Why is it that I’m keen to be devoured by you
Finally getting an appointment to see a gastroenterologist! Am I finally being taken seriously??
Part of the reason why I'm getting physically sick (GERD problems) is because many things about existing in society give me anxiety, no matter how many times I do them. For example, texting will always give me anxiety, regardless of how many times I do it, which, mind you, is a lot because I teach. It's funny in a sad kind of way
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
My mental illness. I know that we are all neurodiverse. Everyone functions differently. How can I continue to function in a way that is fitting enough to society where I can achieve my goals and get the things that I want? This moderate to severe anxiety that I experience is likely to stay. I don’t know if it’s something that I can completely get rid of. It’s more like skirting around and finding ways to manage it and make it work.
This reminds me of my GERD diagnosis as well. I am probably not going to actually get rid of it. I have to learn to live with it in a way where I can manage it and still continue to be healthy.
I guess my point is, how do we live in a society where the rules work for the neurotypical person? Is there even really such thing? I’m going to figure this one out...