collarbones

huge tb

"coffee gives me panic attacks, but i bet that's just another thing you didn't care to know about me. you gave me panic attacks, but i just thought that's what love felt like. maybe that's why you've been gone and i'm living off of coffee. maybe it's why when that boy tries to love me it feels different. you broke my heart and made me think i deserved it."

I'm always tired, but never of you.

i no longer remember what it feels like to be happy during the night. i now sleep alone and because of you, because i let you whisper lies into my ears late late at night, i find it impossible to be okay alone at night. i can't bear the silence, and i would do anything to hear your voice one more time.

your voice used to be the only thing that calmed me down but now whenever i hear it my heart crashes like the waves do on the shore i woke up everyday thinking you were mine i wasn't for you you wanted so much more and i can't even think anymore because all i can think about is how you use to look at me and now your eyes are looking at her and i can't breathe because you're kissing her lips and sleeping next to her at night. the other day i got into a fight because someone said i didn't need you but oh god were they wrong because i still say your name in my sleep.

to any other girls he gives a chance to

“ he’ll never be easy, but know he always loves you. his eyes are blue and if you don’t know that stare longer because they’re the most beautifulest things i’ve ever laid my eyes on. it takes him 10 minutes to do his hair, and even after that he might not like it, tell him it looks perfect every chance you get. he’s very self conscious and hates most of his body, always let him know you love those things no matter what. he doesn’t like to smile, but whenever you see the real thing cherish it. yes he has eyebrows, you just have to look a little closer. he comes off as strong, but he has his days ever once inna while. i don’t care how many times you have to, reassure him you love him and he’s the only one you want. he might not want to talk on his sad days, but that’s okay just bring him cookie dough and chicken and he’ll thank you for it later. he’ll have his good days where all he’ll want to do is love you, let him because darling nothing feels as good as receiving his lovins. he absolutely hates water, so always remember his red gatorade. he’s not a very religious person, but that’s only because he’s a god himself. if he ever tells you he doesn’t like something, pay attention to it because it could be the reason for your fights. it may feel like he’s overprotective, but the minute he’ll leave, you won’t know what to do with yourself. he may be irrational sometimes, but always talk to him about it. when he’s yelling at you don’t take his ’ i hate you’s ’ personally yell back and put him in his place because he secretly enjoys that. NEVER reject him because once he leaves you’ll want to go back to all those times and say yes. message him first because he wants to feel wanted. stay up with him until you can’t keep your eyelids open any longer. DON’T ever forget to say i love you and goodnight before you go to sleep or he won’t be able to fall asleep. ALWAYS be there no matter what’s happening, sometimes he just needs you. he won’t share his feelings with you, but if you’re lucky enough to catch a glimpse at 4 in the morning hold on to it. he might tell you otherwise, but his favorite color is pink, it always has been and it always will be. he’ll go through so many weird phases, love him through everything. if he ever talks about the future, and you’re in it consider yourself very special. he plays a handful of sports, i can guarantee he’s the best at every single one of them, but always be there to cheer him on. he will always get what he’s wants, but let him tantrum because it’s cute. he ALWAYS wins, no matter what. take pictures of him every chance you get. DON’T let him fall back into his bad habits. love him through everything. NEVER make him feel like he’s competing with someone else because 1) no one’s as good as him 2) he’ll leave. tell him you need him. tell him you want him. tell him you’d choose him no matter what. tell him you love him. kiss him randomly because it’ll make him feel loved. always let him follow his dreams. i’m writing this so you don’t make the same mistakes as me because i truly believe he deserves happiness and to be loved. so if you’re reading this treat him right, or you’ll end up like me writing this because he’s still my everything and i’ll always love him. he’s the best thing that’ll ever happen to you."

loneliness

you used to numb all my pain now im sitting her watching myself go insane only thing that gave me serenity can’t even remember my identity bc i get lost when im with you i got old so you looked for something new couldn’t breathe anymore it was the inevitable left me unstable you were the only one i adored

confused&&destroyed

everything was alright despite bein pushed to the edge kept things on the bright your the only one i need thought you were here for me now im left alone to bleed don’t know what’s gotten into us used to be just me and you and now there’s a plus just want you to know every i love you i said was true i just thought you already knew turns out you were actually a mistake everything was fake

love .

i fell in love with you. i know i did and there’s no denying it. i could sit here and say that it was all fake but i can’t. the first time i realized that i had fallen in love with you was when we spend the whole day together and five minutes after you’d leave id go into this sad, depressed mood bc id miss you so much. your existence makes me happy. anything before you is in oblivion. and now here we are only an hour away and I’m scared bc if we don’t make it ill lose my whole world. but you think everything happens for a reason. and i don’t think i want this to end yet, even if you have fallen out of love.

scared of spiders & the doctor spent my whole life all alone if you knew my whole story you’d be blown away and wonder how i even stayed my life was beginning to fade then you came into my life couldn’t breathe anymore because it was four and you were knocking at my door told me you wanted more guess it’s time to explore

me & my sad self 💓💀

sam smith

no words can describe the way im feeling right now . i don’t want to be here if i can’t be here with you tonight . 💗💗

him💘😍

Netflix is all i need 😍🙌💕😊

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