To my great love,

I don’t want to seem like I want attention, I really don’t, I just have so much emotion and heartache I must get it out. My heart hurts so bad, my head hurts from the crying, and my body hurts from the pain.

You were my sunshine, my moon, my stars, my world. You gave me hope for better, even on my darkest days. I knew that no matter what would come my way that I would be okay knowing you were by my side. I changed colleges so I could be closer to home for you. I was ready to live a quiet life in a small town for you. I was ready to do whatever needed to make sure you continued to by the light in my life.

But then one Sunday afternoon you told me you didn’t love me and my world came crashing down. Everything seemed to be closing in around me. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat. I knew you felt horrible, but it didn’t seem to ease the pain of knowing you weren’t mine anymore. You said, “we can still be friends.” You meant it and we are still friends, but it’s not the same.

I wish I could kiss you one more time. I wish I could hug you, hold you, love you, one more time. But I can’t, and it breaks my heart. Before you, my life was in black and white. You brought the color into my world and I was forever changed. My world is in black and white again, and maybe someday it’ll go back. But until then, I must learn to move forward. Continue to live my life in the darkness.

You were the best thing that ever happened to me. I finally learned what love was, how I was supposed to be treated, and what dating your best friend was really like. I will never, ever forget you. You will always hold a place in my heart. If we’re meant to be, then maybe we’ll find our way back together. Until then, I love you and I wish you the best.

Yours always,

Annie

PS : I’ll always be here.