“I basically have two moods: either let’s do something spontaneous and awesome, or let’s just lie down in bed all day and forget the world exists.”
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“The flowers have come, and are adorable, dusky, tortured, passionate like you.”
— Virginia Woolf, in a letter to her lover Vita Sackville-West
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“I’m half afraid of myself. I sometimes feel that no one ever has or ever can share something—”
— Virginia Woolf, in a Letter to Leonard Woolf (May 1st, 1912)
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“Let’s disappear, shall we?”
— Vita Sackville-West, in a letter to Virginia Woolf, December 1926
“I feel entirely dehumanised by the sun now and wish for fog, snow, rain, humanity.”
— Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Edward Sackville-West c. September 1926
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“I wonder if you talked about me, as you went home, or thought of me when the moon rose,”
— Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Vanessa Bell written c. August 1908
“So I go from being half in love with you, and wanting you to be with me always, and know everything about me, to the extreme of wildness and aloofness.”
— Virginia Woolf, in a Letter to Leonard Woolf (May 1st, 1912)
“I could only think of you as being very distant and beautiful and calm. A lighthouse in clean waters.”
— Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Vita Sackville-West c. January 1927
“I love you, and I’m conscious of you all the time.”
— Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Katherine Mansfield c. January 1921
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“I have never more wanted to see you than I do now — just to sit and look at you,”
— Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Vita Sackville-West written c. October 1927
Like a little warm coal in my heart burns your saying that you miss me. I miss you oh so much. How much, you’ll never believe or know. At every moment of the day. It is painful but also rather pleasant, if you know what I mean. I mean, that it is good to have so keen and persistent a feeling about somebody. It is a sign of vitality. -Vita Sackville West to Virginia Woolf, Feburuary 28 1926
Yes, dearest Vita: I do miss you; I think of you: I have a million things , not so much to say, as to sink into you. -Virginia Woolf to Vita Sackville West, March 16 1926
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bernard — has “writer” on their social media bios but doesn’t actually write anything, buys too many notebooks, friendly, too talkative, terrible fashion sense, overshares everything about themselves, the kind of person who can get strangers to tell them their life story with a concerned glance, philosophical party animal, loves memes, quotes vines a lot
susan — mom friend, a little judgmental but wouldn’t admit it, nature lover, more passionate than they let on, the epitome of the “i have such a plain face oh woe no one’s going to fall in love with me” trope in young adult literature but pretty much everyone’s actually in love with them, would set themselves on fire to keep others warm, practical and sensible (secretly wishes they were less realistic), full of regrets
rhoda — introvert, sensitive, afraid of other people, daydreamer, scared of intimacy, tragic shakespeare heroine aesthetic, always feels like the filler friend, loves listening to music, overthinks a lot, achieves happiness through cancelled appointments, most people don’t really know them (news flash they don’t really know themselves either)
neville — gay™, precious cinnamon roll too pure for this world, the artsy friend, does things for the aesthetic, has a love-hate relationship with authority figures, sentimental, probably stans oscar wilde, idealizes other people too much, hopeless romantic, looks for meaning in the most mundane of things (like honestly chill, sometimes a trash can is just a trash can and not a metaphor for the slow decay of society)
louis — outsider, that one friend who shares tumblr text posts about being the filler friend on facebook but is actually the one who doesn’t make any effort to know their friends oops, history nerd, secretly a softie, probably has weird hobbies that no one knows about, inferiority complex, intellectual, probably really into the dark academia aesthetic
jinny — the life of the party, loves to dance, everyone thinks they’re shallow but they’re actually way smarter than they let on, brutally honest, beautiful and knows it, lives in the moment, life motto is probably “yolo”, has a lot of instagram followers, probably has a curated feed, classy fashion sense, done with everyone’s shit, feminist (side note i am very gay for her)
guys i love finding the stuff i am learning in school in real life. what i mean is when there is a history joke in a sitcom or i am able to recognise patterns of behaviour from my psychology class in people or coming across obscure literary references in modern books. i love holding knowledge in my hands like a sword while also wearing it as an armor. i love learning and understanding and growing.
Okay but listen
terrible people aren’t the rule. they are the exception. so don’t go out into the world defending your shitty behaviour by saying everyone does that. nah. the world needs kind, empathetic people and we aren’t accepting any less. so either get your act together or get tf out.
emily dickinson said “say, sea, / take me!” and virginia woolf said “i said to the star: ‘consume me’”
you know no one would be upset about the gay or trans characters dying if they got the same treatment as other movie protags. like if you want me to follow the adventures of Jimmothy WhiteStraightMan and give him one (1) lesbian friend, I want her to fucking live because she’s all we got. but if you make a movie about, say, an entire crew full of lady pirates with a good spread of races and sexualities and let them kick ass for the whole movie, we’re not gonna complain when the captain gets run through with a sword in the end tryna protect her crew, ya feel?
it’s not that you can’t kill off gay characters it’s that you can’t make a gay character an emotional pawn that only gets to exist for three episodes and call that representation
today my prof said to my class “you don’t truly love someone until they’ve hurt you and you still think of them as the greatest person in the world. Love is the most violent act.” ok ok ok
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men are so fucking weird and scary? don’t let any man ever convince you love is supposed to be painful or violent. don’t let any man justify his wrongful actions by saying they’re just part of what True Love is.
