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Inheritance Cycle Headcanons!

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tbh this hasn't been a headcanon blog in ages but asks are open if you wanna yell at me 👍

Relationship(s): Murtagh/Orrin

Summary: Yearning makes him careless, but five lonely, numbing years since returning war-torn to his throne have made caution lose its luster. Not everything he risks losing matters to him the way it once did, and exhaustion has worn away his strength to deny his heart what it yearns for. So Orrin escapes to find comfort in the touch of a stranger.

-What should be a stranger.

Word Count: 10,427

Warnings: Mentions of su*cidal thoughts, Implied nsfw content

A/N: HEAR ME OUT ON THIS ONE give it a chance, I swear there's a method to my madness! This ship is pure gold and I'll prove it. This premise for their first meeting has been in my head for years and years and it felt so good to finally polish it write it out.

An excerpt to go with the weekend bump :3

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“If you mean to do harm, you’re already more than equipped. So I might as well keep trusting in your good will given that I already need to.”

“My good will,” Murtagh echoes, as if Orrin wrung it from his chest. His countenance twists as he glowers at the headboard, a flicker of despair in his eye. “I won’t betray your obligatory trust in that, but you’re not obliged to keep tolerating my company. Few ever want to after learning I’m Morzan’s son.”

Orrin grunts. He recognizes the way he says those two words as if he’d like to pick them apart with his teeth until he’s ground them down into nothingness, and yet they always escape from his mouth unscathed. He knows immediately that Morzansson is branded on him. He swipes his thumb over the end of his scar twice. “I refuse to look at someone in such a uselessly reductive way. I understand what it feels like to only ever be seen as your father’s son.”

“I wasn’t under the impression that your father was a bad man,” Murtagh says carefully.

Orrin shoots him a look with a raised brow. “Is that what it’s about?” he challenges.

“...No. It’s not,” he yields, looking at him as though from a new angle. “It’s just what people who don’t understand believe. They see only an unflattering comparison, not the way it turns me into nothing more than a vestige, a remnant. A scrap. A scrap of something that was never even me to begin with.”

Orrin nods. “And it leaves you invisible to the people looking right at you.” Murtagh stares at him unwaveringly for several long heartbeats, then nods once in return.

I Really wanted to get my big fic done before the murtagh book comes out nov 7, but im coming to the grim realization that theres almost no way thats gonna happen. At first i was quite confident, but now that feels like a Very optimistic deadline. Im still very determined to finish it, but this monster is gonna take such a long time to write :') hhhhhhhhh give me strength

The aromantic part of me adores how the relationship between dragons and riders is portrayed as the closest and most loving bond possible while never being written as romantic because it means so much to see such sincere recognition of the value of platonic intimacy. And that part of me is constantly fighting with the monsterfucker part of me which is devasted that the dragons and riders never got to make out sloppy style.

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The aromantic part of me adores how the relationship between dragons and riders is portrayed as the closest and most loving bond possible while never being written as romantic because it means so much to see such sincere recognition of the value of platonic intimacy. And that part of me is constantly fighting with the monsterfucker part of me which is devasted that the dragons and riders never got to make out sloppy style.

Anonymous asked:

do you have favorite inheritance fics? i’ve been struggling to find them

Yeah! I have a handful! Tbh, I also struggle a bit to find IC fics that I like, though that's largely because I don't like either of the 2 main ships. (IC has a lot of oc and crossover fics too, which aren't my personal preference either.) Also, there was a several year stretch when I wasn't keeping up with the fandom, so some of my recs are quite old and no doubt I've missed some more recent stories. Maybe I'll update this list if I find some more favorites!

This is a series of three fics exploring an AU where Carn lives and eventually comes to live with Roran and Katrina in Carvahall. I like the premise a lot and the fics are very sweet!

A modern AU where the new generation of Riders are all college roomates together. I go back to this fic on the regular. It's simple but very enjoyable fun and the characterization feels excellent.

This one is unfinished, but still worth while in my opinion. Again, I love the characterization. Murtagh is invited to stay in Carvahall to protect the village while Roran is away. The premise is engaging and it establishes some interesting interactions!

