✍🏽: 𝐓𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚 𝐁𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐲

1. Treat yourself to a full body massage every month
2. Go ice skating or learn to ice skate at your local ice skating ring
3. Regularly get your nails done or do them yourself 
4. Go to a concert to one of your favorite artists or as many as you can
5.  Get dressed up and visit a museum or art gala that you’ve never been to
6. Treat yourself to a facial or do one yourself at home 
7. Binge on Netlfix while snacking on some delicious sushi and wine
8. Go to a bookstore, find yourself a comfortable spot, and read a book, or journal your thoughts
9. Take your bike for a ride around the area while blasting some of your favorite music
10. Pack a basket with some drinks and sandwiches and have a picnic at the park  
11. Learn a new language, you can teach yourself or attend clubs for people that are also trying to learn
12. Style your hair, do your makeup, and take a bunch of selfies for the gram
13. Go to a lantern festival 
14. Take a trip somewhere you’ve always wanted to visit
15. Learn to play a new instrument
16. Enroll in a gym class that interests you
17. Follow local food guides on Instagram and try out different foods at the places they recommend
18. Get a new piercing
19. Get your dream tattoo
20. Go to the gun range 
21. Purchase a DNA ancestry kit and learn more about what makes you who you are
22. Attend as many plays as you can
23. Volunteer in something that you’re passionate about
24. Go swimming or learn how to swim
25. Take yourself out to the movies
26. Write and publish a book
27. Buy yourself a new summer dress or bikini and wear it to the beach
28. Tackle your fear of heights and go sky diving
29. Visit a cat cafe or animal shelter
30. Go shopping 
31. Learn how to make a new recipe
32. Take aerial silk classes
33. Take ballet lessons
34. Redecorate your bedroom or apartment 
35. Set the mood, light up candles in your room, dim the lights, and try out new sex toys
36. Get your hair done or buy a cute wig that you’ve always wanted
37. Cosplay
38. Attend a convention
39. Attend a Paint and Sip class, you get to paint art and drink at the same time
40. Explore local spots in your city as if you were a tourist
41. Take up martial art classes
42. Go to the arcade
43. Play video games
44. Visit an aquarium
45. Watch the sunset or sunrise
46. Binge watch Korean dramas
47. Buy yourself some chocolate and flowers because why not
48. Create your own makeup 
49. Go on a hike
50. Go glamping/camping
51. Go to a music festival
52. Train and run a marathon
53. Go on a local yacht cruise
54. Visit pop up shops and bazaars
55. Go horseback riding or learn how to ride a horse
56. Go to the zoo
57. Go surfing or learn how to surf
58. Ride a plane around your city
59. Adopt a pet
60. Buy new toys for your pet and play with them some more
61. Take a pole dancing class
62. Attend a TED talk
63. Stargaze
64. Purchase lingerie and pose for yourself in the mirror
65. Go roller skating or learn how to roller skate
66. Have a photoshoot by yourself or hire someone to do a photoshoot for you
67. Attend a fashion show
68. Attend a circus
69. If you’re into spooky stuff, go to a paranormal tour and dinner adventure 
70. Go to a sports game
71. Attend a comedy show
72. Take part in murder mystery dinners
73. Crash a wedding
74. Go the farmers market
75. Tackle a puzzle
76. Go the drive in theatre
77. Create new clothes out of your old ones or transform ones from the thrift store
78. Go sledding or learn how to sled
79. Play mini golf
80. Make pottery
81. Go indoor skydiving
82. Try karaoke
83. Go snorkeling or learn how to snorkle
84. Try karaoke
85. Try Go Kart Racing
86. Create YouTube videos
87. Go to a rodeo
88. Place a bet at a horse racing event
89. Start your own blog and make extra cash from it 
90. DIY crafts
91. Go on a drive through wild safari
92. Play an extra in a film
93. Go skiing or learn how to skii
94. Attend a book signing event of one of your favorite authors
95. Go to an estate sale in a wealthy neighborhood
96. Learn a new skill online
97. Go to karaoke night at a bar
98. Enter a contest
99. Listen to a podcast
100. Join a support group

“1. We met in the waiting room of our therapist’s office. He told me that orchids symbolize death and stuck one behind my ear. I kissed him too hard and my mother asked me why the scent of liquor was hanging off all my clothes. 8 months later I left white oleanders on his grave. They’re poisonous. I think we were too. 2. He drove too fast and I played music too loud and kissed him while he drove. We were our own accident waiting to happen. We almost drowned one night when we fell into a lake in the middle of winter. When we fell in love. He left me a note telling me that being with me was like being alone. I deleted his number but kept it written down in the back of my old social studies notebook from middle school. I have called him 8 times since then. 3. God, I would’ve fucking died for him. In a few ways, I did. 4. He fucked someone else because he hated the way my scars would split open and bleed all over my clothes. I took a lot of pictures of him. They’re still in my attic. I tried to burn them once but my hair caught fire instead. 5. I never knew his middle name. He spoke in poetry and choked down cigarettes and never answered my calls. I held his hand too tightly. He would climb in my window and fall asleep next to me. I think he had nightmares most nights. My mother found out he was staying over and kicked him out. Everything stopped smelling like him. I hate it. 6. We tried to run away but we were only 16 and we weren’t allowed to buy train tickets so we took a bus but I got sick halfway and threw up my parent’s worried voicemails. He took me to some shitty motel and let me sleep while he went out to buy drugs. We went home and never saw each other again. 7. He would touch my best friend’s thigh under the table when we all went out. I pretended not to notice. He pretended to love me. 8. We wrote each other love letters and he cut my hair to my shoulders. He tasted like coffee with two packets of sugar because that’s all he drank. He was still tired all the time. I wish I could’ve woken him up. My hair is down to my waist now. I can’t remember the sound of his voice. 9. I’m not sure if I ever even loved him. I think I might’ve been so in love with him. He lived next door. Our mothers hated each other. When he was 6 he pulled the flowers out of the garden in our backyard. When we turned 17 he followed me home from school and kissed me. He would wipe away my tears when I cried. And then a new girl showed up at school and he started taking a different route home. He pulled all the flowers out of my fucking garden.”

“1. Seeing blood on your own hands doesn’t make you a poet 2. Kiss the boy you know won’t call you back, don’t cry when he doesn’t call you back 3. It’s pointless to cover your scars with long sleeves and band-aids and bad excuses 4. Bad things have good aim. Don’t think the horrors in the world won’t hurt you. You’re gonna get shot in the heart 5. Remember that one of these days you’re going to have to face death a million times, your mom won’t live forever and neither will your friends or your little brother 6. Drinking too much isn’t even fun. You just feel sick 7. Take a lot of pictures because soon you’ll be thirty-five and you won’t remember who you were at fifteen; you were so much sweeter at fifteen 8. Don’t pick flowers 9. I used to fall in love so I had a reason to kill myself when it didn’t work out, don’t do that to yourself or your mom 10. Don’t kill yourself 11. You don’t have to have a relationship with your parents. Blood isn’t love 12. You don’t have to be in love with yourself 13. Don’t tell your boyfriend your lucky number, he’ll jinx it when you break up 14. Try not to hurt other people, you’ll get splinters in your fingers if you’re always breaking bones 15. Put yourself first and learn how to stop bleeding on your own, without band-aids or boyfriends.”