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Reparenting Affirmations for an Inner Child

I am so glad you were born.
You are a good person.
I love who you are and am doing my best to always be on your side.
You can come to me whenever you’re feeling hurt or bad.
You do not have to be perfect to get my love and protection.
All of your feelings are okay with me.
I am always glad to see you.
It is okay for you to be angry and I won’t let you hurt yourself or others when you are.
You can make mistakes - they are your teachers.
You can know what you need and ask for help.
You can have your own preferences and tastes.
You are a delight to my eyes.
You can choose your own values.
You can pick your own friends, and you don’t have to like everyone.
You can sometimes feel confused and ambivalent, and not know all the answers.
I am very proud of you.

– Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker

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leech boy.

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casual-mistake

femcassidy

no offense but why is being alive so consistently bad

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kiwipeel

in someplaces, time works different. you know when you’re in an airport and youre drinking a vodka soda at 7am? find out which timeless space you are

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sagihairius

In case no one has told you today….theres something very obviously wrong with you 💙

spaceinvaydr

Really needed to hear this ❤️🙏

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having parents that were really angry and petty and abusive when you were young is weird, because it makes part of you grow up to want to be kind, to generate good things, to be a source of peace and wellbeing for others; but it makes another part of you grow up to be quick, and sharp, and spiteful, and that’s always the part that shows itself first in a hard situation, so it’s a struggle between your hateful gut reactions and your wish to not add any more misery to the world. it’s a hard balance, and the people who really, really know me - i know they see that anger flash in my eyes before i quiet it, if i quiet it…i want to overcome years of conditioning, and with gentle, constant force, i know i’ll mellow it. it just takes time.

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seraphasia

on trauma:

1. “and I never knew survival was like that. If you live, you look back and beg for it again, the hazardous bliss before you knew what you would miss.” (ada limón, from “before”)

2. “The consistency of hurt is what makes it so comforting.” (william nu’utupu giles, from “what do you want? it’s not that simple”)

3. “A child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort.” (gillian flynn, from “sharp objects”)

4. “When you’ve had a bad experience, you sometimes feel compelled to recreate it in a way that allows you to control it. It’s like you’re attracted to the very thing that bothered you because you’re not done with it- you need to fix that moment so you can move forward. Oscar Wilde said, ‘a burnt child loves fire.’ For me, that means being able to explore things that have been traumatic or you’re not so sure about. The sources of terror in childhood can become the sources of attraction in adulthood.” (todd hido, from “on landscapes, interiors, and the nude”)

(ingmar bergman)

6. “This body knows fear like a front porch knows welcome—it is always coming home.” (brenna twohy, from “swallowtail”)

7. “I liked Hell. I like to go there alone relieved to lie in the wreckage, ruined, physically undone. The worst had happened. What else could hurt me then? I thought it was the worst, thought nothing worse would come. The nothing did, and no one.” (marie howe, from “magdalene: the addict)

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“Let me tell you what’s going to happen, the day after you find out he slept with someone else. 1. You’re going to wake up with last nights makeup still on your face and you’re going to want to stay all day in bed. 2. Your body is going to feel weak because your heart is going to feel like it’s gone. 3. You’re going to get out of bed when you really need to use the bathroom. Then you’re going to stare at your reflection in the bathroom mirror. Then your reflection is going to make you rationalize with his decision. 4. At 5 pm you’re going to realize that you haven’t fed yourself all day. You’ll walk over to the kitchen and grab the blueberries in the fridge, and you’ll remember that he was the one who got those blueberries a week ago. You’re going to stare at the blueberries, and wonder if he got those because blueberries are blue and black, and maybe he was trying to warn you that he was going to hurt you. 5. People are going to write to you and call you but you’ll ignore all of the text messages and calls. 6. You’re going to realize that you still haven’t fed yourself because when you tried to, you realized you didn’t have an appetite. 7. Your room is going to be dark and you’re going to be in bed scrolling through his Instagram or Facebook. You’re going to look through his followers and look at the people who’ve liked his pictures. You want to find a clue, and when you do you’re going to think about how stupid you were and you’re going to wonder why you didn’t do this before. 8. You’re going to get up from the bed and collect all of the things he gave you. You’re going to grab a laundry basket and put everything in there, and tomorrow you’ll go donate it to your nearest thrift store. 9. You’ll go back to bed and block him on all of your social media accounts. 10. You’ll think everything is going to be okay, but the next morning you wake up and you realize that you miss him. You unblock him. You remove everything you were going to donate from the laundry basket. You put everything back where it was. You walk to the kitchen and open the fridge and you eat those blueberries he left and they bruise your lips and soul even more.”

— Alexa Evangelista, the book i’ll never finish writing