Been ages since I’ve been on here.....

You Never Cared.

Not as much as me at least.

You Never Tried.

Not as much as me at least.

You Never Listened.

Not as much as me at least.

You Never Wanted.

Not as much as me at least.

I Never Mattered.

Not as much as you at least.

I Never Forgot.

Not as much as you at least.

I Never Stopped.

Not as much as you at least.

I Never Parted.

Not as much as you at least.

And so I have moved on.

The Start of a New Chapter

I Can’t.

I want to cry.

I can’t.

I want to love.

I can’t.

I’d like to think properly.

I can’t.

I’d like to be calm.

I can’t.

I’d like to sleep.

I can’t.

I’d like to hide.

I can’t.

I’d like to be happy.

I can’t.

I’d like to feel.

I can’t.

I’d love to not hurt.

I can’t.

I’d love to love.

I can’t.

I want to cry.

I can’t.

I want to love.

You know there’s something there when the smallest amount of physical contact makes you go a little bit crazy.

I haven’t had a girlfriend in 3 years. People find it unbelievable. I tried to have relationships but they never truly took off. My first girlfriend was my last. I try so hard to find somebody but I can’t find the spark. I’ve tried so hard to find the spark. I wonder if I will ever find it again. Or maybe it’s still out there with the first and last person who had it - somebody who I felt it with first, and the person I felt it with last - and it won’t leave. Yet at the same time I wait for it to come to me. If I can’t find it, she’s not the one. I don’t go for just anyone. Hell, I don’t even know if I even liked my ex the way I thought I did. I don’t think I liked her. I think I liked what we had. I think I found the spark once... And I haven’t found it since.