the fact that I have to be in the “right headspace” to do even the simplest tasks. absolutely humiliating

― Virginia Woolf, A Passionate Apprentice: The Early Journals, 1897-1909

how to study with a mental illness!!!! aka a guide to simultaneously caring for yourself and your academics

(disclaimer: this is from purely personal experience and is not a substitute for seeking professional help. these are just personal tips as i was formally diagnosed with depression and anxiety in the third year of college, but had been showing symptoms even in high school. different methods help for different people, but i really hope some of these things can help a struggling student out, because one of the reasons i went on studyblr in the first place was that i felt really lost and anxious.)

1. done is better than none. sometimes an assignment you have to turn in would be objectively easy to complete, but it takes longer to do so because you’re afraid that the final product won’t be as good as you want it to be, or as good as a professor expects it to be. it’s hard to remove those expectations, but it is a little easier when you remember that getting some points (no matter how many they are) are better than getting a deduction for late submissions or not turning in the project at all. many people – including myself – suffer from perfectionism in university, but it is overall more important to complete something to the best of your own ability, and learn from the feedback on the project later on. more importantly, often, you’re doing better than you think you’re doing, so surprise yourself. you can do it. just start.  2.  keep careful track of your deadlines.  much of my undergrad anxiety came from the fact that i knew something was due, but couldn’t keep track of it, or didn’t want to confront it. it’s better to confront it because you have more time to do it slowly and thoroughly. as soon as you hear about an impending exam or paper deadline, keep track of it. personally, i use google calendar. from there, you can make smaller plans and break down your goals to make it more doable! 3. don’t be afraid to ask for help.  there used to be a huge stigma against mental illness, but thankfully, many educational institutions are much kinder and more considerate about it. if you really can’t meet a deadline or come to class, let your professor know. most professors are kind, reasonable people who genuinely care about you and your well-being. even one of my scariest professors granted extensions to a girl who was genuinely struggling with serious depression, and the college of law i’m in takes mental health very seriously to the point that they instruct faculty how to deal with such cases.  if you’re not able to talk to a professor, try to ask help from a classmate or a friend who can share notes or fill you in on how they accomplished a certain assignment. many people will be happy to help. you are not a burden, love. 4. be kinder to yourself.  mental illness is like any illness. it often keeps us from doing as well as we’d like to be because it’s a genuine and serious health problem. sometimes it helps to keep this in mind when we flub a report in class (as i did several tens of times in undergrad), get a bad score, say something ridiculous during recitation, or mess up a paper. it’s okay to do your best while you heal. you know you’re trying your best, and slow growth is still growth. 5. on that note, care for your other needs.  one of my happiest and most fulfilled semesters (even though it was my busiest) was when i had time to see a psychiatrist, run, pack lunches and fruit to school to eat healthy, and have a reasonable-ish sleep schedule. this was during my thesis semester. while i had to take an incomplete, and finish my thesis the next sem, because i was attending to my own needs, i felt like a living, breathing, learning, happy person. and i finished my thesis the next semester. it’s better to look after your own physical health and needs before your academics. 6. sometimes, it’s better to do nothing and rest. you deserve it.  part of the reason i’d been doing horribly in law school was that i didn’t sleep and it was making me mildly unbalanced and incredibly suicidal; not to mention the fact that i wasn’t really retaining any information or performing well. rest days are just as important as days when you study because rest IS productivity.  7. take your meds. see your psych or therapist if you have one. avail yourself of mental health services on campus if there are any. these genuinely saved my life at a time that i thought i was beyond saving. please go seek help if you can.  BONUS: MY STUDY SETUP ON A TERRIBLE MENTAL HEALTH DAY (like today) - i try to clear the space and clean up as much as possible. it makes me feel like i have things under control, and have my work things where i can see them. - i eat something healthy, like fruit, and get a lot of water. i keep a water jug on my desk because it clears my thoughts and helps me replenish the fluids lost from crying (1/2jk). it also really keeps up my strength for the study process. - i turn on a calming playlist, like a jazz or lofi or ghibli playlist. in another window, i turn on a rain sound video on a softer volume, and it helps center me. - it helps when you have a soft or calming scent to calm you down. i use a lavender room spray, and it makes me feel cozy and productive, but in undergrad, i used this tea-tree lavender mix and it smelled like sunny afternoons and guitar coffeshop playlists. it really is nice. - there are breathing exercises and gifs all over the internet. they help calm you down when things seem Too Much.  i really hope this helps, guys. don’t hesitate to message me if you’ve been having a hard time with school or life or anything. please, please care for yourselves. you can do it.  – sam

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Every time you see this, reblog it. There is always someone in college that will see this.

