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@alexithymia-literallyme

Greetings guys, gals, and non-binary pals! This is just a bunch of shit that I think looks cool.
Or sounds pretty. A bit of an outlet for emotions I'm not allowed to express.
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me: i don’t want to be mentally ill me, but quieter: but i also don’t want to recover because i don’t know who i’d be without my mental illnesses since they are practically my personality and recovery seems scary and it seems the only point of my life is to hurt because that’s all i’ve ever known. somehow mental illness is a comfort blanket even though it is the reason i need a comfort blanket to begin with and the world beyond this seems oddly confusing and terrifying 

Do you ever get an ache in your chest?

Like an emotional ache that won't go away. It just hurts and you want it to stop but it won't stop and you don't know what to do. You feel so alone, but you know that you're not. You know that if you wanted to talk to someone, there's a number of people who wouldn't mind to give you their time but you just don't know how to reach out. You don't want to bother anyone, you don't want to become more of a burden and a nuisance than you already are. You want to cry but you can't. So you like awake at night, alone but not, thinking too much about things you can't change.