Shackled By Blood by purplehairedwonder

This one is also unfinished and is rather old. It's a bit harder to write a rec for because I read it during my IC phase some years ago so I don't remember it perfectly. But it always stuck in my mind for having especially good narration and story. It's an AU focused on Murtagh that diverges after the end of Brisingr. The unfinished end is a bit of a cliffhanger, so don't read if you can't deal with that, but I at least found the concepts compelling enough to be well worth it, despite being incomplete.

Speaking of old! This one's on deviantart of all places. But I remembered these fics so vividly and fondly that I unearthed them for myself the other day, so I think I'd be remiss not to rec them. This author wrote a fair few fics, a lot of them focused on Murtagh growing up with Tornac. This one is my personal favorite where Murtagh is very young and still getting used to Tornac, very sweet.

No doubt I'm forgetting some good ones of the myriad IC fics I read years ago, but alas I have an awful memory lol. I may update with more eventually!

(Also. At the risk of sounding vain, I want to rec a couple of my fics. I think they're worth while! My Love is a relationship study of Murtagh and Thorn and the bond they formed during their struggles in Uru'baen. It's older, but I still find it strong. The Half Dead is my most recent fic, involving my post canon story line. Murtagh and King Orrin stumble into a chance encounter and find an unexpected understanding while trying to mitigate any danger they've ended up in.)

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Anonymous asked:

do you have favorite inheritance fics? i’ve been struggling to find them

Yeah! I have a handful! Tbh, I also struggle a bit to find IC fics that I like, though that's largely because I don't like either of the 2 main ships. (IC has a lot of oc and crossover fics too, which aren't my personal preference either.) Also, there was a several year stretch when I wasn't keeping up with the fandom, so some of my recs are quite old and no doubt I've missed some more recent stories. Maybe I'll update this list if I find some more favorites!

This is a series of three fics exploring an AU where Carn lives and eventually comes to live with Roran and Katrina in Carvahall. I like the premise a lot and the fics are very sweet!

A modern AU where the new generation of Riders are all college roomates together. I go back to this fic on the regular. It's simple but very enjoyable fun and the characterization feels excellent.

This one is unfinished, but still worth while in my opinion. Again, I love the characterization. Murtagh is invited to stay in Carvahall to protect the village while Roran is away. The premise is engaging and it establishes some interesting interactions!

Shackled By Blood by purplehairedwonder

This one is also unfinished and is rather old. It's a bit harder to write a rec for because I read it during my IC phase some years ago so I don't remember it perfectly. But it always stuck in my mind for having especially good narration and story. It's an AU focused on Murtagh that diverges after the end of Brisingr. The unfinished end is a bit of a cliffhanger, so don't read if you can't deal with that, but I at least found the concepts compelling enough to be well worth it, despite being incomplete.

Speaking of old! This one's on deviantart of all places. But I remembered these fics so vividly and fondly that I unearthed them for myself the other day, so I think I'd be remiss not to rec them. This author wrote a fair few fics, a lot of them focused on Murtagh growing up with Tornac. This one is my personal favorite where Murtagh is very young and still getting used to Tornac, very sweet.

No doubt I'm forgetting some good ones of the myriad IC fics I read years ago, but alas I have an awful memory lol. I may update with more eventually!

(Also. At the risk of sounding vain, I want to rec a couple of my fics. I think they're worth while! My Love is a relationship study of Murtagh and Thorn and the bond they formed during their struggles in Uru'baen. It's older, but I still find it strong. The Half Dead is my most recent fic, involving my post canon story line. Murtagh and King Orrin stumble into a chance encounter and find an unexpected understanding while trying to mitigate any danger they've ended up in.)

Murtagh is so incredibly trans, his entire character arc is a journey of transness. His frustration and pain at constantly being perceived and judged as someone other than who he really is and how much that stifles him. The way that he strikes out on his own in an attempt to escape that prejudice and and remake himself in the way he wants, so that people might respect him for who he truly is.

And then the way people push back against that, forcing Murtagh against his will to act in the way they want him to, the way they think he should. He's beaten into taking on this role that people believe is meant for him, just because of the circumstances of his birth. Yet he pushes through to the other side and breaks free of the demands forced upon him to fight for what what he truly cares about and what makes him who he is. He fights back for the right to make his own choices and to define himself on his own terms

His whole arc is a search for identity and recognition and acceptance as he has to fight against others' cruel attempts to control him amidst his own fears and uncertainties. It's about the wonderful audacity to survive in a world trying to kill him and it's all so so beautifully trans.

