the moment when she decided she was going to kill him
the #peak danny dyer moments from who do you think you are
this is literally the best tv has ever been
i am reading this essay in gilmore girls and the politics of identity (lol) about gender roles in the show and it is really fucking w/ me BC i just realised every man i have ever dated has presented as quite feminine/tried very hard to distance themselves from masculinity but their behaviour beyond surface level just did not reflect that & was traditionally male. like my being attracted to people bc they would do things that kind of subverted gender roles but at the end of the day they withheld emotion, undervalued communication, sexual fulfilment + objectification seen as most important etc etc. like idk if it just that i tend to fall into a more ‘feminine’ role in relationships or i seek out someone to play the 'masculine’ role but weird that i always think i have escaped that uneven power dynamic where his needs/wants/emotions/desires are weighted so heavily against mine but like… Haven’t lol
in my experience men can’t retain significant growth mentally or emotionally in relationships with women bc they think all forms of compromise stem from u trying to control them. thts rlly childish to me. their egos make them too selfish for love which always includes sacrifice but they will play dumb long and passionately enough to wear u out so ur too tired or hurt to keep begging them to meet u halfway. then they somehow victimize themselves n turn it into u “tried to change/control them”…grow up. if I have to grow and sacrifice to make it work so do u, nobody expects u to be perfect but a lotta y'all not even puttin forth any effort like at all. n regardless of all tht, subconsciously men know ur the one expected to compromise not him so u either leave or end up compromising too much until u can’t anymore n this way they never have to actually change, improve, or be held accountable for anything n u end up doing all the work anyway.
while your mcm was buying Swans merch online, i was teaching a child how to water flowers
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ohh kate, for some reason I remembered you the other day and I think we both still follow eachother on here although I'm not v. Active now, but anyway I just went on to your blog + saw you were going through a hard time at the min and just wanted to say you are a big inspiration for me and someone I have always truly admired. I hope you feel better soon
hello!! thank u, ilu. i hope u are doing well too!! xxxxxx
@rashidareneeward in #PHLEMUNS apart of the beautiful & intimate photo exhibit by @elizabethsmart.
i got loads and loads of my hair cut off. i haven’t worn makeup in weeks and my skin is the worst it has ever been! i am still cute tho
when we broke up it was like 3 in the morning and i can remember really clearly thinking oh no i don’t know how to buy my own drugs
The Harold Song (Deconstructed) - Ke$ha
can u believe i cried listening to this today i can't believe kesha changed my life
today has gone kind of better except for at 4pm when i listened to we belong together by mariah carey and cried and at 9pm when i took a really good tit pic and realised i have no one to send it to anymore and cried
i feel like i am so desperate for there to be this big reason that we didn’t work out so i have some clarity and can do some self-reflection and learn and grow from it and there are a couple of things i guess but it is just not enough to give me peace of mind!! like every other relationship i have had has ended for concrete reasons (i.e. we didn't like each other anymore) it is the first time i have ever been in love and it kind of sucks that i have to leave still being very much in love and not even because the relationship was bad!! having to prioritise each other’s mental health and happiness over romantic love u still have is so painful and goes against everything i kind of feel ur taught like the only lesson i am learning is sometimes things don’t work out just because you are in love and you both want them to work out and that’s such a shitty lesson to have to learn because it just makes me want to cry lol!!
Anonymous asked:
so proud of you for the way you're handling this!
lol i am handling it like a BABY but thank you
Anonymous asked:
When good relationships end you'll probably want to die for a long time and that time is the most painful and sad and lonely you'll probably ever be. And then one day you'll wake up and you'll realise you haven't cried in so many weeks and you haven't thought about him in so many days and when you see his photos it doesn't make you sad or angry anymore. It takes a long time to get there and I'm so sorry this is something you have to go through. I would do anything for nobody to go through this.
thank you :(