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Sam Guay

THESE VIOLENT DELIGHTS - Julian and Paul

I think Julian understood Paul very well. He could see through him, what he wanted, what he felt, his innate lust to kill just so he could feel something, he even understood what Paul wanted to do at the end.

But Paul only saw in Julian what he wanted to see. This fiesty and assertive male, who was smart, beautiful and rich. But Julian was a lot more, he was sensitive, he wanted to take care of Paul. He was just a boy craving for love. That's probably why he always hung out at Paul's...to feel the familial love

And since it's from Paul's POV, we'll never really know what Julian felt, or how he was as a person. We see him through Paul's lens, which is very smudgy.

Paul's insecurities made him blind to Julian's feelings and wants. He could never believe in Julian's love and even if he did, he didn't think he deserved it.

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𝕲𝖗𝖊𝖊𝖓 & 𝖇𝖗𝖔𝖜𝖓 🌲🤎

𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘥 & 𝘪𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥

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Art by Julia Petrova

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"I suppose at one time in my life I might have had any number of stories, but now there is no other. This is the only story I will ever be able to tell." - The Secret History

do you ever feel nostalgic about a book? like yes I read it, yes I experienced it, yes I obssessed over it. but that is not enough. i want it to never end, this constant, overwhelming feeling of being consumed by a book. i want it i want it i want it.

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