Artists who know how to draw armors or very detailed clothing are powerful

oh to draw embroidery like Alexander Roslin does

See it’s stuff like this that makes me believe that selling your soul to the devil in exchange for talent was a real career track in the 1700s.

sorry i’m late, professor. i’m disenchanted with the human experience and waking up every morning thrusts me into an instant existential crisis

Some illustrations from Le Sphere du Monde by Oronce Fine (1549).

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good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

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one thing i have been trying to teach myself lately is that i am enough whenever. i am always, all the time enough. i am enough when i don’t like myself, i am enough when i don’t look presentable, i am enough when i’m not ready to face my demons. you don’t have to do certain things such as working out 5x a week, journal and meditate every night or be good at school to be enough and worthy of love. whatever state you are in right now is enough. you are deserving of a relationship, a good life and everything else at any given time.

Rabbit rabbit! Happy September — isn’t it weird that September is actually the ninth month?

In 45 BCE, Emperor Julius Augustus Caesar inserted two extra months at the beginning of the Roman calendar to fix its drift from the sun. In 44 BCE, the 5th and 6th months (now the 7th and 8th) were renamed in his honor as July and August, but the rest of the calendar was left as it was. Nero once tried to rename September ‘Germanicus’ but it didn’t catch on, and I for one am glad.

The Metropolitan Museum of Art.

change is scary, but everything else moving on without me feels a lot scarier so change it is.

1.) I have so many talents to offer the world.

2.) I attract those with good, pure, intentions.

3.) I radiate light and positive energy.

4.) I attract kindness and compassion.

5.) I love my body; I do my best to take care of it.

6.) My soul is gentle and welcoming.

7.) I attract peace, calmness, and serenity.

8.) I create endless opportunities for myself.

9.) I am focused and steady.

10.) I trust the Universe’s timing.

via yumi sakugawa

why must hot, sexy, pretty, good-hearted angels (me) go through so much

The Eleventh House

✨~ The eleventh house is a gorgeous house, it shows an understanding and focus on the collective and your community itself. It represents what you are to your community and what you do for it. It’s about humanly love and equality, it’s about connection and the bigger picture of people and most importantly, change for society.

✨~ Eleventh house people, stelliums, dominants, carry so much love for their community, friends that can even give hope to humanity itself that we are capable of so much love and support even if we’re all different or strangers alike. it’s one of the best houses in my opinion and it will most likely never change.

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Hearty and friendly individuals, they feel at their best when their light is shining with their friends and community. They can find themselves once they begin to blend and merge with society, they belong with the flowing tides of the collective. The collective can change, and so will these people, they love to follow the biggest trends and movements within their communities, you feel like you’ve found your true shining self once you take part in your communities ideas. People can see you as the friend who fights for what’s right, you love to immerse yourself in social movements and change which will create a bright, revolutionary personality that i’ll fight for others who’s re disregarded or mistreated by society. They hate it the most to see their community suffer, especially those in it, it makes them feel hopeless and hurt on the inside. They like to make everyone feel welcome. They feel bright and expressive with their friends and they love it when they can express their big ideas with others. Their love for humanity is what matters to them most. If they can’t engage, connect and share, they’ll feel lost and empty. Like the sun in their lives have stopped shining, they’ll go through moping and not understanding what they’re meant to be. The need to be there for others is important and valuable to them or their world will begin to grow dark for them. They’re the most active members in their communities and put so much heart and energy into causes and fixing societies issues. People love their bravery and bright charisma, they’re attracted to their light.

The moon here will do its job by making these kind, heartfelt people more likely to follow groups and organizations with their own heart and inner instincts. It’s natural that they find their place among a group that is willing to accept with wide, open arms. They just want to find a home in the sea of the large collective. They want to find peace in a group, a movement. If you see these people out on the streets protesting with their hands in the air with a sign they worked on making the entire night before, it’s where they’re meant to be. They’re meant to be here, supporting causes with their souls. These people are truly beautiful for how they express their support and unconditional love to humanity, by making others feel right at home. They make others without a home, family, roots feel like they can be safe and looked after. And this is exactly what this person is looking to do. And they want to do it right, to help other like this, they’re offering a homes and a warm family in their own communities. This is exactly why others can trust them so dearly. They’ll never have to keep searching for their place at home. And neither will the moon in eleventh person, once they find their soul tribe, they will be content, they will find their own inner peace. They want to grasp tightly onto their many groups and friends as they’ve grown delicately attached to these wonderful and amazing people they can share who they are with, their lives, ideas and interests. This is what makes them so charming, but remember, humanity is always changing and so will groups and people in your community, they are capable of revolutions and change. Fluctuation and movement is possible with those you hold closest to your hearts so it’s okay to let them free and let them change and merge with the changes of our society. Remember you will always have these groups and friends in your hearts and they are never truly gone. You can change with them too.