Consider. Instead of Murtagh not looking distinctly similar to Morzan enough to be recognized by appearance, yet he has a voice so incredibly similar that Ajihad recognizes him that way (Which Is Fucking Stupid). Instead of that. AU where Murtagh doesn't much resemble or sound like Morzan, but he inherited his heterochromia, with one black eye and one blue eye, and that's what makes Ajihad realize

A few times I've expressed how I feel like the later parts of the series really screw over Orrin and treat his character poorly. And I've seen some other people say similar things. But for a long while know, I've been conflicted about how exactly the books disservices him. Because, since writing this character analysis of him, I found that I don't disagree with the actual things he says and does. Like I mentioned there, I think the way his composure crumbles and how he becomes more aggressive and unreasonable makes a lot of sense in the context of what he's going through. He's lost everyone and he turns to drinking as anger and fear eat away at him. I think it works as a character arc, albeit a very sad one. And yet, I still get the feeling of the books doing wrong by Orrin and I've been trying to wrap my mind around why.

I was rereading the scene where Orrin wants to send an envoy to Uru'baen and Roran demands that he doesn't. Initially, I felt like this was one of the few moments where it does feel out of character for him, simply for the story to paint him in an exaggeratedly bad light. But I tried to reason out in what way it maybe could be in character (because I live for that). And it clicked into place. Orrin says it right there! "'But they can see us,' protested Orrin. 'We're camped right outside their walls. It would be... rude not to send an envoy to state our position. You are both commoners; I would not expect you to understand. Royalty demands certain courtesies, even if we are at war.'"

The issue at hand here is that Roran is arguing that sending an envoy to Galbatorix might provoke him to attack them. What Orrin is saying is that, as opposed to Roran and Jormundur, he knows what a king would expect to deal with when under attack, which includes envoys. If it would be perceived as rude and disrespectful to not send one, that insult could just as well be provoke Galbatorix into attacking. It makes perfect sense that, if Orrin sees this as a courtesy a king would feel entitled to, he believes it would be dangerous to risk slighting Galbatorix by failing to do it. Roran tells him, "'I won't let you endanger the rest of us just to satisfy your royal... pride.'" But it seems infinitely more likely that Orrin is attempting to satisfy Galbatorix's royal pride. I do think that not sending an envoy is a bit more sensible because, as Roran says, Galbatorix was born a commoner and likely has his own expectations (though what he goes on to say has flaws), but Orrin is still raising a very fair point by arguing that they should send one. And honestly, given what we see of Galbatorix, I don't think there was any danger of an envoy provoking him either.

But the more important thing about that realization that struck me is that I read that section at least 6 times before it occurred to me. I read it over and over while thinking "Orrin's argument doesn't make any sense, I don't know why he's saying this" before realizing it actually makes perfect sense. And it's because I believe that the true way that the series disservices Orrin's character is through the bias of the other characters and their narrations. This exchange is written in Roran's POV and it's riddled with his derision towards Orrin, his insistence that he's wrong, that he'll get them killed, and his overall very low opinion of him which colors how he sees all of Orrin's acts. And Jormundur shares his distaste and expresses his own.

Out of curiosity, I cut everything but the dialogue (sans 2 irrelevant lines) to see how it would read. It's very different; it shows how Orrin is reasonable at the start and how unwarranted Roran's combative and brazenly insulting response is. It really changes this scene from "Roran heroically saving everyone from the fallout of Orrin's stupid, careless choice," and reveals that it's just an argument- unhelpful and devolving where they both end up making inappropriate mistakes, one after the other.

Of course, there are real issues with Orrin's actions, in this case namely that his very wound up fear and frustration make him intensely volatile, enough that he tries to attack Roran here. That is egregious. But then that's compounded upon by all these other "flaws" perceived by the other characters in such an exaggerated way to the point of being fabricated. Roran sees him as dangerously stupid and vainglorious for wanting to send an envoy, despite putting absolutely no effort into learning his reason. It's just real rich that Roran then thinks, "Orrin was like a yearling mule: stubborn, overconfident, and all too willing to kick you in the gut if you gave him the opportunity." Lmao! Bitch look in the mirror, that's literally you!!!

This kind of depiction epitomizes Orrin's presence through the entire series. Every single POV characters has reason to be against him, starting with Nasuada. As a result of both of their respective positions, she sees him as a potential threat and obstacle to her goals. Through his connection to her, Eragon sees him the same way and Saphira follows suit. And Roran adopts the opinion of his cousin and his commander. So all of the POV characters are adverse to Orrin, but also, so is every single background character.

