a lot of good things happen to me, i just wish i was in the right mindset to appreciate them

i've been so happy before it was wonderful and nothing could ruin my days. now everyday i slowly feel the happiness leaving my mind and it's really hurting me

i keep telling myself things will get better and to wait a little longer, but my life is spiraling down so fast and i don't know how to stop it. i just want to be happy again.

i'm really glad it was me that ended up with the broken heart because that's the last thing i'd want to happen to you.

you didn't make my life easier, or simpler. in fact you stressed me out but a good kind of stress. back then i was only worried about making you happy, now i'm confused on why we don't talk anymore. i miss your smile, i miss your lips, i miss the way you used to get so excited over simple things. i miss being genuinely happy. i miss having your trust. i hate that you lied to me to make me feel worse. i hate that you never actually cared, never. i hate u. and what i hate most is that no matter what every time you come back i will let you in and i don't know why. and i hate admitting that i might actually love you, i hate that. i hate those words, i hate you. why did you make me feel this way and leave. why'd you come around if you knew all along you were going leave..

slow dancing with the devil