OH. THATS why im seeing so many ads for waterbottles advocating for the mass-stabbing of caesar.
is this romantic feelings or just indigestion from the bangin chinese food i ate an hour ago?
The ultimate green interior <3
this is my dream home for my dream life that i will prob never have
i got my drivers permit the same day sans undertale won tumblr sexyman poll and killed the queen of england. what an eventful day that was.
being bitter is an old and familiar friend.
its a certain kind of comforting to isolate yourself within that bitterness. you are untouchable.
but you also cannot touch.
i had an argument with my mother today. she wanted to give me a hug when i was frustrated about something, and i pulled away. “i dont want a hug right now,” i said. she didnt like that.
when our souls catch fire as they lean too close to the candles
and we let them burn because the heat reminds us of each other;
when you look into my eyes and those catch fire as well,
you will finally know that this blaze is not all that different from what i feel for you,
as we both turn to ash.
This is the best description I’ve heard for this method, I always thought it was bullshit because I never heard a description that actually explained how to do this other than “tap your head 20 times”.
I have anxiety-induced hissing, which sounds/feels different from sound-induced tinnitus (which I have also experience). Sound-based tinnitus actually sounds like you’re “hearing” something in your ears, whilst the hissing I have feels like it’s “inside my head”, if that makes sense. But this technique still helps!!
Here’s a visual I found because I couldn’t understand the instructions well
My ringing just went away for the first time in years. What is this blissful quiet.
omg i showed this to my dad whos had tinnitus for years and he said it worked
my chest has been torn open by the vultures. my ribs become the knives and forks they use to dine on my flesh, my beating heart the main course.
i want to cry and sigh in sorrow. maybe i will. but a knot in my throat prevents the air from coming out. can i just breathe already?
i should have expected this. he just wants some friends. i am a friend. i hurt more than i let on.
now im going to unconsciously overcompensate when we talk. i’ll be too friendly, too spazzy. he will notice something is off, maybe. i hope he doesnt.
ah. this hurts more than i expected. to be rejected without them even knowing they rejected you. i think that might be the saddest thing.
i am so fucking unironically horny physically and emotionally for this one dude. its bad i am so down bad. idk what 2 do either because sometimes my feelings aren’t as strong as i wish they’d be, but also i have no fucking clue if he likes me. we’re kind of the only people the other consistently talks to, and sometimes its like hes flirting with me??? but other times its like nah im deffo just friend. idk wat 2 do.
and now i cant stop overthinking and its just getting more and more unlikely in my mind that anything will ever happen between us. and now im sad.
but these feelings i have right now are the most concrete ive felt for him by far. they wont fluctuate like they did in the past, i’m certain of that much. but then again now im not. im not certain of anything and thats scary and heartbreaking and i just want to love someone. maybe that’s my problem.
kinda wanna move to a small town in the countryside and live for work. wanna sell and buy at a farmers market, wanna see rolling hills and grass fields and life.
i’m good alone. im fine its fine i can live like that.
except sometimes being alone is so dreadfully lonely
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Good to know 🤔
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I noticed there isn’t one here for Ireland, so
Irish free suicide helpline: 01-116 123
last time i reblogged this, i got this ask:
so please, please reblog. this could actually save a life.
Canada’s missing, so for my fellow Canadian pals:
call 833-456-4566 or text 45645
(866-277-3553 for Quebec)
i do not need to.
i do not need to fix him he does not want me to fix him.
i do not need to sew him up. it is not my job to string his pieces back together and make him whole or at least something that resembles such wholeness.
my bitterness seems to swallow me whole with a lick of the lips. i am tired and sad and i do not want to be happy?
yet i hunger for those days where nothing seems to matter but in a good way. i could pick raspberries or make tea, it wouldn’t matter. as long as i would be happy.
he does not want me nearly as much as i thought he did. i think i am just convenient to be friends with. i wonder if he will stop bothering eventually
i just want it to rain at night




