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aaron | 18 | transmascfem | queer and disabled | header description: a cropped meme with several elementary school aged kids with edited sparkles around them. the text at the top says: getting my top surgery at Claire's. end description. | profile picture description: a picture of Aoyagi Toga, a blue haired character from Project Sekai. He's looking off to the side and his hands are posed as if he is holding a pencil. edited in the background is the demiboy flag, which is dark grey, light grey, blue and white.

another disabled nico di angelo headcanon:

nico suffers from something similar to narcolepsy due to him almost fading from shadow traveling so much. the way they (the Apollo cabin) accommodate him is this private room in the infirmary that he goes to and bc its in the infirmary he can easily get out of training when needed (no questions asked). if it's during meals, he'll just lean against Will in the dining pavilion, and he's allowed to sleep bc the apollo cabin gets disabilities. Will and him will come back when he's awake again/feeling better and make food in the kitchen together even if it's the middle on the night

the harpies don't bother them bc they've got a doctors note

yknow what i was reminded of this and it’s been sitting in my drafts for awhile:

i feel like Nico is a very unique disabled character particularly for a YA fantasy series because he’s one of the few instances where I’ve see a character who becomes disabled gradually over time rather than having a pre-existing or sudden new disability, and he has an invisible disability, and it’s actually acknowledged and discussed to some degree in-text.

Most of Nico’s disabilities we see through the lens of Nico’s powers, but not exclusively. In the first series, Nico’s powers are extremely dramatic - he’s able to create large rifts in the ground, generate building-sized slabs of black marble, direct armies of skeletons, summon and control large groups of ghosts at once, and accidentally shadow-travel halfway across the world with very little drawback.

But over time, contrary to what we’re told of how demigod abilities work (becoming more powerful over time), Nico’s abilities decrease as the series progresses, particularly after he goes through multiple traumatic experiences and physical injury. In HoO and TOA, we see he never fully recovered from the neglect to his health over time and injuries he’s received.

I feel like it’s really important to acknowledge that Nico is an instance of a disabled character who gradually loses the ability to do things to the same degree he used to before, which is an important disabled experience.

This Is How I Disappear, Nico di Angelo’s theme song during BOTL

this comic took me (checks watch) 3 months because i drew and inked the pages traditionally! i added the colors and text in procreate but i definitely got some quality time with my steel nib!

Disabled Nico di Angelo Headcanons

  • Shortly after the war with Gaea, Nico starts having pain in his back, knees, and hands that can't be explained or healed, and make it difficult to walk and even hold a pen. At first, Nico tries to endure the pain, convinced he was just being dramatic, but after nearly collapsing during training, he finally caves and goes to Will about it. The healer recommends getting a cane and compression gear to see if they can help. Nico is reluctant at first but decides to give a shot, and is pleasantly surprised to discover they help immensely.
  • Over time, Nico decorates the cane with stickers and keychains that he got from his friends. He develops the habit of tapping the cane on the ground when he's nervous or impatient.
  • He wears compression gloves for his hand pain. Most people assume he wears them for fashion reasons. They're a bit of a hassle, since he has to constantly take them on and off to do things, but he learns to deal with it. He also wears knee braces, but you usually don't see them because he wears them under his jeans most of the time.
  • Camp is pretty accessible, and Nico has little trouble getting around. At first, he was afraid of going out in public with the cane, fearing people would see him as weak, but most are accepting of his disability. If anyone dared to give him shit about it, they learned the hard way not to fuck with him.
  • The aids aren't a miracle cure, and there are still days when Nico can't do things due to the pain being too severe. But he learns to be patient with himself and accept his limits.
  • The Hephaestus Cabin has offered to make him a cane that can turn into a sword, and Nico is currently helping them figure out the design.
  • Hades has also offered to get him a small hellhound trained as a service dog if he ever needs it.

please stop saying that demigods aren’t actually adhd/dyslexic because their traits have plot reasons. what you’re doing by spreading this narrative is removing canon disability from disabled characters. it’s ableist and harmful whether it’s intended or not.

FRIENDLY REMINDER:

  • transfem ≠ a trans amab person
  • transmasc ≠ a trans afab person
  • an afab person can be transfem
  • an amab person can be transmasc
  • an intersex person can be transfem/transmasc
  • someone can be transfem and transmasc
  • these labels aren’t talking about genitals, they’re talking about the intersection of being trans and identifying/presenting in a masc/fem way

I get that we normally use these terms in this way, but it just presents another form of binary thinking if there is no flexibility to these labels, which is pretty ironic considering these labels were made to be inclusive of nonbinary people.

By limiting the meaning of these labels, we only hurt Trans people. We exclude nonbinary people, multigender people, trans intersex people, trans systems, and so many more.