There is no one to offer or even contemplate a differing opinion in the face of the main characters' unilateral distaste. Once, literally once do we see Orrin talking to another Surdan. He gets a single line in the scene where Nasuada is appointed leader of their combined forces. Never again. We never see him interact with anyone not predisposed against him. None of his advisors, his soldiers, his friends. Every moment of Orrin's life involving the people who'd have a basis to get along with, or even like him go unseen by the entire story. And on the other side, that also means we never get to see how Orrin would interact with anyone without an incentive to work against him. So the narrative's bias against Orrin goes completely uninterrupted and unchallenged. It shows itself virtually every time he's present.

That is why the series feels so unfair towards Orrin, because in order to understand his actual intentions, it demands that the reader consider a perspective that the story refuses to ever provide. It requires ignoring perspectives that narrate everything and then giving a great deal of focus to Orrin's actions in isolation. It sets him up to be misunderstood and disliked because the easiest way to read his story is to follow along with the misunderstanding and dislike all the other characters express. The books actively obscure the true nature of Orrin's character.

by far the best inconsequential fragment of world building is in the beginning of Eldest when Eragon and Saphira both get smashed and their minds blur together, and Eragon starts singing in a dragon's voice. I'm fucking Obsessed with the implications. If their minds are merged close enough, can a Rider full on growl and roar like their dragon đź‘€?

ANYWAY what I was gonna say was how the fuck does Orrin get up the super tall tower in Uru'baen when they meet to chose the next ruler? It took forever for Eragon to climb all the stairs and it taxed even his strength. And Orrin had just been shot in the chest with a crossbow bolt only hours earlier and very nearly died. He's not fully healed btw, he was still bandaged and had to sit through the meeting. I'm fascinated by the possibility that Saphira could have brought him up, but I think it's incredibly unlikely. Maybe someone used magic for it, but idk if he'd put himself at the elves mercy like that and if his own magicians would be able. So maybe he just had someone help him physically climb all the way to the top, which could definitely explain why he's so pissed off the whole time! If anything, I'd say he's remarkably forgiving if that's the case bc if I'd been shot in the chest that morning and then my colleagues decided to do our crucial meeting at the top of the empire state building accessible only via spiral staircase, I would've gone straight to biting people to death

A few times I've expressed how I feel like the later parts of the series really screw over Orrin and treat his character poorly. And I've seen some other people say similar things. But for a long while know, I've been conflicted about how exactly the books disservices him. Because, since writing this character analysis of him, I found that I don't disagree with the actual things he says and does. Like I mentioned there, I think the way his composure crumbles and how he becomes more aggressive and unreasonable makes a lot of sense in the context of what he's going through. He's lost everyone and he turns to drinking as anger and fear eat away at him. I think it works as a character arc, albeit a very sad one. And yet, I still get the feeling of the books doing wrong by Orrin and I've been trying to wrap my mind around why.

I was rereading the scene where Orrin wants to send an envoy to Uru'baen and Roran demands that he doesn't. Initially, I felt like this was one of the few moments where it does feel out of character for him, simply for the story to paint him in an exaggeratedly bad light. But I tried to reason out in what way it maybe could be in character (because I live for that). And it clicked into place. Orrin says it right there! "'But they can see us,' protested Orrin. 'We're camped right outside their walls. It would be... rude not to send an envoy to state our position. You are both commoners; I would not expect you to understand. Royalty demands certain courtesies, even if we are at war.'"

The issue at hand here is that Roran is arguing that sending an envoy to Galbatorix might provoke him to attack them. What Orrin is saying is that, as opposed to Roran and Jormundur, he knows what a king would expect to deal with when under attack, which includes envoys. If it would be perceived as rude and disrespectful to not send one, that insult could just as well be provoke Galbatorix into attacking. It makes perfect sense that, if Orrin sees this as a courtesy a king would feel entitled to, he believes it would be dangerous to risk slighting Galbatorix by failing to do it. Roran tells him, "'I won't let you endanger the rest of us just to satisfy your royal... pride.'" But it seems infinitely more likely that Orrin is attempting to satisfy Galbatorix's royal pride. I do think that not sending an envoy is a bit more sensible because, as Roran says, Galbatorix was born a commoner and likely has his own expectations (though what he goes on to say has flaws), but Orrin is still raising a very fair point by arguing that they should send one. And honestly, given what we see of Galbatorix, I don't think there was any danger of an envoy provoking him either.

