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long and weary my road has been

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camila, 30, brazilian. i like movies and videogames. ao3: aheartfulloflexa | twitter: @CamisGui

shout out to people who's family isnt entirely bad or entirely good, but something in between and you dont know how to feel about them. you feel angry but you also feel guilty, because you know they genuinely love and care about you, but sometimes they show it in a way you know its not okay. your feelings are valid, your anger and sadness and grief are valid, and you dont have to prove this to no one. bigger shout out to those with memory issues who know something isnt right but can't recall all of the bad events, only the feelings, which only increases the guilt.

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It was so strange hearing Sheppard's voice in the mouth of that creature last night. I think as she was dying, part of her mind became part of the creature that was killing her. Imagine dying frighted and in pain, and having that as the only part of you which survives. I wouldn't like that at all. Ventress wants to face it, you want to fight it, but I don't think I want either of those things.

ANNIHILATION (2018) dir. Alex Garland

my favorite book from a specific book series: twilight

I was not allowed to think of him. That was something I tried to be very strict about. Of course I slipped; I was only human. But I was getting better, and so the pain was something I could avoid for days at a time now. The trade-off was the never-ending numbness. Between pain and nothing, I’d chosen nothing.