You can and will survive this.

Just keep going.

Buckle your seat belts, because I’m going to share a piece of wisdom with y’all. There are times when you’re just not ready to tell the story you want to tell,

These are the times when you need to take a step back and another project for a little while. Breathe. Relax. Enjoy your writing.

There are some stories that just aren’t ready for you; some that you might not be ready for. This doesn’t mean it’s a bad story, or that you’re a bad writer–you’re just not ready for each other yet.

this summer, remember,

self care includes still getting out of bed and eating and being productive sometimes enough to feel good about yourself

also remember that restful days are not “wasted” and you are valuable every day even if you don’t get out of your pjs

BUT also going for a walk or cooking for yourself or cleaning out your things may make you feel better and keep your mind from that summer fog

i am incredibly tired of my editing application crashing so take this as it is lol

op marry me i watched this twice and i’m still laughing my a-

Though you should see this. Be safe

Move on

For us it might be hard to move on..well, no..it is. I believe most of us can’t move on when  people think wrongly about them. A misunderstanding, a flip up because of your illness that results in people thinking you are  a jerk/dumb/lazy or whatever. And we try so hard to  proof to people that we are not. We try so damn hard to make people see and understand that this was  something we did by mistake, or we could not control in that moment, and that we are truly sorry. It took a long time for me to learn…walk on. Do not waste your time and energy and happyness to proof to people who think bad of you, that you are not bad. This is hard with people you know fleetingly, like colleagues, a doctor… ..and nearly impossible with people you knew for a long time. Like…your parents for example. Either people who interact with you, will realise by themselves you are not a bad person, or they will not do even with all the energy and time you put into being *perfect*. It truly is hard to take that first step. To put a cut between you and those people and force yourself to use that energy for important things you can influence. Get a new doctor, do not try to proof to your old one that you are sick. Use that energy to find someone who will recognize what you need. Do not try to proof to your phobic coworker that being queer is not bad. Use that energy to interact with other coworkers who like you for being you. Do not try and proof to your parents that you are not lazy. Use that energy to get your life going, to do things you love, to find better health. Either those people come around when you are living your life. Or they won’t be important in your life. It can be painful and sad to move on at first. Sooner or later you get results, like happyness. Keep moving, don’t wear yourself down by staying in place.

no pimples

no sadness

no fake love

no hate

managing depression

managing anxiety

no abusers

no heartbreaks

hydrated

growth

full of pure love

high grades

financial stability

self love

healing

healthy in every way

safe

no toxic people

i hope 2019 is “the” year

Dying would’ve been much more easier…

It’s not poetic feeling

when you want to die

It’s days where you’re so heavy

you can barley move or breath

When making it through the day

feels impossible

Where you feel like

you can jump out of your own skin

just to escape it all

Where you’re in so much pain

but don’t know exactly why

Wanting to do anything

to make it stop

@melindacarolinee