show stealer!
The best photo I took at Dashcon 2
i need a compilation of zac oyama's PCs getting nasty. like i need "do you have a fucking warrant" and "loser says what" and "who do you know in this room right now" and "i know a story about a real creep who had a scroll" and "where is your bulb now" and every version of "i'm gonna do the work to love cody" all in one place. for science.
editing is so funny because it's like "damn, i wrote 'before' two times within three paragraphs. they are going to stone me in the town square for this"
I've just. I've got feelings about Mensah and Murderbot in ep 6.
She's obviously mad. She's got the disappointed mom voice in Full Effect, the one that makes you wanna go "hey I gotta go be. Anywhere else. Where you're not looking at me." From her perspective, this SecUnit's voiced that it doesn't particularly care that the others are in danger, it's dumped helpful data to make room for trash TV, slacking on its job and now endangering everyone's lives. She's understandably furious.
I don't think the episode of Sanctuary Moon calmed her down. I think the realization that Murderbot was doing its best, for her, surprised her enough to shake her out of it.
I mean, first of all, it starts singing the theme song. We've already established this is weird enough to make a combat SecUnit stop and go "what the fuck," and Mensah definitely has the same reaction. She's upset because to her, this is just SecUnit caring more about its shows than about the team again. But then it's picked a "calming episode." More than that, it's picked one specifically to help her current issue. It's breathing along with the show. She's watching, in real time, how it uses this trash TV show to better understand humans, and is now trying to use it to help her, specifically, with her exact needs, right now.
I think at this moment she realizes SecUnit isn't good at being a person the way she thinks about people, expects people to be, and recalibrates her understanding of it as something that is very much not a person, but trying to interact with her in a way that she understands, when she hasn't been doing so for it as much. I think this confusion and realization stops the initial anger and fear long enough for her to recenter and for them to move forward.
Anyone else with chronic pain ever get really absorbed in a project and dissociate from your body while you're working but then you finish and you come back to your body and you're just like AAAAAAAHHH! WHAT'S WRONG?? oh yeah. The horrors. Never mind
sometimes i need to remind myself that i'm writing fanfiction for free and i'm allowed to have a shitty sentence or two
so many of my fics have remained buried in my drafts because i wrote the cool scenes first and then didn’t have “connective tissue”. but i’m freeing myself from that and just adding shitty “and then a week passed” or “they got to their destination” connections and just posting them and it’s so! freeing! try it!
I can't tell you how many times I've agonized over a scene transition, only to fill in the missing space with, like, a sentence.
Write the parts you wanna write and then go in and slap scotch tape over the rest of it.
Sometimes when I’m feeling self conscious I’ll go and pull a book off my shelf to see how whichever author handled time transitions, and it’s really REALLY common that it’s just, like, “October came and went.” And that’s SO freeing. Just fast forward. Just do it.
It really does work.
Plus if the transition or passage of time isn't interesting to write.. it's probably not going to be interesting to read either. Just skip it.
Also yeah who cares about a shitty sentence or two even aside from that, honestly. Done is better than perfect.









