fuck off

no but literally how are you supposed to get out of a bad mood without breaking something or screaming or hurting yourself

bpd is not just bursting out in anger because you can’t control your emotions, it’s complaining, crying in front of your lover because of all the things that hurt you and the things you expect from him and later feeling guilty, hating yourself so much that you’re thinking you don’t even have the right to complain and the only thing you deserve is to be treated like shit

My biggest trigger is feeling like i disappointed someone I care about . It could be something as small as changing my mind about going out and I’ll just hate myself and trigger an episode for feeling like I didn’t live up to someone’s standards.

Found on Facebook.

"I'm Okay Though" by Sara Kays

How can I live all these years in this body and still be a stranger to myself

me 🤝 telling people ‘i’m good’ when i’m having a bad breakdown bc i know they won’t really care and me and my feelings are an inconvenience anyway

why am i such a fuck up

I want to beat myself to death.

I’m so fucking tired. I can’t do this anymore.

at this point the noise in my head is just a mixture of tv static and screaming noises

I’m sick of going to bed and knowing things won’t be better tomorrow

I can’t remember a time when I could actually recognise myself in the mirror.

Ever since I was a kid when I’ve seen my reflection it has felt like looking at a stranger.

I’ve genuinely never been able to identify with myself.

BPD is watching yourself burn your own life to the ground over and over again