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Stormshipping Captain

@aberooski

☆ 23 ☆ she/her ☆ gamer ☆ https://archiveofourown.org/users/Yunalesca10 ☆ Sometimes I draw too ☆

I've returned from the art hyperfixation trenches and I've brought with me an approximation of an excerpt of a crossover fic I've been formulating and obsessing over for what must be weeks now 😂😅

The idea of Chazz, Atticus, and Alexis getting somehow sucked into the Mushroom Kingdom the Paper Mario 64 layout specifically hence Lava Lava Island lol started out as a joke, but the thought of Chazz and Peach hanging out in Bowser's dungeon together becoming unlikely besties while they wait for their silly boyfriends to come rescue them made it not a joke anymore and now, here we are 🤭🤭

Of course the dialog is subject to change when I get around to actually writing the actual fic and this sequence happens in context, but I approximated the gist of what's going on at this point in the story 😅

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So I'm listening to Snow by Ricky Montgomery, one of my favorite songs, and the way the line "Sister, will you lend me all your strength? I'm bringing everyone home." Is so Atticus coded 😭

If you've seen GX season 4 you know.

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Related: so long as we're talking about Rhodes family coded song lyrics when songs pop up in my rotation, exhibit B. Haunted by Taylor Swift.

"I know, I know, I just know. You're not gone, you can't be gone, no!"

Alexis coded.

If you've seen my list of Taylor lyrics I associate with GX characters you know about this one but goddammit I'll never get over this one 😭

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I was just thinking about how in season 4 when we're seeing what Chazz, Alexis, and Syrus are experiencing after being absorbed by Darkness, we're seeing it through Atticus's eyes. We're seeing what he's seeing. Also it lingers on Chazz far longer than Alexis and Syrus. Granted he could be seeing more of them that we're not being shown but it really says something to me regardless. It always felt to me like Atty was more sad about Alexis and Syrus in that state but more hurt by seeing Chazz in that position if that makes any if at all sense.

I think because Chazz put up the strongest fight. He had to suffer more and was broken more thoroughly than they were at least with what we see it appears that way. Chazz being stuck in a time loop, nothing he can do to change the outcome no matter what he does only to end up back to the beginning again, driven to desperation to break free to the point where he cheats in the duel and fully breaks down, completely loses his will to go on, and surrenders to his fate. Just the sad, tired, and yet relieved laugh and the defeated smile on his face before he gives up is just devastating. And with how close he and Atticus are at that point, even with Alexis in this situation I can just feel his anguish season 3 calling 👀 not being able to help his boyfriend and just having to watch him suffer in such a through and profound way.

Also Alexis's doesn't hit nearly as hard because we never really see anything from her that suggests that she has the desire to be a teacher or feelings of inadequacy and worrying that she isn't worthy of showing people the joys of dueling and all that until season 4, and even then not until basically that point if not shortly before. It's been a little bit since I've watched season 4 I might be a bit fuzzy on some details, but I digress. Watching her suffer hurts, and you know it kills Atticus. It has to completely destroy him he loves her so much, seeing her tormented and in distress like that and having to just stand by and observe? Soul crushing. But hers is the least devastating for me because there's no build to it. There's nothing leading to any culmination of these feelings for her, but especially in comparison to Chazz, her section falls flat in terms of emotional devastation.

And Syrus is my favorite character and literally anything remotely upsetting that goes on for him devastates me to no end, but in terms of it hurting Atticus, they never really were shown interacting all that much and I never got the impression that they were too terribly close. But Atty loves and values and cherishes every single person he's ever known, Syrus is still very precious to him, and especially being the little brother of his former best friend. And watching him have to suffer and deal with the crushing weight of keeping Zane alive and carrying on his dreams all your closets of backlogged dreams and how you left them all to me 😭 and also the fear of coming home to find his brother dead? The pain that would put in Atticus's heart has to be immeasurable.

But above all of it, I always felt like Chazz hurt him the most. All of them ripped his heart into shreds, and then smaller and smaller shreds as it went on, but Chazz needed help the most. Needed him the most.

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I really do think one of my best developments over the years in my characterizations and presentations of character dynamics and relationships is Chazz and Alexis evolving into having an almost brother/sister relationship to the point where in the majority of my fics and even spilling over into thoughts about my GX rewrites, she is fully and equally as willing to protect and throw herself to the wolves for Chazz as she is for Atticus if a situation presents itself where she feels the desire or the need to do so.

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Related: I'm very sad the writers of the actual show never allowed Chazz to move on after Alexis turned him down which she was VERY nice about and let him down super gently actually good for her aksksksk because it only held his character back. It held back his emotional growth and development and also held back the incredible friendship and bond he could've formed with her. And ultimately it would've benefitted her too. But no, they couldn't have that now could they? I need to have so many different conversations with japan about the mishandling of this show and it's characters.

Friendly reminder to all the writers on here:

You don’t owe anyone good writing.

You don’t owe anyone a complete storyline written in order.

You can jump around. You can abandon projects. You can write really shitty stories! Writing is about telling stories and creating worlds. Not about what makes your followers happy.

I have to remind myself of this a lot, because in most of my stories I’ve gotten stuck and don’t know where to go. But you can jump around. You can skip parts. It doesn’t matter.

Write what makes you happy.

So I'm listening to Snow by Ricky Montgomery, one of my favorite songs, and the way the line "Sister, will you lend me all your strength? I'm bringing everyone home." Is so Atticus coded 😭

If you've seen GX season 4 you know.

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If my mutuals can’t rb this then we can’t be mutuals

Every time Taylor Swift sings about someone's smile being beautiful and precious and wonderful and perfect and Chazz pops into my head I cry a little bit because I can count on one hand the amount of times in the show we see him legitimately genuinely smile and when he does he literally lights up and just looks so sweet and soft it makes me devastatingly sad 😭