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Please check my FAQ (mobile version linked on my blog)! Asexual Australian. SHe/Her or He/Him but nothing in between please! I'm a nerd who likes nerd things.

Told my best friend the full story of what happened with my old group of friends tonight and she was so pissed and bewildered on my behalf it was healing

I go through phases of sex being impossible for me due to PTSD and/or mental health, whether I actually want to or not. Next week we're going to this cabin in the mountains where it's extra cold, same place as last year. It's sort of an unofficial anniversary place for us, as we don't really have an anniversary.

Anyway lately my ability to have sex has been extra up and down, and I made a joke about how next week will be a great week for us to catch up as long as my brain doesn't fuck with me. Ron's response was "hey, getting drunk in a spa is still a great holiday for me" and that's one of the many reasons I know he was meant for me lmao

"Life is a journey" I find myself whispering on the toilet, wrestling with the most difficult shit of my life

I was praying to a God I didn't believe in by the end. I could hear our dog tearing open a chip packet in the distance. I had to get to him, but I was held hostage. I briefly wished for stirrups to support my legs. I was trying to bargain with the universe. And all the time, the crinkling of a forbidden chip packet, taunting me.

Can you imagine if your mouth had seasons. Like hot dry Summers, the freezing cold Winters. Monsoons. Imagine a tornado in your mouth.

I’m depressed and Ron’s out for the night so I’m watching early NCIS and remembering the days when the writers gave a shit about Tony

I’m finally old and wise enough to see the very blatant flirting between Abby and Kate

The boys are back so I’ve moved to the bedroom TV which doesn’t have NCIS and I am now watching HIMYM and remembering how amazing the show is when you don’t remember the ending and also ignore a lot of early 2000s accepted bigotry/ignorance