But the more important thing about that realization that struck me is that I read that section at least 6 times before it occurred to me. I read it over and over while thinking "Orrin's argument doesn't make any sense, I don't know why he's saying this" before realizing it actually makes perfect sense. And it's because I believe that the true way that the series disservices Orrin's character is through the bias of the other characters and their narrations. This exchange is written in Roran's POV and it's riddled with his derision towards Orrin, his insistence that he's wrong, that he'll get them killed, and his overall very low opinion of him which colors how he sees all of Orrin's acts. And Jormundur shares his distaste and expresses his own.

Out of curiosity, I cut everything but the dialogue (sans 2 irrelevant lines) to see how it would read. It's very different; it shows how Orrin is reasonable at the start and how unwarranted Roran's combative and brazenly insulting response is. It really changes this scene from "Roran heroically saving everyone from the fallout of Orrin's stupid, careless choice," and reveals that it's just an argument- unhelpful and devolving where they both end up making inappropriate mistakes, one after the other.

Of course, there are real issues with Orrin's actions, in this case namely that his very wound up fear and frustration make him intensely volatile, enough that he tries to attack Roran here. That is egregious. But then that's compounded upon by all these other "flaws" perceived by the other characters in such an exaggerated way to the point of being fabricated. Roran sees him as dangerously stupid and vainglorious for wanting to send an envoy, despite putting absolutely no effort into learning his reason. It's just real rich that Roran then thinks, "Orrin was like a yearling mule: stubborn, overconfident, and all too willing to kick you in the gut if you gave him the opportunity." Lmao! Bitch look in the mirror, that's literally you!!!

This kind of depiction epitomizes Orrin's presence through the entire series. Every single POV characters has reason to be against him, starting with Nasuada. As a result of both of their respective positions, she sees him as a potential threat and obstacle to her goals. Through his connection to her, Eragon sees him the same way and Saphira follows suit. And Roran adopts the opinion of his cousin and his commander. So all of the POV characters are adverse to Orrin, but also, so is every single background character.

There is no one to offer or even contemplate a differing opinion in the face of the main characters' unilateral distaste. Once, literally once do we see Orrin talking to another Surdan. He gets a single line in the scene where Nasuada is appointed leader of their combined forces. Never again. We never see him interact with anyone not predisposed against him. None of his advisors, his soldiers, his friends. Every moment of Orrin's life involving the people who'd have a basis to get along with, or even like him go unseen by the entire story. And on the other side, that also means we never get to see how Orrin would interact with anyone without an incentive to work against him. So the narrative's bias against Orrin goes completely uninterrupted and unchallenged. It shows itself virtually every time he's present.

That is why the series feels so unfair towards Orrin, because in order to understand his actual intentions, it demands that the reader consider a perspective that the story refuses to ever provide. It requires ignoring perspectives that narrate everything and then giving a great deal of focus to Orrin's actions in isolation. It sets him up to be misunderstood and disliked because the easiest way to read his story is to follow along with the misunderstanding and dislike all the other characters express. The books actively obscure the true nature of Orrin's character.

! I made an interesting realization just now in the shower! On a couple of occasions, Eragon and Nasuada suggest that Murtagh should act in the way Tornac would have as a way to change for the better and, ultimately, change his true name to free himself from Galbatorix and fight for them instead. Eragon insinuates this without directly mentioning Tornac: "Look at someone whom you admire but who has chosen paths other than your own through life and model your actions upon his." But in the context of Murtagh's backstory, this advice strongly evokes Tornac. And Nasuada outright names him: "Ask yourself: what would Tornac have wanted you to do?"

But that's a very curious demand for them to make because Murtagh is already emulating Tornac. Consider what we know about him. Tornac served Galbatorix, he would have had to for the king to entrust him with Murtagh's care. They lived in Uru'baen together as Murtagh grew up with Tornac raising him and he would have had to be in Galbatorix's service for all that time. Yet, he had no love for the king given that, when Murtagh wanted to abandon the Empire and flee, he was immediately ready to join him and help him leave that very same night. So he served the Empire for many years even though he had no true desire to be support them or the king, in order to provide the care and protection that Murtagh needed, until Murtagh was ready to make his own choice and take his own risk and Tornac turned his back on the king for him without hesitation.

