When I read something like this, a sense of relief washes over me.
Because I know for a fact that you'll get what you give, and I know that what I gave was nothing short of that relief.
That's some presumptuous thing to say!
But I know.
I'm certain.
When I look at my actions I see that they end up with a smile on my face or someone else's.
And that's why I feel relief when I know that my actions will circle back to me.
But sometimes,
I get this selfish desire.
What If I don't want that love to travel through the universe back to me.
Maybe I want to receive it right away!
Maybe I don't want to be loved by a star in the milky way or by a whale on the ocean.
Maybe I just want to feel like what I do for others really matters to them.
Maybe just maybe that me and my offerings aren't taken for granted.
I'm certain that maybe I want to feel a fraction of what I give.
But maybe it's not meant to be for me.
Maybe the love I give is accumulated somewhere in a different universe. In another life. In another embodiment of light.
But sometimes it feels like it's never happening.
And my love will only come back to me as a warm sunny day in the middle of winter.
