She took the long way home and never looked back

She walked out on everything and the perfect life she had

But to her it wasn't good enough to be loved like that

She had to run like she does

And she didn't look back

I often see myself and the pain in her eyes

I wonder if the past haunts her when she thinks back on her life

For me it's too painful to walk down that path

But I wish I could have that perfect little life she had

She was midnight

Mysterious long locks covered in a black hoodie

Hides her hands in her pockets to avoid exposure to her fair skin

Walking straight down a path

With nowhere to go

No one to see; not a place to call home

Midnight is like a tale a sign you wish to see

But catch her for a split moment

Because her presence is brief

She's not into rainbows and sunrises

Because those come to a sad end

She braces what things will always be

She doesn't want to be like them

Basking in the sun and wishing away rain

She looks forward to solitude

She lives in the darkness

In the pain

I miss love

I love the butterflies that would flutter in my heart

And the feeling of being wanted, maybe even desired

I love the kisses softly planted on my lips

And waking up in his arms and the warmness of touch.

The room painted in love; he was my muse

And the sun seemed to shine brighter

And my face hurt from smiling so much

I love the feeling of missing him and seeing him again just to run into his arms

And feel safe; like nothing in the world could go wrong

I'm not meant for love but it was nice to pretend

Another broken heart in the jar

Lessons I'll never learn

Tears ill let drip down my cheek

And land on the paper

Ink for my new sad poem

Lines blurry

This heart carries wounds to

A millions of maybes

And a bunch of sad stories

Sure! Message me anytime

Your lips pressed on mine

But I don't feel a thing

We used to laugh and talk

But we've went our separate ways

My eyes create waterfalls thinking of how it was

And knowing that it could never be

I wonder if you were in love

Because for me it was real

One day you will want to know how my hair looks

And if I still smell the same

You'll miss the crease of my smile

And the way my nose scrunches when I laugh

When you close your eyes and look into hers

You'll wish you were looking in mine

You'll miss the things I would say

And you'll tell old jokes I would tell

It stings your tongue because it doesn't feel the same

And those words you speak to her

Don't feel right when they're not for me

And so you'll try to talk to me

Because you didn't know you could miss me so much

You never thought there would be a day id walk

For good

And you wish upon a star

Just to hear my voice one last time

To feel my skin

And to remember what it was like to be young

And in love; together

But that will be the day

You finally don't get a reaction

Because I have already moved on

She was Autumn and

Red was her color like the brightest

Leaf in the Forrest on an Autumns day

So inviting she stood out

Warm and bubbly

She smelled like a warm fire with a hint of

Cinnamon

She was the fall and the leaves and the trees

And she would dance with the wind

She was the sun and the moon

And all at once

The warm feeling you get

Wrapped warm in a blanket

Her kisses as sweet as honey

And as gentle as a baby bird

She met a boy and

He liked Autumn and explored her colors

But he decided to find love in other seasons

And so he left Autumns evening

For a cold winters night

My body was the ocean

You dove deep into exploration

You became lost at sea

With the water dripping all over you

And the sun perfectly kissed the waves

I've always liked my hair a little messy

Let's enjoy this perfect sunset together

And surf all night long

A love to be given

A heart to be broken

Another fight to have

Words go unspoken

A broken heart bleeds out

Booze to fill the void

A life that was given

I try to forget the noise

A story unwritten

I wish I were her

If things would've worked out

But I'm lost for words

My pen is broken

Just like the heart I gave to you

I wish I could go back in time

I wish I could have you

Innocent bleeds through the pages I used to write

I miss that girl I was

But she doesn't live here anymore

She has grown; but still depressed

A beautiful and tragic mess

I would look through the glass

And long to be myself again

Fully indulging in your honeyed kisses

Giving me a sugar rush in

Your love

I want to eat your candy heart

And swim in your sweetened affirmations

It's not sugar coated

Yet hand crafted to perfection

This love of ours

Is confection

White sheets lay neatly on the bed

The sun shines bright through the window

Laying here thinking of what you said

Wondering what it would be like if I could just feel you

The pattern of rain dances in my head

And now I can finally see you

Wishing there were better words that were said

And maybe we'd still be together

I'd give anything to see you again

Because I really do miss that feeling

But things change and I'm still laying in this bed

Forever dreaming about you

I wanted to make art

Make perfect shapes

Straight edges

Color inside the lines

If it was perfect then it was a masterpiece

But when you came along

You showed me mixing the colors was fun

Scribbling too

I could rip the canvas into tiny little pieces

It made me feel free

And that was art

Her

I dont miss her

You know, the girl who spoke softly

Trying to stay calm

As your screams shook the house

The girl who paused her thoughts and turned up yours

Maybe I shouldn't say that i dont miss her

Because you loved her

And she used to be me

And she loved you

We had fun together, I'll be honest

But the the fun doesn't last longer than the fights when we dont talk for days

The smiles dont stain my face like the tears do

I've never loved you less for the harmful things you said

And maybe that's my fault

But I'll have to admit I lied

Because I do miss her

Broken promises

Deep regrets

Empty bottles

And meaningless sex

I'm not sure if I know of love

I often question if I deserve it

Or if I'll ever be worth it

But you come home late

And the drink lingers on your breath

I dread your presence with every step

I know your thoughts with me will not go in depth

But I just want to be with you, ____

I question the love

And hold on to what used to be

Will it ever come back?

But baby it's sympathy

you lack

I've asked for a sign and it might be time to run

Because this is a disaster and it used to be fun.

Ashleeraewrites

Made out of nicotine

Your lips were on fire

And so you burnt off mine

Our memories are ashes

And the smell of smoke is how I remember you