That's exactly what Murtagh is doing. By yielding to Galbatorix and complying with his commands, Murtagh is doing the same thing for Thorn. He's bowed to this broad, great evil so he can look after the needs of an individual when no one else is willing nor able to. He does what he does to prevent Thorn from being tortured, to keep him from being broken, helpless against the king were Murtagh to abandon him. So he doesn't, the same way Tornac never abandoned him. And in the end, they rebel in a very similar way too. When Thorn is ready to carve his own path and fight for the right to claim his own life for the first time, and Murtagh wants to reclaim the life he desired but thought lost, they stand by each other and break free from Galbatorix.

For him to act the way that Tornac would requires that period of reluctant subservience so he can save the one he loves most. They ask Murtagh to follow Tornac's example, ignorant to the fact that the actions they so disapprove of are doing exactly that. And I wonder if this is a root of Murtagh's defining anger, an anger at Eragon and Nasuada's implication that the compromises that saved his own life and provided him much needed love and support through his childhood- the compromises that saved Thorn, the partner of his heart, when no one else (certainly no one from the Varden) would have helped him- were wrong. That they were immoral, they were not worth while, they were not enough, they fell short, they were wrong. Because such an implication is really a dismissal of Murtagh and Thorn's wellbeing- arguably of their lives.

I don't have the entirety of this concept articulated yet, but as I've been mulling over character analysis, I find myself continuously returning to this idea. The ways that the needs of individuals and the needs of a larger cause arise and are engaged with is very integral to defining the characters and shaping their interactions and relationships. I felt the need to make this to visualize the core of the concept. I left off the characters who had these qualities less clearly demonstrated and/or these qualities were less relevant to their stories. And in a few cases I left off characters who showed a lack of care for both individuals and a cause.

A couple things worth noting- *Elva is difficult to place regarding her inclinations specifically. She has a literal, magical inclination to help those who will be hurt because of Eragon's spell, but that's different to what I'm addressing. Because of her lack of experience due to her very young age, and her extremely inordinate connection with the suffering of others, Elva's character arc involves her learning to care at all about supporting both individuals and a cause. Because she's just beginning to settle into that understanding, it's hard to precisely pin down her natural inclinations.

**Roran is a very interesting outlier in regards to the way he actually acts, which was tricky to depict on the chart. He embodies a particular, unique balance where, through luck and circumstance, the needs of the people he cares about and the needs of the Varden's cause demand the same things from him. He's is able to satisfy both of them through the same acts. In his specific case, he considers the best way to protect and look after his loved ones is to devote himself to the Varden. The overlap allows his actions to simultaneously support both ends of the scale in almost every situation.

A couple other details bear mentioning, including the fact that this scale has the most significance in Murtagh's character arc. The way he shapes his choices around his notions what and who he should support is the most recognizable and has the most consequences. And those consequences drive him to realize the impact of his choices and motivate his change as a person. Secondly, it's notable that the widest shift between inclination and action is for Orrin, which is also vital to his character arc. The discrepancy is at the root of the ways he changes and begins to crumble throughout the duration of the war.

Being super dramatic is a family trait shared between Eragon, Murtagh, and Roran, but in different ways. Eragon is especially dramatic when he's making decisions, but not always in the way he talks about it. Particularly later in the series he can be quite frank and even about bat shit choices, for example, when discussing that he's decided to leave Alagaesia for the rest of his indefinite life because he had his fortune told once. On the other hand, Murtagh is usually quite practical with his actual decision making, but he does love to make a dramatic spectacle. Like the way he takes Zar'roc from Eragon as a way to reveal that they're brothers, he's so extra.

And then there's fucking Roran who trumps both of them by being infinitely more dramatic in both way. The theatrics are constantly off the charts with this man. Completely unhinged with zero chill, he always takes the most over the top option available in every situation and makes such a scene of it. His fucking speech to convince the villagers to leave Carvahall, the way he insists on going through the boar's eye, his ploy to scare the empire away from their camp at Aroughs solely with feigned overconfidence. This man contemplates every possible way to murder Nasuada's guards while waiting to see her and believes they must be thinking the same about him, like no babe, it's just you, no one else is this melodramatic and feral