2/22/17

I found out my little brother's mom is on fucking heroin again. I mean I kinda figured I just didn't want to think so negatively about her or that situation... And it just really pissed my life off but there's not much I can do and I hate it. Idk if I should call the cops or stay quiet. I hate this. I hate her. I hate addiction. I hate drugs. I just fucking hate how everything's falling apart around me and some how or another I always end up with the weight of the world on my shoulders... Fuck man. I just wanna be care free. I shouldn't have to worry about whether or not my little brother's gonna be hurt for life due to his mom overdosing on fucking heroin. Like that's just bullshit.

2/21/17

Do you ever feel so shitty of a daughter, friend, student, or person that you just kind of let go? It’s almost like when you try your very best with good confidence in what your doing then come out 3rd, 4th or last place in something? Maybe you feel like not even the second choice sometimes. Maybe your the 3rd, 4th or last person someone you care so highly about goes to last because they don’t like the way you handle situations or they aren’t as close to you as you both thought. Because that’s me.