Gay & Sad

@anotheranxiousbisexual

18 | she/her | bisexual

I’m in love with someone who is not mine and I haven't felt this way for a while and now I do and I’m scared. I’ve always gotten hopeful about the wrong things the things that don’t work out, the things that will never be mine. So, I condition myself to never be hopeful, to expect nothing because then you expect nothing, you never get disappointed. I do not want to be like that anymore. I want to see the sun and the sky and think about life’s possibilities. Naivety, although painful, is a beautiful thing. What I wouldn’t give to be hopeful like that once more.