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@badbitchfiles

documenting my journey to becoming the best version of myself

Vibes for the Rest of the Year

Getting My Finances Together:

  • Rebuilding my savings
  • Stack my bills account
  • Paying down (and keeping down) the credit cards
  • Probably open some more savings accounts lol (I need one for my car care/maintenance & some sinking funds for other stuff)
  • *Added 9/17*: Get a whole new job; the one I'm at now is okay in terms of the work, but it doesn't pay nearly enough and the paltry ass raise I just got was wiped out by a reduction in hours (but the favorites got an increase in hours). Plus the management is incompetent, sneaky and doesn't value the employees that aren't favorites. I'll stay there long enough to line something else up (or get through school, whichever comes first) and then I'm gone.

Self Care:

  • Being consistent with skin & body care routine
  • Daily Meditation (turning on my Slow Morning timer before I go to bed)
  • Daily Journaling
  • Daily Vitamins
  • Investing in weekly solo dates & monthly/quarterly facials*
  • Monthly pedicures
  • Get back in the gym**
  • intuitive eating with a focus on veg & leafy greens

Business/Career:

  • I plan on relaunching The "WTF" Planner with the new year but I also plan on starting software developer/engineer school in October BUT I'm considering looking into UX design as a backup, hopefully that doesn't involve coding lol
  • I can take my time creating content for WTF Planner as I've rebranded/redesigned everything so I'll need to make updated graphics for everything. I also want to make seasonal designs to sell them as limited edition products (Christmas, spring, summer, Halloween, maybe a juneteenth and new years edition?)
  • Also finish putting together my other two brands (a cousin brand to the "wtf" Planner and another one that I've been holding onto for a while but now I potentially have a way to launch it the way I want

*I want to take myself out every Friday (barring my coworkers & I going out). I've created a list in my phone of the different cuisines/restaurants I want to try and where I can get them. I've also priced out different spas and their products.

**I've selected two gyms; one is close to my job but has locations near-ish my house and near one of the markets I go to. The other is near the apartment I picked out (the apartment has a gym on-site, but I love this one) and it's all inclusive with a focus on weights which I definitely want to get into.

Ladies to achieve anything worthwhile in this life you have to get very comfortable with the idea of embarrassment ,disappointment, resistance and ostracization from your current environment.

When you start out posting on socials, your current friends, family, classmates, and neighbors will laugh at you. They'll call you pretentious and put you down every step you take. Online trolls will call you a wannabe and put you down and compare you to others. You'll deal with six likes on a post that took you hours to perfect. When you get your first brand deal, it'll be as low value as it gets.Then there will be all the virtue signaling and getting canceled and character anhiliation that comes with projected envy. When you start that business, your friends will expect discounts and debt and cut you off for not giving them one. When you start getting successful, they'll feel entitled to your success and hate on you for not crediting them to it. When you decide to leave the country, your own parents will come at you from angles higher than 360°. When you decide to dress better and sit upright and smell nice, your current friend group that's used to low balling you will have a group chat called 'lmaoo she looks so stupid'.

This is the price of success. Success is lonely. Its hard work and being underestimated. It's losing best friends and rifts in your family. You'll shower in tears and triple guess every decision you've taken. Success is uncomfortable and slow, and it will cost you friendships and relationships, and comfort.

If you can't stomach this, don't try. If you can't imagine not being friends with your current friends or your own family backbiting and badmouthing you at family gatherings and your cousins laughing at you and ex classmates from 2014 trolling your work stay where you are.

If you decide to chase your dreams understand you'll be running solo. Understand your mom and bf and bestie said 'I'll support you through everything ' to be polite and they might even have meant it but the second you start showing up as a different person than what they're comfortable with there will be resistance and be ready to work through it with them while staying true to your goals.

If you choose the success way forget the romanticized success stories. It's gruesome . It's survival only for the fittest, and either go big or go home mediocre, there is no mid point.