insane

how old are you

so i’ve been seeing a lot of ppl say that ethel was “eaten alive” but this isn’t true, is it? wasn’t she dead before her lover started eating her? im just asking bc i wanna get a better grip on the timeline of the plot in my mind cuz its so intense! i assumed that ‘strangers’ was from the viewpoint of her ghost looking on as her flesh is consumed since august ‘underground’ and ‘televangelism’ represent her death.. idk i was just wondering! nevertheless i hope ur doing well mother :-)

oh no he kills her before he eats her. and he’s not really a cannibal by nature, he just has a psychotic break and they have no money and he just kinda goes crazy and eats a piece of her before the cops find him, he doesn’t like devour her entire body lol. hope ur doing well too!! ♡

what do u do when ur not working? love u .-.

do lines of ketamine and writhe on my floor to a grouper song, basking in the glow of unmedicated bipolar disorder

sorry if this is weird but i am so happy to know that ur autistic. i feel like autistic girls make the best art and tell the best stories

i think so too!! i honestly think it makes me a better artist lol, im happy to be autistic (minus the constant sensory overload but u can’t have ur cake and eat it too i guess)

what’s the scariest album you’ve listened to and why

not an album but i used to watch this one dmt visualizer on youtube with a shepard tone playing over it on repeat when i would smoke and it made me feel like i was descending into hell

DUST BOWL OFFICIAL RELEASE WHEN

ask not for whom my pussy pops; it pops for thee

when ur coming up with the narrative in ur head does it come to u in images or sound or words, like what comes first

always images. sound comes next and then words are last.

what perfume do you recommend to smother people?

if you want them to want to fuck you, versace crystal noir. if you want them to be nauseated and also want to fuck you, female christ by nineteen sixty-nine.

Not a question but I just wanted to say that I think about the mini Bible I gifted you at one of your shows often. I like to think it’s thrown in a box of yours somewhere archived like a memory, at least I hope that’s the case. I stream you everyday and dream of opening for one of your shows one day. (Im so cringe lol)

I love you, your art, and your writing so much! Thank you for putting out and letting us into your world. ♡︎

it’s on my night stand :’) still one of my favorite gifts ever, thank u so much again. maybe we will play a show together someday, who knows ♡

Do you ever feel as a trans woman the need to question what makes us a person outside of one fact to dark to shine a light onto. The spotlight would scare me.

honestly, not really. i’ve stopped questioning myself i think. i think society surrounds us with thinkpieces and debates and controversy to keep us unsure of ourselves and self-deprecated but i literally don’t give a fuck lol. i’m not about to sit here and apologize for my body and soul or try to explain myself as if anyone is owed that. the world can take it or leave it but i do what i want.

ohhhh mother... mother, mother, mother.. do you think we can still be forgiven? is there a certain line that once crossed, we can never come back from? how can i know if im me, if i were ever me? i think we all died, we all died. we've only been replaced with the clones of our past molded with the crimes we've committed. do you think so too?

girl pass the blunt already

Hi Hayden, I was in the livestream where you showed off all your artbooks and the art was so amazing and incredible but I can't remember all the artists you mentioned. Please would you write them up so we can all go down an art rabbit hole together <3

yes! here’s the list i showed

- “zdzislaw beksinski” 4-book box set by Bosz Art

- “ken currie: details of a journey” by tom normand

- “dale earnhardt: determined” by UMI publications

- “house of psychotic women” by kier-la janisse

- “a time not there: the mississippi delta” by norman mauskopf

- “the american south” by bake and kilpatrick (a southern living collection)

- “the art of andrew wyeth” by new york graphic society

- “dante’s inferno: illustrated by william blake” by the folio society

- “hello, my name is” by nadia lee cohen

- “women” by nadia lee cohen

- “brothels in nevada” by timothy hursley

- “a widow and her friends” by charles dana gibson