I want to thank every queer person who’s ever worked a customer service job in a restaurant or in retail, because when I was a kid they were literally the only real proof I had that queer people existed. I saw y’all and sparks would go off in my head and then I’d go home and the fire would go out. Working customer service can suck, but I’ll never take for granted how impactful a visibly queer person can be for a lonely child.

i love being intersex i love intersexuality i love cis intersex people i love trans intersex people i love intergender people i love people questioning and discovering their intersexuality i love people disabled by their variation i love people whose variation isn’t externally noticeable i love us all so much

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"no children are being forced to take hrt or have surgeries that change the appearance of their genitals" intersex children are, actually

"everyone was assigned a gender at birth" there are intersex people who were not assigned a gender at birth

"trans women are amab trans people and trans men are afab trans people" there are intersex people who were assigned male at birth and later transitioned medically and socially to male, and intersex people who were assigned female at birth and later transitioned medically and socially to female

"assigned gender at birth is a 1:1 predictor of tma vs tme experience" there are intersex people who were assigned female at birth and experienced violence for being a woman with a penis + testes + secondary sex characteristics like facial hair + having a testosterone-dominant hormone profile, and had to transition medically and socially to be socially and medically recognized as women as adults

"bodies born with sex variations are medically nonbinary" no, they are intersex, and intersex people can be a binary gender if they want to be

"nonbinary people who want non-cisnormative sex variations are mentally ill/diseased for wanting a disordered body" no, bodies with sex variations are not disordered, and it harms intersex people for them to be seen as disordered regardless of if the body in question was born that way or created through surgery

"cis women don't experience transphobic body policing/will never understand how it feels to have your womanhood constantly in question and subject to violence over things you can't change" intersexism overlaps heavily with transphobia and an intersex woman can both identify as cis and have a penis, testes, be testosterone-dominant, etc, and have visible signs of those traits. an intersex woman can also have been amab or be currently legally designated as male by the government and still identify as cis.

stop saying intersexist shit in your trans discourse thanks

Alternative language for biology of sex without using "hermaphrodite"

So, you're worldbuilding a scifi alien species or a fantasy race that can reproduce as both male and female. Or you're a biologist or science educator. And you want what you're writing/making to be inclusive to intersex people.

The term hermaphrodite in biology refers to species that can reproduce as both male or female. The problem is it's also a slur when used against intersex people (it's also incorrect - we're not hermaphrodites). I recently polled other intersex folks informally and a plurality were fine with the h-word being used with the correct meaning in appropriate contexts. But the qualitative feedback I got was, all things equal, most people who wrote to me said they'd just be happier seeing the term less.

So here is a glossary of words you can use to talk about the biology of sex without invoking the h-word:

Gonochoric species where individuals (typically) reproduce only as either male or female. This means the species produces two types of gametes that have different sizes, and conventionally the larger is female. Gono- for generation/reproduction and -choric for separated/distinct. Note that "non-gonochoric" includes both hermaphroditic species and those that can reproduce asexually (e.g. parthenogenesis).

Gonosyne: species where individuals (typically) can reproduce as both male or female. Gono- for generation/reproduction and syne for together/combined. This is a term I have coined to be an alternative to hermaphrodite.

Types of gonosyny: it's common to categorize different forms of gonosyny based on temporality and how many gonads an individual has.

Grouping by Temporality:

  • Cosex: species where individuals can reproduce as both male and female simultaneously. Alternative terms: cosexual, simultaneous hermaphrodism. For example: land snails/slugs typically mate by linking up both pairs of genitals.
  • Dichosex: gonosynic species where individuals reproduce as male and female at different times in their lives. Protandrous species start as male then switch to female; protogynous start female then switch to male. Some species cycle between the two (serial/bidirectional hermaphrodism/disexuality). Alternative terms: dichosexual, dichogamous, sequential hermaphrodism. I coined this one after feedback that "dichogamous" was not intuitive to non-botanists, keeping dicho- (in two parts/paired) for simplicity. Example animal: clownfish (the Finding Nemo fish).

Grouping by Gonads:

  • Digonic: species that can reproduce as both male and female because they have separate male and female gonads. Digony can be cosex or dichosex. In botany the term monoecious is used for flowering plants. For example: barnacles have their ovaries in the base of their body, and testes in the back of their head.
  • Syngonic: species that can reproduce as both male and female, because their gonads can produce both male and female gametes. Alternative terms: syncoecious, monoclinous, ambisexual. (Note ambisexual has other meanings.) Syngony can be cosex or dichosex. In dichosexual species the gonad changes which gametes it produces when the individual changes sex. For example: land slugs have a single gonad (ovotestis).