shoutout to coffee
Ibn Taymiyyah (رحمه الله) said:
"Do not disperse your heart searching for love, safety, and completeness with other than Allāh.
"You will not find that (with other than Allāh)."
— [Majmu' Fatāwā 10/134]
“What I’ve come to learn is that the world is never saved in grand messianic gestures, but in the simple accumulation of gentle, soft, almost invisible acts of compassion, everyday acts of compassion. In South Africa they have a phrase called ubuntu. Ubuntu comes out of a philosophy that says, the only way for me to be human is for you to reflect my humanity back at me.”
— Chris Abani
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when james baldwin said “you think your pain and your heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the world, but then you read. it was books that taught me that the things that tormented me most were the very things that connected me with all the people who were alive, who had ever been alive.” I felt that big, big time
on shame and yearning (pt.2)
Sources:
- S.T., "300122," Tumblr, January 30, 2022, https://www.tumblr.com/ryebreadgf/674840497145233408/300122-st.
- Silas Denver Melvin, "love as an act of merciful conquer," Tumblr, November 2, 2021, https://www.tumblr.com/sweatermuppet/669052643259432960/from-love-as-an-act-of-merciful-conquer-by-silas.
- chandajaan, Tumblr, accessed via https://rockboci.tumblr.com/post/674728141263093760.
- Richard Siken, "Birds Hover the Trampled Field," in War of the Foxes (April 28, 2015).
- Emily Palermo, "What I Could Never Confess Without Some Bravado," The Rising Phoenix Review, March 15, 2016, https://therisingphoenixreview.com/2016/03/15/what-i-could-never-confess-without-some-bravado-by-emily-palermo/.
- Georges Bataille, My Mother/Madame Edwarda/The Dead Man (January 1, 1966).
- Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (April 1, 2000).
- Frank O'Hara, "Homosexuality," Poetry Foundation, May 1970, https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poetrymagazine/browse?contentId=31570.
- Heather Havrilesky, "I'm Broke and Mostly Friendless, and I've Wasted My Whole Life," The Cut, November 28, 2018, https://www.thecut.com/2018/11/im-broke-and-friendless-and-ive-wasted-my-whole-life.html.
- Lucille Clifton, "climbing," in The Book of Light (July 1, 1992).
and make us safe, reassured, and overwhelmed by the overflow of Your tenderness and mercy.”
“Zindagi mein ek maqaam aisa bhi aata hai jab hamaray paas kuch nahi hota. Na koi maa, baap, behen, bhai, na hi koi dost ya rishtidaar. Uss waqt humei ehsaas hota hai ke sirf Allah hi hai jo is kha'la me humein thaamey hoye hain. Tab humein ehsaas hota hai k hamarey honay na honay se sirf humein farq parta hai, kainaat ki kisi cheez par koi farq nahi parta, bas hamara kirdaar khatam hojata hai.”
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Umera Ahmed (Peer E Kamil) Translation (Summary):
In life we eventually come to a stage where all relationships cease. No parents, sisters, brothers, friends, or relatives. At this point we realize that there is no earth under us nor is there a sky above, but only Allah who is supporting us in this emptiness. This is when we grasp our worth. We realize that our existence is only confined to our being - to the role we play, and our demise makes not a whit of difference to the world around us, nor to the overall scheme of things.
PEER E KAMIL
“‗In life, at sometime or another we come to a point where all relationships cease—where there is only us and Allah. There are no parents, brother or sister, or any friend. Then we realize that there is no earth under us nor is there sky above, but only Allah who is supporting us in this emptiness. Then we realize our worth – it is not more than a grain of sand or the leaf of a plant. Then we realize our existence is only confined to our being. Our demise makes not a whit of difference to the world around us, nor to the scheme of things.” ― Umera Ahmed, Peer-e-Kamil/پیر کامل
When Salar Sikandar said Ya toh use mujhe dede ya uska khayal mere dil se nikal de ke mujhe kabhi uska khayal na aye. Woh nahi milegi toh sari zindagi uske liye rota rahunga. Wo mil jaye gi toh tere ilawa kisi aur k liye ansu nahi baha sakunga. Mere ansuo'n ko khalis hone de. Mai yahan khara tujh se pak aurton mei se ek aurat ko mangta hun.
That moment my world had just stopped for a second.
Excerpt from the book peer e kamil by Umera Ahmad
And when Salar Sikandar prayed:
"Ya tw usay mujhe de de, ya uska khayal mere dil se nikal de k mujhe kabhi uska khayal na aye. Wo nahi mili tw saari zindagi us k liye rotaa rahunga, wo mil gayi tw tere ilawa kisi air k liye ansu nahi bahaungaa. Mere ansuon ko khaalis honay de."
Kuch log hamari zindagi me naimat ki trha hote hai, jo hamare achhe aur bure amaal se hat kar humein ata kiye jate hai aur ye hamare rab ki hum par bht badi mehrbani hoti hai.
i'm not going to rush love because i want to find the one that is patient enough to understand me when i don't even understand myself. one that will allow me to speak up and freely communicate my emotions and thoughts without being barricaded with invalidation. one that is more of a safe place than a toxic space, one that is always willing to resolve arguments. a love with trust as its foundation. a love that is honest even about the smallest of things. one that is respectful enough to not overstep my boundaries nor do anything to intentionally hurt me. one that apologizes and also forgives. one that doesn't change the way they see me by the mistakes i commit and my imperfections as a person. a love that is consistent and has pure intentions for me. a love that assures without being asked. one that loves all of me and accepts me for who i am, for who i was and for who i will become. above all, a love that may not be perfect but will be worth all that i could lose. until then, i'll wait.
If you are not receiving what you prayed for, don't assume that it's not meant for you. Instead believe Allah's timing is perfect, so that when what you do receive you will thank Allah for making you wait and for teaching you a patience you never would have known before.
