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@ashtonisrottting

TRIGGER WARNING - VENT ACC - 21y - THEY/SHE -PLEASE, DONT REPORT, JUST BLOCK - KINK BLOGS DNI

one great thing about being sa'ed as a kid? You've always got these weird reactions to doctors touching you, and now that you're older and you know what happened and you need to do certain exams, you just can't. If you do, you'll have a fucking panic attack and probably pass out because the thought of another human being touching you makes you so fucking sick you want to die.

isn't that just perfect y'all /s

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if you're not obsessed with anything weird and niche please try harder. stop going outside for a while. consider getting weirder about the things you already like

Writing is more than just stringing words together.

My writing is my blood, sweat, and tears. It's my desires, my interests, my fears. It's my dwindling sanity. It's sleepless nights, fueled by the need to get the words out. It's my heart pounding in my chest because of too much caffeine. It's typos because my shaky fingers miss the keys. It's doubt, uncertainty, as I give myself over to the process, wondering if I'll manage to live up to my own expectations. It's guilt, devastation, when I feel like I can't. It's strength, perseverance, when I continue regardless. It's accomplishment, pride, a rush, when I'm satisfied with the result. It's change because, just like the words, I, too, have changed, a part of me now inextricably tied to what I have created, forever left behind on the page, by the time I'm done.

When you want to write because ideas are swirling, but your executive dysfunction punches you in the face when you actually try.

Louise Glück, from Meadowlands; "Circe's Torment"

[Text ID: "I refuse you / sleep again / if I cannot have you."]