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Some of my Alvareider established relationship headcanons that approximately no one asked for lmao:
- Penelope basically stops calling him Schneider, because it seems weird to call him that now that they’re together and calling him by his first name feels even weirder – like she’s talking to a stranger. So she pretty much just refers to him as babe whenever she needs his attention.
- And even though he tries so hard not to, he can’t help but smile when she says “babe!” in that tone of voice that obviously means she’s exasperated with him.
- And one time early on she’s like, you always do that. And he’s like, what?
- “Smile when I’m annoyed with you.”
- And he apologizes but also feels the need to explain that she says babe now instead of Schneider and he still can’t believe how lucky he is sometimes.
- And then she’s like, ugh, well now I can’t be annoyed with you. That’s too cute.
- And he’s like you still look annoyed.
- “I’m annoyed that I’m not annoyed with you.”
- Schneider calls her Pen sometimes still, but cycles through a laundry list of pet names: babe is always at the top of it, but he sometimes goes for honey or sweetheart or darling. Honey when he’s trying to convince her of something, sweetheart is always immediately followed by him kissing her hand, darling only ever comes out when he’s still half asleep in the morning and she wakes him up.
- Of course it’s no surprise to anyone that he’s super affectionate – he was always tactile with her even when they weren’t dating. Now, he’s basically always holding her hand or has his arm around her or rests his hand on her thigh.
- She herself finds out that she has a huge fixation on his hair – she’s always running her hands through it or playing with it or tangling her fingers in it. It gets to the point where he won’t even put product in it half the time any more because it always ends up getting mussed up by her hands anyway.
- Which, score, that’s what she wanted all along anyway.
- Everyone else around them just takes it in stride. No one bats an eye at the fact that she and Schneider will just be standing in line for the movies, her leaning back against him, his arms around her waist, or that they’ll spend time hanging out in the apartment, her legs in his lap, his fingers gently massaging her legs.
- The only time someone calls it out is when Elena sits them down to talk about prom and Penelope is just sitting on Schneider’s lap with his hand on her waist. Elena rolls her eyes and says – you know that there’s plenty of open seating, right? Like, you could just be on two separate chairs.
- She and Schneider just look at each other, then Penelope looks around the room and is like, I see your point but I’m not gonna move. Now, tell us about prom.
- They get in a lot of fights about money early on – he always wants to spend it on her and their relationship, she considers most of the things he wants to buy either obscenely expensive, completely unnecessary or some combination of the two.
- They finally settle on the following agreement: they alternate planning the dates. A Penelope date is generally a lowkey, budget outing – mini-golfing with snacks snuck in a backpack, a free movie at the park with champagne in a cooler. A Schneider date is amazing food on a private patio overlooking the city or a private tour of the zoo followed by a brunch next to the otter exhibit.
- They both secretly like the other’s dates the best.
- The big exception to the spend rule is when they take trips together. Schneider bargains for two romantic getaways outside of their anniversary and her birthday (he wanted one per quarter, but then she pointed out that she didn’t have that many vacation days) and one family summer trip a year.
- He spends an absurd amount of money every single time, but she tries not to mind because it makes him so happy to be able to do it and he always makes sure to include her (and the kids and her mom if it’s a family trip) in the planning, and then makes sure they have best and nicest possible experience that money can buy.
- Turns out that money can buy some ridiculously amazing things.
- At the end of every vacation, they always take time to watch the sunset or lay out underneath the stars or – one memorable night in New Zealand – catch a meteor shower and talk about what their favorite part of the vacation was.
- Penelope’s are always experiences that were unexpected – finding a hidden lagoon to swim in, spending the night on the beach and then waking up to watch baby turtles hatch, seeing a leopard on her very first safari trip (I’ve been a guide for ten years and this is the first time I’ve ever seen one, their guide said incredulously)
- Schneider’s are always individual moments that seem – well – ordinary: the time Elena had a mango cake that was so good it made her tear up, wishing on a shooting star on their very first vacation together, playing volleyball on the beach as a family.
- She wonders if it’s because he’s taken so many trips around the world already that everything that seems extraordinary to her is just ordinary to him.
- She finally asks on their sixth trip together, after he says that his favorite moment of the trip was getting breakfast together in some hole in the wall place in town.
- He just looks at her and smiles.
- “I never had anyone to share all the ordinary stuff with.” He reaches over and wraps his fingers around hers, kisses the back of her hand. “And I’m just happy every single time that I get to share them with you.”
penelope and schneider are the small and tall trope, the tough and soft trope, the stressed and chill trope, the no family and too much family trope, the class differences trope, the friends to lovers trope,,,, so many tropes to process. lmaoo
It’s so strange to me how many people always secretly assumed that the future was bad and merciless and no one ever found anything worth living for and are mad about the ending being unambiguously good? Because all that ending did was confirm things that I had always assumed and hoped for. Like, I am really mad about the Ishmael thing, but otherwise? That end was good and needed. At the time the books came out, ending things ambiguously and maybe dark was not as prevalent as it is now, or at least not on the same way, but we don’t need stories to tell us that the world is bad because we already know that. We need stories to tell us you can be hit by every bad thing, over and over and over again, and still come out on the other side and find life and love and happiness and even eventual wholeness because it is terribly easy to forget that when you’re living that. Bleak endings are out, kids. Hope is in. Fight me about it. Sometimes the happy ending IS the hard ending because it was so fucking hard to earn, and sometimes hope is a whole lot scarier than continued ugliness and uncertainty when you’ve been living without it. The show missed a lot of important, difficult points that are worth discussing, but this is not one of them.