the image of deception

I presume that now is the time I can expose my thoughts.

Though I normally save that for late night chats.

Joking.

Don’t contact the counselors.

Thanks.

Originally I threw ideas onto the paper about my own life, but

I quickly concluded that I shouldn’t waste time with banter about my own encounters.

When instead I could easily just explain a few of the lessons I have learned.

I can now actually say what I want to be heard.

I have your attention and for a few moments I won’t be seen as loud and obnoxious.

I’m tired of being depicted as uneducated.

First, cut the bull about wanting to leave this world as a better place.

Do you really think everything you see around yourself just popped up one day?

It’s called gritting your teeth and making the change yourself.

You’re just all edge with zero point.

Have you forgotten that you too are a part of this world?

To make this world a better place, you must also better yourself.

Second, I understand how easy it is to gravitate towards those who mirror you.

I’ve chosen the friends I have not only because they are like me,

But they also teach me.

People find comfort within their own kind.

Now please, explain to me

What’s so hard about leaving your comfort zone?

Where’s the fun in not being able to deepen your knowledge of the world through other people?

My friends are abnormal. A short, scrawny boy and a basic girl have been my resource of enlightenment.

Aaron shows me how to treat people. He always puts us first.

Maren shows me what a real friendship is. It’s not the fake relationships I see paraded around our school.

I like that.

Why don’t others?

Last, people have this weird idea of finding themselves one day.

You do not find a completed self.

Your life is like the tree you used to climb as a young kid during your carefree days.

Can you picture it?

You, as well as the tree, started out small and weak. You needed time to grow.

Your personal tree has it’s summer moments. You flourish with the seasons bloom and all is well.

Then come your winter moments. The shedding of your leaves representing a death, broken friendship, any hardship you have encountered.

Yet the tree still continues to grow.

You spend your life actively creating who you are along the way.

Honestly, you will never be fully complete.

Every single day causes you to become more complex.

Your complexity is not as visual as the growing branches of your childhood tree.

They are your morals, your goals, the way you treat people..

Your complexity is YOU.

Apparently I can give good advice.

I just consider myself able to sound smarter than I actually am.

In reality I’m just pointing out things you inevitably would have noticed over time.

Maybe you already have or maybe you just haven’t experienced something to give you these realizations to learn these lessons.

Stop trying to trade places with anything to make yourself feel new.

Life doesn’t stop for those who just sit around and wait. -EN