What the fuck is the universe trying to teach me right now

For those of you recovering from something, whether it be a mental health thing, an emotional thing, a surgery, trauma, etc: I know it might feel like your life is on pause or like things are hopeless. Like whatever purpose you had is gone, or whatever motivation you had has disappeared, but I promise you will heal. You will get better. You will be able to do the things you love again, or find new things to love. Baby steps are just as good as long strides in the end. It sucks right now, but recovery is a process. You’ll make it out okay.

your sad is beautiful, &

if I could pour the moment

the color left your eyes, I

would only have screams

hanging from these walls,

I’ll never be anything but

too far away, a photograph

of crimson palms to silent

to ask the stars in - what

does the sky do when the

rain gets this sad? darling,

I hope that you remember

that I loved you very

much

@asleepinthewild

— Weight loss quote

do you ever tire of how, like, dramatic anxiety is?? it’s like. bitch. bitch. it’s not that serious. we’ll live. it’ll probably be a pain in the ass, but we’ll live. so stop making me feel like i’m actively dying.

— Jack Kerouac, The Dharma Burns (via wordsnquotes)

Do you ever feel empty?

I don’t know if it’s just depression or something else. But I feel numb, lonely, sad, and as if I’m losing my mind and want to smash my head against the table until I lose consciousness. And at the same time, I feel nothing. There’s only a feeling of sadness that’s so intense and it’s agonizing. 

It gets to a point where you’ve been sad for so long that the touch of someone else’s skin just leaves you numb. The morning sun emits no warmth and simple words become harder to speak, and the air that fills your lungs is no longer light and refreshing but heavy and suffocating.

why am I feeling so empty..

Tell me what I did to deserve this hurt when all I ever did was put everybody first

- malachi, i miss you E.