Their minds are linked with the hive mind of the collective, they express exactly what the collective is thinking, their logic and their ideas are on a far higher level than you could ever fathom, perhaps even out of this world. They are very unique and brilliant people, the einstein’s of the hive mind. They work to bring change and revolution the most within their groups. They love to talk about societal issues and bring awareness to so many of these issues. They’re the ones who constantly post about BLM or climate change facts/info on their socials, constantly reminding people about the world’s problems, they value this so much. They truly want to be heard in their groups, their voices are their strongest instruments for them to take part in their community’s loud orchestra. Their progressive intellects will serve as a change in their friends conversation dynamics, they love to switch things up with the most unique, brilliant, original responses. Their jokes and wit will bring so many connections and friends toward them. Their ideas could be considered strange to others, they have dealt with authority figures trying to tone down their minds and to try to act more “normal”. However, that can’t help them being all over the place in their communities, their strange ideas here, there, and over there! They’re the most versatile, craziest members of their communities.

These are gorgeous and sweet people, they love to make their connections work, their community’s inner workings is a gentle diplomatic mission to them, they are talented at mediating and smoothing over social workings in their friend groups and communities. They feel like it’s their job to work within the cracks and crevices of their communities just so they can please everyone and make them all happy. Socializing and making connections with others gives them validation and love. They can doubt their pleasing social lives and believe they are flawed and that not everything they do for their friends is enough or that they need to impress. They may even doubt their friends and believe they are all fake or they don’t deserve such gorgeous people who truly love them just for loving them. They likely have very warm and special friends which value them dearly. They cherish the Venus in eleventh house person as they feel like they can count on them to make everything pleasant and aesthetically pleasing for them all socially. The venus in eleventh house person wishes to live sweet and perfect lives within their friend groups and community. They are loved by so many for their lovable personalities, their charm attracts so many interesting lovers and friends their way, it becomes so normal for them overtime they begin to stop noticing this sweet gift they have with others. Charisma. One that accepts so many in their communities, others can feel loved by their personality and presence.

Their energy is contagious, their friends love to feed off their enthusiasm they love to share with them, their passion keeps their people going. They’re the instigator of ideas and changes in their groups. People go to them to lead and igniting that fire for them is exactly what the mars in eleventh house person loves most. Their role is to keep the cogs going, they’re resilient powerhouses of their communities. They all have strong drives and motives for social issues and movements, they can be almost harsh and aggressive about this. People want to fight with them because of this, they’re the best energy to feed off of at protests and other movements for change. They know what the public wants to see and can be very brilliant when giving the people what they want. As well as what people want to see changed in society. These are the most righteous and strongest humanitarians. Their motivation goes toward change and participating in their community, they love to socialize and know and understand and connect with others, though aggressively, it’s strong force that people can feel on an energetic level. People love them for their power and strength, their aggressive love for their communities, they want to keep them around for as long as they can.

The brightest souls in their communities, they have so many friends who are willing to help out these jolly people whenever they need it. They can be lucky with this assistance in their lives, gaining resources and money through their friendships and connections. The biggest personalities you’ll ever meet, they’re expansive in their communities. Causes and social issues are the biggest things in their lives for them, they take part in so much socially, you’ll see them so much in your community. With so many friends and things to do, they’re usually famous either locally or a bit regionally. So many people know them because their presence is so large. They bring so many blessings to any friend group which is why they get invited to gatherings so much! It’s like having them around gives others so much luck and wisdom. They should go out and share these blessings with the world because once they get into their community more, the better the community will become. These are amazing, gorgeous souls with a big heart and so much to share with others. The biggest and best of friends. They want to travel so much with their friends and bring them all to new sights. It’s so much fun to go on an adventure with these people. They indulge in doing things in their community and being around friends, they can sometimes indulge too much. They can become drained or their social live is consuming and too much for them. It feels like they’re being a social glutton. It can be too much for them to handle so they’ll need breaks from the public here and there, they’ll need to get away by traveling and exploring new places and things. This is where their abundance can come from.

