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sometimes i wish i had facial hair
like sexy stubble or something that would be so cool
perfect
im not coming back to tumblr i just needed to find this post in order to dunk on my younger self. you absolute baby buffoon. you dumbass
No, he didn’t.
This all happened a long time ago, and my memory is imperfect, but here’s my memory: The cock monologue certainly hurt my feelings! But when people are trying to force someone out of a virtual space, they sometimes resort to behavior that is similar to bullying except it’s not completely identical to bullying because the person they’re making fun of has a lot of power. (As someone who got bullied a lot in school, the feeling was similar in 2014 but it wasn’t identical–because I was aware of the fact that I was okay, that what was in danger was certain aspects of my identity/self-value that I treasured but not my entire personhood itself.)
Anyway, it hurt my feelings, and still hurts my feelings when I see it shared (it feels to me like a joke about my sexuality, although I understand other people don’t see it that way; but yeah, you don’t know much about my sexuality and I don’t really want you to but it feels like a joke about that to me, which just bums me out).
But all of that stuff is a side effect of my job and having been successful at it, and I like my job. It is a great job. All jobs have aspects that suck. My job has fewer such aspects than other jobs I’ve had.
So yeah, I did not quit tumblr because of the cock monologue. (I also did not ask tumblr to make reblogs un-editable.) .
I quit tumblr because a few people started to make extremely specific threats. One might, for instance, send me an ask that featured a google streetview screenshot of my home and tell me which window they were going to break into because they figured that’s where the master bedroom was, and how they shoot me in both knees before shooting me in the head. (The window they focused on was in fact the window to my son’s room.)
I was super scared of these people (or possible person pretending to be a few people?) because they seemed to have a lot of knowledge about me and my family. We lived in a normal middle-class neighborhood in Indianapolis and I felt very exposed and nervous all the time in my real life, and that’s why I quit tumblr.
I SHOULD’VE quit tumblr much earlier–I needed to realize that people at the time weren’t comfortable with me in their virtual spaces and that to them I came across as cringey or even creepy, but at the time, I wasn’t nearly self-aware enough to quite for any of those reasons, and plus there was a lot of pressure from movie studios etc to stay on the social Internet so I could continue to promote my books and the stuff around them. So I didn’t quit when I should’ve, and as a result had and caused quite a few negative experiences for people. I’m sorry about the role I had in causing those negative experiences. I should’ve had a better understanding of not just how I experienced myself but also how other people might experience me. That’s something i’ve worked on over the years but still come up short on sometimes.
At any rate, I might delete this later because it makes me feel a bit like all my nerves are exposed to the air but I did just want to clarify that the, like, Tumblr Legend of this whole thing is at minimum a bit over simplified.
"Draw thy sword" indeed!
ok part of the reason I didn't do Clem Perennial stuff is that I simply do not find Clementine Kesh to be attractive. not even because she's terrible (see: I think Cool Ranch Samothes can be extremely attractive), I just think of the Jack PCs she is the least attractive. now, I could make art that I think is sexy with her in it, but it wouldn't be a pinup and in fact would warrant me starting an nsfw art account and THAT'S a hassle and a half considering my loose grasp of human anatomy
but honestly, I've been considering ditching this website for cohost as my main social media platform because of the transmisogyny wars and just using this to post palisade comics and the occasional "actual art" pieces
ok part of the reason I didn't do Clem Perennial stuff is that I simply do not find Clementine Kesh to be attractive. not even because she's terrible (see: I think Cool Ranch Samothes can be extremely attractive), I just think of the Jack PCs she is the least attractive. now, I could make art that I think is sexy with her in it, but it wouldn't be a pinup and in fact would warrant me starting an nsfw art account and THAT'S a hassle and a half considering my loose grasp of human anatomy
fatt pinup week day 2: blasphemy/devotion
hadrian waking from a late autumn dream
Friends at the table pin up week, prompt three “entangled” couldn’t resist drawing Tender Sky for this one!
after a total of 24 hours up, staff has decided that my selfies are "not clocky enough" to be put on the pervert list :/
Those memes about hypothetical pretentious "film bro" movies seek the delicate balance of a country of origin that's just foreign enough to orientalize but not enough to be called racist over.
I also hate the fact that those countries are invariably in eastern Europe, and that the devastating effects of American imperialism in eastern Europe are a joke to Americans and nobody ever calls them on it because American racial metaphysics always dominate the conversation and set the standard for what is and isn't acceptable. Fuck America, fuck its jokes, fuck its memes, fuck its racial metaphysics. I'm sick of Americans never being held to account for writing off entire regions of the planet and their struggles against American imperialism as hilarious punchlines.
The universalisation of USAmerican racial dynamics and categorisation is what facilitates turning the long-standing ethnic oppression of eastern Europe into a joke - the struggle of eastern immigrants to western Europe, the depopulation and brain drain that comes with it, the flow of profit into the centers of European power, all of it gets reduced to 'haha, it's so funny that there's ethnic conflict in the Balkans, because they're all White!' Relations only solidified in the context of a settler class get applied to contexts where they make no sense, and result in a papering-over of cases of national oppression, rather than a re-evaluation of those relations' applicability.
all of me
original artworks by Zinaida Serebriakova, N. H Jacob, Walter Launt Palmer, Depiano
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Hey my old blog @doggirlnarcolepsy got terminated in the recent trans fem tumblr purge, so I'll be posting from this url from now on. Unless tumblr decides to reverse their rash and uncalled for decision, I guess...
Me and my wife have been struggling make ends meet this month and have an unpaid internet and power bill totaling at $225 that urgently need to be paid off or collection agencies will make our life a living hell recouping the charges and fees we will incur. (You can read the original post @queensizeddonger for more detail)
We haven't been able to pick up our hormones or my wife's ozempic yet, as we've been putting aside everything we've received to cover the overdue bills. We've haven't been able to cover groceries either for a while so we've been going days on and off without dinner as our only meal trying to ration what we have left.
Everything has just been so chaotic these last couple of weeks negotiating with utility companies for extensions, barely eating and tumblr nuking my blog out of literally nowhere.. If anyone is able to help out it would be a huge relief for the both of us and we would be incredibly grateful
P*yp*l: QueenSizedDonger
"Captain Brnine! The Divine Devotion has been Norted! Come on - we have to open the Chimera's Lantern and retrieve the True Power of Volition, otherwise the The Figure in Bismuth will be forever chained to The Witch in Glass and her Iconoclastic power. Coincidentally, we have to make a pitstop in the movie Encanto"
Friends at the Table 7 Palisade - Shattered Memories 456/2 Tears
(with apologies to Ian Multcher from this tweet: https://twitter.com/TheFantasticIan/status/1413233209307893760)
What's the funniest newspaper comic Susan's ever read?
