibly push him back onto the couch so he'd let you get something for him. or you'd have to compromise with him: fine, he can stay up and be on watch, but you're gonna stay up with him -- and when he eventually falls asleep on your shoulder, he's quietly grateful
  • one day, he has a really bad pain day. and you know he's miserable bc he doesn't have the strength to wash his hair and he feels gross. so you sit him down in the shower and with a lot of coaxing you do it for him. and a few silent tears slip down his cheeks, and he asks why the hell you're doing it. what's the point. it doesn't matter.
  • "it matters to you, so it matters to me."
  • oh, that hurts. he swipes away a few more tears and clears his throat. lets you finish up. but when you try to cook dinner or anything more, he pulls you onto the couch with him. he just wants to watch a movie. he's quiet the whole way through -- has been since the shower
  • bc he's realizing that the way he says "i love you" is by taking care of people, and you've been saying it to him over and over the entire time you've known each other
  • and he learns to let you for your sake. bc he knows that expressing feelings isn't always easy and sometimes it's a lot easier to wash some dishes or patch up wounds. he lets you bc it's your way of expressing yourself
  • eventually, he enjoys it. he lets you do it for his sake, too, but that takes a while. he's the one who takes care of people, after all
  • maybe you're able to look after each other in tandem. your favours and helpful gestures silent "i love you" and "i love you too"

just because you sit comfortably in the middle of the cage rather than rattling the bars doesn't mean it's walls aren't there. just because you run deftly ahead of the whip, never feeling its sting, doesn't mean it isn't still cracking behind you. coercion is still coercion and you are a fool to identify yourself with your jailers.

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“Those who do not move do not notice their chains.”

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if you ever doubt your writing, be it your themes, or the reason behind it, remember that h.g wells wrote war of the worlds both as a commentary on colonialism and the horrors it brings, and because he fucking hated his neighbours and his 13 hour job, and wanted to write about the town in which he lived getting blasted to the fucking ground by lasers into an irreparable heap and all of the townspeople dying painfully 

you, too, can channel your hatred for that guy that lives down the hall and blasts music at 4am into the one of the most influential science fiction stories ever written! fuck it! i believe in you!!  

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since we are talking about people who deserve a higher salary i think teachers should be making six figures a year btw. if state superintendents who have never set foot in a classroom can make that much so should the teachers. teachers are quite literally the backbone of our society and if teachers were actually properly compensated we wouldn’t have a shortage or bad teachers who are continually burnout because of a lack of proper compensation.