it took another trans man sharing his blood test results with me for me to realize my doctor was committing malpractice for the past seven years by giving me far too little testosterone

it took many trans masculine people sharing their results with me to confirm it so I knew to try to find a different doctor, and they are now doubling my testosterone

I'm going to make sure to warn as many trans people as I can, as an individual, so that other people were not hurt in the way that I was hurt

this is why it's important to build communities for trans people and include them

To add to this point: It took me three years to realize my doctor committed malpractice by massively overdosing me on testosterone. It took me collapsing on my way to work and not being able to use my legs for them to figure out I was about to have a stroke as a direct result. My blood being as thick as it was meant even with twice daily blood thinners the phlebotomy I needed wasn’t possible with a 16G needle. I had a McDonalds strawberry milkshake running through my veins as apposed to the blood that should have been there and I just wouldn’t bleed. No matter how hard they tried they weren’t able to draw enough blood.

In part due to the autoimmune response that alerted me something was wrong I’ve been in pain everyday since the day before I collapsed. It’s been 5 years.

I had to be taken off testosterone and placed on blockers multiple times to prove that testosterone at healthy levels wasn’t contributing to my symptoms continuing. As an additional “fuck you” we already knew my body doesn’t function well on an estrogen dominant system. I required hospitalization and medication when I had periods when I was off testosterone. As a result of that it was recommended I get a hysterectomy sooner rather than later. Now I’m back on testosterone off blockers with a few less reproductive organs and a shit ton of medical trauma.

I will continue to scream this story from the top of my lungs until people realize the importance not just of testing your levels but understanding what the hell they even mean.

Talk to your friends about your levels have them talk to you about yours. Remind each other when it’s time to get tested. Ensure you and your friends don’t wind up like me.

This is about Sci-Hub. yeah we get it.. gatekeep knowledge and protect the interests of capital…

Listen, this is serious.

Do not use the website called Sci-Hub!

It lets people access scientific articles for free. This is dangerous. It helps the free flow of knowledge and reduces the competitive edge of all the people who worked really hard to have been born into a wealth.

Like, it’s literally a website where you can type in the DOI of an article and read it, without ever having to pay the publisher who exploited the author.

So, again, do not, under any circumstance, use Sci-Hub. I mean, can you imagine a world where knowledge is free and easily accessible to everyone? Even, y'know, poor people?

Libgen also has many books online, including textbooks, searchable by name, author, and ISBN. Can you imagine textbook companies not getting their hard-earned income from poor college students? Here is the link just so you make sure that you never accidentally stumble across this horrible, unethical website.

Oh, and while we’re talking about books, if you’ve managed to stay clear from Libgen, definitely don’t go to zlibrary, where you can also find a lot of textbooks, but unfortunately they’re completely free.

Another inside tip from academia: Those papers in really expensive journals that are effectively inaccessible to anyone not in a university network? Depending on the discipline it’s very likely that same paper is on a “preprint” server somewhere, with no access restrictions.

Like if you want to read basically any physics, math, or CS paper, arXiv.org will have you covered, because everyone uploads their papers there before submitting to a journal (and generally updates it after peer review). I know all of my papers are on there. This is such common practice that journals have it baked into their licensing agreements that authors retain the right to upload their work to these places.

So the next time you get hit with that paywall, you may not even need sci-hub, just click the arxiv link on google scholar instead.

if for some reason none of this works, the old “send a email nicely asking for the paper to the author” is always a good trick. remember most scientists hate the commercialisation of scientific knowledge

(inspired by @greenvlvetcouch ‘a black mass over highway ninety’ 🙏🏻🙏🏻)

“Just the two of them, alone in the world in an empty gas station lot.

The pump shut off with a loud click, and Sirius didn’t let go for another few minutes, warming Remus against the night air and thawing the little bit of cold that was left settled in his bones.

He let it run out of him, fell into Sirius entirely, and listened to cars pass in the distance against the still wet but drying roads.”

I STRAIGHT UP THOUGHT THIS SAID AUTISM FOR A SECOND

Thought it said croissant

'cause july's about to end i'd like to remind y'all that richard is smarter than henry

Me when I remember something I said ages ago that was wrong or my values no longer align with

OP, hope you don’t mind--this got me thinking abt handling my own internal Sad Little Guy

I really hate to do this, but I’m so worried (and broke) right now I don’t know what else to do.

Any little bit is a little bit less I have to pay out of pocket. Even if it’s just $1. Please help me take care of my baby since my parents won’t.

undisclosed moodboard

look at this thang

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well, time to die

RISE FROM THE ASHES, DARK ONE

finally i can reblog my favorite post on this website once again

Sharecropping.

FYI if your employer does this, if they have done it for a long time especially, you and your coworkers could be owed huge amounts of unpaid wages and it would be an easy suit if there is a paper trail like this and your employer is placing strict requirements on your behavior while not at work. Employment lawyers generally work on contingency. Just food for thought.

who else did this

important PSA about when your car is smoking

like literally smoking from the engine

white and you smell pancakes? it’s the coolant. panic and pull over, but you’ll live

a slight blue tinge? it’s the oil. panic and pull over, but you’ll live

grey, looks like fire smoke? gasoline; the most combustable and dangerous. pull over and leave the vehicle, pray.

sharing because i didn’t know this when my car started smoking white yesterday and i was so afraid for my life.

Reblogging because a dear friend of my Moms with mechanic experience told me the same thing when I got my license.

White or blue, you’ll pull through. But if it’s gray, get away.

here’s the animation eek

Pls have some doodles bc I’m too lazy for a finished piece lol