April 4th, 12:42am
fuck.

fuck.
I was obsessed with the way you touched me. you knew what made me scared or angry and you knew what made me move closer. my fear now, will anyone else move me the same way you knew how to move me.
somewhere between full of emotions and completely emotionless
don't waste your time on me, you're already the voice inside my head.
never let your happiness depend on another person( as in being sad when that persons sad which drags you down or only ever being happy or in a good mood when that person is ) because once they leave you have to start over and learn how to be happy all on your own again and let me tell you it is the hardest thing
what am I supposed to do, when I'm lost and I'm thinking of the ways I used to love you.
I JUST WANT YOU TO MISS ME
I see the sky about to rain, that cloud of yours is rolling in. your tears raining down on me. I'm missing you. missing you. I'm missing you. can't stop missing you. I'm missing you. I'm missing you. I remember it like yesterday. how you looked right at me. like you knew what was coming. like you knew somehow.
can good karma come back to me now. can a truck hit me now please. I'm tired of being here and feeling like this.
I get how he played me so hard. I get it. he knew me better than anyone else. he knew how to hide it and what not to show and what to show. he got me so good and I had no idea.
I love you
but I guess if I love you.. I should let you move on. you're moving so quickly though it's hard to watch almost.
seeing you happy makes my heart warm because I know you're doing okay. but sometimes that warm feeling can burn.
I need you. call me. remember me. I still exist don't forget about me. reach out to me. please.
you're either sleeping or smoking. I'm crying. I want to text you so bad. I want to tell you everything I'm feeling like I usually did but I know that I can't and that's the thing that makes me shake. I got my license today. I'm honestly going to drive by your house so often no doubt. I want you to care that's all.
never let your happiness depend on another person( as in being sad when that persons sad which drags you down or only ever being happy or in a good mood when that person is ) because once they leave you have to start over and learn how to be happy all on your own again and let me tell you it is the hardest thing
asshole
I hate to say it but I think I changed you at least the you that loved me as much as you told me. I think I changed you and made you so much better and as soon as things got out I you changed back or turned into something even worse. you liked a tweet that said "if they hating, you must be doing something right" I truly hope you do not think that. you didn't do anything right in this situation I love you but you fucked up worse than you ever have. nobody is hating some people are just shocked or disappointed. nobody saw this coming especially me.