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In an everlasting state of confusion

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Val or 'Sparkle' - they/them - Germany -  ART COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN - personal blog with stuff I like and art. nsft posts tagged "sparkle after dark"
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If Jopson did a time loop of the Terror he would discreetly throw Mr Hickey over board and then proceeded to just go along with events as they come otherwise

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No wait I take it back. Best time loop scenario would be James and Francis BOTH loop back, and they don’t dare tell the other cause how do you even begin to explain? And at least at first they assume any changed event is due to something they did. But most importantly they’re trying to Fix It while sick with Wanting in silence

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Anonymous asked:

hey, saw your post. Just wanted to tell you I’ve been there. my grandparents stopped recognizing me (esp while I was transitioning) and my grandpa took care of my grandma when he really shouldn’t have. Just wanted to let you know that there is an “other side” of the bad stuff. We keep going, and heal, and time moves forward. NOT to dismiss your feelings!!! I absolutely empathize. It’s hard as shit. But don’t forget that your world will not end.

Thank you :’( it just feels like I’m diving headfirst into enduring abusive and emotionally devastating situations just to see my grandparents? And I don’t even get to do that? Essentially it’s two weeks of being bullied and screamed at and ignored for one weekend of seeing them

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the worst thing about porn bots everywhere is that it’s… bad? And actual real sex workers get kicked off sites just to be replaced by whatever the fuck

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James Fitzjames has a discreetly placed chinese tattoo he tells people means some shit like “nobility and strength”. But actually it means dumplings and wine. And he knows this, he requested this. In his defence he was drunk and vaguely high on pain killers for the second week straight and. Well. They were good dumplings?? After what they feed you in the navy? He got emotional

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*remembers that thing with a screenshot of Picard talking philosophy and Yoda vomiting out his “love leads to fear leads to hate” bullshit to show how clever these franchises are*

do you guys know that Yoda is the dumbest pseudo intellectual piece of shit? He was a dumbass who was wrong even in the original trilogy, idk why he is the ultimate Wise Old Man when there’s nothing but garbage in his brain and fortune cookie wisdom on his lips. Peace

"Do or do not, there is no try" I am going to punt this little green bitch off a cliff.

shrivelled green testicle inside and out. “Too attached to your friends you are” says the bitch to the boy who’s gonna save the galaxy with the power of friendship

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*remembers that thing with a screenshot of Picard talking philosophy and Yoda vomiting out his “love leads to fear leads to hate” bullshit to show how clever these franchises are*

do you guys know that Yoda is the dumbest pseudo intellectual piece of shit? He was a dumbass who was wrong even in the original trilogy, idk why he is the ultimate Wise Old Man when there’s nothing but garbage in his brain and fortune cookie wisdom on his lips. Peace

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I’m probably making it worse by wallowing in my own misery but I truly don’t know why I still expect any kind of emotional… anything from my parents

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Anonymous asked:

Sending you a big hug across the internet if you want it! It sounds like your parents kind of suck, and I’m sorry you’re stuck there right now. I dunno if you want internet randos suggesting things to try to make it better so feel free to ignore, but do you think later you could take the six year old with you on a tiny trip to sightsee something (which, I mean, I guess you’d have to babysit the six year old but then you’d be away from your folks and the yelling and you’d be “entertaining the child” and you could go somewhere like a library where you could just sit down and chill and let the kid explore?) Though I know you haven’t been feeling well, so maybe that would be too exhausting?

it’s exhausting and also because of Christmas everything is closed anyway 😔 thanks

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Literally sitting here crying cause between work and having days off on which I have to spend all day with people who don’t care about me as a person + a six year old I don’t know what I want to do less. I want to go home but I haven’t even gotten to see my grandparents yet

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Ok I‘m not even gonna be mad about my mother nearly killing me by giving me food with nuts in it (it’s been 19 years)…

but she just asked me “hey do you like X food” and I told her no, cause I have been telling her I hate it so much I won’t eat a single bite for decades at this point? And she’s annoyed? Literally why do I even bother when all I get is being screamed at + anything I actually say is ignored? Is it normal to just? So completely not give a shit about anything your son tells you? Ever?