Does anybody else think “man, I’d do so many things if I felt better” but once you feel better you don’t do anything cuz you just want to chill and enjoy not feeling bad?
obsessions-and-dreams
Y e a h
you’re invited to kick my ass!
date: any day (preferably soon) time: anytime (again, as soon as possible) place: anywhere rsvp: not even necessary! just show up whenever & wherever i am and start swinging
Mental illness
Me: *has mountains of things to do* Maybe I should work on something
Depression: I don’t think you can do it. You’re just gonna fail. It doesn’t matter because you’ll disappoint everyone anyway.
Anxiety: yeAH BUT IT HAS TO GET DONE EVERY SECOND YOU SPEND NOT DOING IT JUST MAKES IT WORSE AND WHAT IF YOU FAIL THEM AND WHAT IF IT RUINS YOUR LIFE FOREVER?!
Depression: yeah but existence is futile you’re gonna die and nobody will remember you eventually so it’s pointless to do those things. Or even get up. Or keep breathing
Anxiety: YES BUT YOU CAN’T FAIL BECAUSE EVERYONE WILL HATE YOU BUT WHAT IF THEY ALREADY DO OH GOD SEE THEY HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU’RE SUCH A SHUT IN AND BECAUSE YOU NEVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT
Depression: see actually I agree on that one you’re really dumb and deserve to die a slow and painful death
Self loathing: *appears* you called?
Depression and anxiety: *start talking over each other*
Self loathing: there are exactly 298,092,188 reasons to hate yourself right now want me to list a few?
Me: no actually-
Self loathing: okay here we go one you’re stupid two you’re an idiot three everyone hates you four you ruin everything-
PTSD: *walking in* idk if this is a good time to mention that thing that happened two years ago
Depression: oh man yeah you really failed that day holy shit remember how much you wanted to die and how much it hurt when they did that
Anxiety: *screams* HOLYFUCKINGSHIT ITS HAPPENING AGAIN PANIC PANIC YOU’RE GONNA DIE YOU’RE GONNA GET HURT YOU’RE GONNA LOSE EVERYTHING YOU LOVE OH GOD
Me: fuck it I’m going to sleep.
Insomnia: NOT SO FAST MOTHERFUCKER-
I wonder what it’s like to go a day without feeling like shit
If I had to pick one meme to describe myself…
