I feel so crazy sometimes. I'm so tired. Exhausted. All I have been doing for the past 7 years of my life is in relationships fighting and I'm only 23 my heart hurt, my head, my chest everything sucks all the time.. I cant be in a relationship anymore . I'm sad and grumpy all the time. I shouldn't be aloud to date I'm so stressed out I have my own issues I need to focus on and better my life I don't think G is the one anymore he can't be he pisses me off so much you'd think It'd be getting good by now or we are just getting to fights.. nope still arguing and fighting everyday for the past 6 months I left K cause he wasn't right didn't make me feel like a princess. He never tried. I'm sick of fighting im so sick of having a 'significate' just to argu with id rather be alone.. love isn't for me i don't want kids or marriage or anything but my own house car and woods to live in I am a hermit. A lonley stoner. I don't like this anymore I havnt I can't I won't he is sweet and kind but I see the side where he's in it for himself the side where he will never see the side were we will always fight. It's not right. He will never underagand me fully. It's not fair. It breaks my heart and this relationship is only getting worse. You can't controll a lion make her feel like this and the expect her to glow and be as fierce and happt she used to or could be. I think ill always be alone. That is okay. I'm ready

I'll put on another front and smile, until it happenes again. because this is all it is.