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#i am very close to ending myself#i dont want to do this anymore#i keep trying to fight whatever is wrong with my body but i am losing and because of it i am suffering socially and financially#im such a fucking loser#i put myself in this spot and now im fucked#nothing is going right because im fucking worthless and a piece of absolute shit i hate myself#im a huge disappointment to my parents and everyone#why am i here?#why am i still alive
hawkin-byrd
what is this from
the titanic
does hatsune miku qualify as a fictional character or is she real. like it's different from, say, gorillaz, cause her entire thing is that she's a robot/computer program/what have you, and also she isn't an alter ego for one specific artist. so by being canonically digital in her lore and also the same thing in real life i don't think she is fictional. my point is when you play games that feature her she is actually talking to you like you are conversing face to face with the actual real hatsune miku and not just her likeness
She's as real as the muppets, however you choose to interpret that
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#i feel stupid for wanting to leave but damn i really dont feel like ill be happy here at all man#this is ridiculous#i have the gut feeling of this is not going to work out but if i leave i will heavily disappoint my mother and probably be a bum for awhile#thats a terrible feeling#i hate myself#i dont know what im doing or what i want in my life#im stuck
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#i knew i wasnt going to pass my test#i studied and still failed#this is for a good job opportunity and i fucked it up#couldnt pass the first fuckin test out of 4#but the others passed all for in one day#i have to go back to traning and tell them i didnt pass in front of everyone else who did pass#thats embarrassing#i hate myself#i do this to myself
I don't think I'll ever be good enough for anything in this life. I have done nothing worthy and I constantly find myself struggling, but I know it's my own damn fault. I have no one else to blame. I want this to end. I want these feelings to end.
“Bazen sessizlik, gök gürültüsü gibidir.”
Bob Dylan...
