The Star. Art by Nicholas Kahn, from The Carnival at the End of the World Tarot Deck.
Source: marytcusack.com
anyways (I say this as someone who is deeply critical of the united states government, military, unchecked capitalism, police, etc) I am SICK of people treating america as if it has no cultural value or positives so….. I love u 85 million acres (bigger than italy) of national parks. I love u harlem renaissance. I love u groundhogs day. I love u sweet tea and fried chicken and jambalaya. I love u apple cider donuts and maizes on crisp autumn days. I love u 95k miles of coastlines and new england fisherman and hand knitted sweaters. I love u halloween where millions of people dress up and give candy to strangers and carve jack o’lanterns. I love u small talk and small towns and potlucks and bringing over casseroles to your struggling neighbors. I love u cowboys and ranch hands and arizonian cactus. I love u appalachian trail and dirtbikes and divebars. I love u sparklers and fireflies. I love u mark twain and toni morrison and emily dickinson and henry david thoreau. I love u rock n roll i love u bluegrass and hippies i love u jimi hendrix and nirvana and CCR and janis joplin. I love u victorian houses and jonny appleseed and john henry and mothman and bigfoot. I love u foggy days in the pacific northwest and neon signs and roadside attractions. I love u baseball and 1950s diners and soft serve. I love u native american art and pop art and poptarts. I love u blue jeans and barbecues and jazz musicians
I feel like we don’t talk enough about how having chronic illness and/or chronic pain makes you irritable. It makes you grumpy. It can make you a not very fun person to be around.
We don’t talk enough about the ugly sides of chronic illness/pain. The parts where you feel like a bad person not because of the pain in of itself but because everyone else thinks you are pushing them away. The times when you don’t bear it like a saint and the roughest edges of your personality come out. Where maybe you do hurt other people’s feelings. Its a complicated side of the experience thats resists an easy answer.
We failed as a society when everyone stopped wearing headphones.
At my parents place with 2 children watching YT on tablets and 2 adults watching tiktoks and reels on their phones and trying not to summon a comically sized Loony Toons hammer out of my back pocket to smash them all.
Beating the System - Jill Mulleady, 2015.
Uruguayan , b. 1980 -
Oil on canvas, 105 x 91 cm.
bleedhoney
Blue Monday / New Order
HOW DOES IT FEEL
TO TREAT ME LIKE YOU DO
anyways. brain was overthinking again and im normal now. gf called me and we talked til she fell asleep again and everything was fine. when she first called i had been like on the brink of full meltdown and she could tell something was wrong and just like. the fact that she not only noticed but cared that i wasn’t doin well and asked about it in a way that wasn’t like she felt obligated it was very soothing. feeling better enough that i can eat. gonna make waffles 🧇
Anonymous asked:
humans are by nature a communal species. needing to connect and feel appreciated is built into us; by that same hand, the need to help others and to be helped is in there, too. in short, if you are not a burden to others at SOME point in your life, you reject a fundamental aspect of what it means to be human. you are going to be okay, you already are <3
thank you 💗
William Mackinnon, Landscape as self-portrait, 2012 Acrylic, oil and automotive enamel on linen
i feel like my parents exclusively text me if i’m either having a breakdown or getting fucked
me bein insatiably horny and wanting my gf but also immediately mentally spiraling if i think about initiating anything bc i start feeling like some sort of repulsive gross sludge monster and can’t imagine anyone genuinely being attracted to me rather than viewing me as something convenient to get them off with.
unstoppable force vs immovable object
i am now nauseated by the thought of all of it! i think about this excerpt from complex ptsd: from surviving to thriving a lot
and instead of it solving my views i now get trapped in a cycle of “maybe this isn’t me just like it isn’t him” which catapults me into “maybe it is me, ppl just don’t notice because i’m manipulating them” and then to “i am a manipulative repulsive gross sludge monster”
#before 🌸 and i were an official thing i had a 20 minute breakdown after work in the staff bathroom#where i called my cousin like sobbing and hyperventilating bc i felt so guilty about manipulating 🌸#and tbh. constantly on the verge of that breakdown again#like even letting you guys know this even tho i do it to all of u too it’s just like#nauseating but also i can’t help it#and there’s no real repercussions on here so
me bein insatiably horny and wanting my gf but also immediately mentally spiraling if i think about initiating anything bc i start feeling like some sort of repulsive gross sludge monster and can’t imagine anyone genuinely being attracted to me rather than viewing me as something convenient to get off with.
unstoppable force vs immovable object
the funniest thing about this post
was getting anon hate calling me a misogynist for “wanting to increase the wage gap while also putting more responsibility on women”