Very responsible personalities within their communities, they don’t open up to everyone easily. Others have restricted them from society for certain reasons, to remind them that society is bad and a scary system to immerse yourself into, giving the saturn in eleventh house person the fear of stepping into the center of their community. To merge with society. They’re insecure of getting too close to the core of their community, thinking they’re going to lose everything. That they won’t know what to do once they get there, wishing and hoping that they never do. So they take it slow and easy, they’re cautiously stepping closer into the huge crowd of the collective with each passing day, month, year. They are slow to trust, and it feels like an honor to have finally gained their approval and trust. To be their friend is the best thing in the world, they’re supportive and so caring about their closest friends. It’s crazy, they want to make sure they are there for others and reassure their friends. They put so much work and time into their friendships as well as causes they support. Gorgeous love for humanity through their hard work and dedication, they’re such responsible people who stay supporting causes to the very end. Amazing activists and friends, it would be terrible for anyone to never have had a friend with this placement. Ever. These are the best people to become friends with because they’ll never forget you in the sea of the collective. They’ll be lifelong friends who can still hold onto the past. The memory lane friend. They’ll stay with you throughout all walks of life.

Uranus in this house gives this person a higher frequency in their community, they’re alien at the core. They feel connected yet separated from humanity as a whole at the same time due to their drastic differences and quirks. They have this air of universal acceptance surrounding them that really is NOT talked about enough in this community, like I feel so safe with these people, personally. They’re very open minded and can find something amazing and lovable in anyone. Their huge love for humanity is so admirable and gorgeous. Even if they’re too weird or strange for people, everyone still loves this about them. They love their brilliance and their creativity. It’s almost addicting. Everyone wants to see more of their innovative ideas, their inventions, their art, their style, how they express themselves. They’re so unique, and I truly mean this, they can find it harder to relate to others like them, because they are truly one of a kind. This can be a lonely feeling but they should recognize as they live in their communities already that everyone has quirks, everyone is secretly different from each other. Everyone is searching for others who are like them, they’re looking for their kind of people in the world. The uranus in eleventh house person is no different from everyone else. They’re still searching for the people who are on the same vibe as them, who can relate to their high minded ideas. Who is just as weird and crazy as them. Their presence is so fun and entertaining, you’ll never be bored with their fantastic wit and charm. They stimulate their friends and their communities.

The confusing friend that everyone is still trying to understand. Their lives and ideas are clouded with mystery, people want to find these people to explore who they could be. Friends can often challenge themselves to try to figure out who these people are. Their soft minds and personalities can be charming to their communities, they want to explore their spiritual ideas. They can heal their friends with their calm, soothing auras. They want to help others in their communities, they attract the broken and in need. They help these people out by putting in their effort and time into these problems and broken souls, it can be draining for them to keep up with. But others can’t resist their healing light. Their love is so charitable and so beautiful. It’s a gentle gift from god, an angel. Their idealization can be painful to walk into, this is what can lead to their painful betrayals in life. They help too much they get nothing in return, they give too much they lose it all. It goes without noticing their own resources are blindly being taken from them. This is why they’re so mysterious and hard to figure out, to never get hurt. They want to clod who they are to stop attracting so many energy vampires. They can tell who’s lurking around them intuitively. Their passiveness can be confused for being blinded and too innocent, it’s just their role in a huge community like theirs. Humanity and the collective is just so large it’s hard for them to even imagine it realistically. They are very warm hearted people who love to take part in huge protests and speaking up against social issues with gorgeous art.

These are the friends that change others either for better or for worse. Very intense friends to have, they are purging their communities in ways no one can imagine. Powerful motives and presence in their communities and society as a whole. They have the paper to change and transform trends and movements in the world. Humanity experiences the best and the worst transformations through these resilient and powerful personalities. Once they let others in, they’ve made lifelong loyalties, friendships will take them through hell and back. Their friends and communities change them, either painfully or not, it’s usually for power reasons. They go through so much for others and their communities, which can go unnoticed but their actions are not in vain. They give their power for their communities and friends. They’re very focused and obsessed with social movements and issues, or could be. Or, they could fear big movements and trends, straying away from the center of the collective in the shadows. They could be loners or who the community is completely obsessed with. Maybe they feel their community or friends are too draining for them, they suck all of the life and power out of the pluto in eleventh house person. They could fight for darker human rights, such as sexuality, sex rights, their causes they support are darker, more deeper movements as well. But these people do make the best of friends in their lives.

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