I think part of the reason I haven’t lost weight yet is what if I do, and people still don’t want me?
Thank you for everything in my life. I have the most amazing supportive family and friends, I have a beautiful dream family home that is being built right now to keep us safe and happy. We have enough money to live comfortably and happily. I am entering my third year of university. I am so privileged and so grateful for my wonderful life and I want to thank the powers above for everything that I have and my parents who sacrificed everything to move to Canada for a better life.
Thank you.
Seasons of Love
Love is something that I never understood
Until I felt it’s warmth envelop me, like a mid-summer breeze.
Always warm and delightful.
The breeze that I had grown accustom to grew crisper, sharper, colder as time went on.
Green turned to gold as warmth turned to cold.
We grew distant, like leaves falling from the same branch. We started together but further into our descent, we drifted.
You are gold, I am red.
The beauty of the fall is that it is gradual.
Growing incrementally colder each day until we didn’t even realize that we were dead.
Cold.
Bitter.
Death was upon us, and we knew it.
Like the snow that coated the ground overnight, our love turned cold and was laid to rest.
While we mourned our loss, I could not help but think that this was for the best.
I never understood love until I knew what it could take from me.
RDC
They always say that butterflies are what you’re supposed to feel when you look at the person you love.
All I feel, is longing and shame for the person who I can’t have, and the person who I’m not supposed to love.
You called me unfuckable.
A great life companion, sure, but forever unfuckable.
I find myself wanting to look better, be thinner, be toned, be beautiful.
For you.
I shouldn’t feel this way, I know.
My friends don’t like you, you have no interest in me as a lover, I have to fight to even get you to talk to me, and yet
We are still friends and I’m still in love with you.
What the fuck is wrong with me?