the bad news:
sometimes you will be lonely. sometimes the world will become an open wound and you will feel as if you are its blood, simply spilling out into the surface of cold skin. sometimes the nights won’t be easy. sometimes the mornings will spit on your face instead of kiss your limbs. sometimes the tears stop and there will be nothing more for you to feel. sometimes you will look for yourself in places no one can ever live— badlands, glass bottles, human lips. sometimes your bones will not be strong enough. sometimes you will fall.
the good news:
there will come a time when someone becomes the home in every place you thought had no road to travel upon. there will come a time when the world will become an open heart and you will feel as if you are its blood, rushing headfirst through a body that is magnificently alive. the nights will be screaming off of rooftops and long, long, car rides, with the wind rushing through your hair and your hand riding the wind. the morning will lose itself in your body and the sun will make love to you. the time will come when you will know what it is like to weep for joy. there will come a time when you will find yourself in the places you were always meant to reside— the wideness of the skyline, the arms of your mother, human souls. there will come a time when your bones will hold you steady instead. there will come a time when you will rise so high you will forget the ground ever kissed you.

— bad news first (ap 12.15.18)

Dealing with failure (essay edition):

Hey so recently I’ve not been doing too good in history and such and am starting to lose confidence in myself. I wanted to help people who feel the same way by showing them a way to improve and continue after failing with essays and such.

If you want I can post some pictures of my notes after doing the following steps and such :)

Here’s how I deal with a failed essay:

  1. Allow yourself to get over the failure: take a few hours, a day, a weekend or however long you need. Just let yourself get over the mark.
  2. Look at the teachers comments: This is very obvious but make sure to go through and see what exactly is the reason you haven’t received the grade you hoped for. They may have an opinion different to the exam specification to further your grade or say specifically what is missing.
  3. Look at the mark scheme/ exam specification and highlight it: think about how the question should be answered and what needs to be included in your answer. Look for things that might be needed like quotes, facts, statistics etc
  4. Read through your exam and highlight where you have used these things: if you see a quote then highlight it blue and if you see a statistic highlight it yellow. Make a colour code for thing you need to see and use it.
  5. Look at how much you’ve used these neccassary things: is it too little? Then you need to include more. Too much to the point that you are not actually answering the question but rather just giving a history lesson? Cut it down. These facts should be intergrated into your answer.
  6. Rewrite a paragraph: you know what you need to include and know how the question should be answered so now try rewriting one paragraph and perfect it.
  7. Try to rewrite the whole essay or try a different essay: if you are struggling with just one specific question then redo that however maybe try another question if it’s purely the type of essay that you are struggling with.

A couple other important things:

  • If you still struggle then speak to a teacher: They can help you learn the syllabus or answering the question if you struggle with one particular thing.
  • Don’t blame yourself: school is hard so don’t feel it’s all your fault. Try to focus on improving.

Anyway I hope these tips can help people in some way! If you ever want more help send me an ask and since I have no social life I’ll answer it pretty quick.

TRUMP LITERALLY JUST SAID HE PLANS TO END BIRTHRIGHT CITIZENSHIP

WHAT THE FUCK THIS IS IMPORTANT GUYS

Currently, anybody who is born within the United States automatically has US Citizenship. This is especially important to immigrant families.

And Tr*mp wants to destroy that.

This cannot happen. 

He also said that he can do it with just an executive order, WHICH IS NOT TRUE, but nothing will stop him if the representatives do not oppose this.

So hound the SHIT out of your representatives. Tell them you will not allow this to stand.  

Additional Vocabulary Used: ・日本 『にほん』ー Japan ・中国 『ちゅうごく』ー China ・歌 『うた』ー Song ・イスラエル ー Israel ・ボードゲーム ー Board game ・ミュージック ー Music Hiragana I forgot to include, sorry: ・見る 『みる』ー ・食べる 『たべる』ー ・聞く 『きく』ー

My personal feeling on this Japanese sentence structure is that you should learn and use it as early as possible if you want to have more natural conversations. Despite it being N3 for Japanese learners, it is very basic grammar in general. My host brother who was 7 years old at the time used it so much.

What it can look like in conversation: My host sister was really excited to take me to Daiso. It’s one of her favorite stores and I had only been in Japan for a month (she most likely assumed I had never been to one because she thought that they only existed in Japan) and it would be my first time going IN JAPAN. So she asks me:

妹:エンジェルちゃん、DAISOに行ったことがありますか? 私:うん、行ったことがあります。 妹:えー!?行ったことがあるよ? 私:うん、カリフォルニアに行く時、DAISOに行きました。だから、DAISOにもう行ったことがあります。

When I lived in Japan I used it often enough to remember and learn it without study aids. There are more in depth ways of using this grammar, of course. Such as if you were not to use a past form it would change the meaning:
ピーナッツを食べないことがありますか?  Are there times that you do not eat peanuts?

I am not a Japanese language teacher, nor am I fluent or professional. I am a learner and I merely share from my experience and studies. I explain things to help me remember better. :)

My learning style is “less explanation more examples.” Not everyone is like this so here are some other resources that explain ことがる: