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the things they don’t tell you…

when you search ‘thinspo’ everyone tells you about how happy you’ll be when you’re losing/ lost weight.

but they don’t tell you the bad things, and these are just some of them…

please… consider this stuff

Also, if you get to a low enough weight, some of you might develop body hair all over your body ( since your starving yourself of your bodies nutrients it creates hair to keep yourself warm ). And trust me, that’s A LOT of shaving.

You know what’s weird:

Everyone warns you about the dizziness

Everyone warns you about the hunger pains

Everyone warns you about feeling sick all the time

Everyone warns you about getting the shakes

Everyone warns you about hair falling out

Everyone warns you about your nails going yellow

And I was okay with all of this because I could hide it

But what no one tells you about is the exhaustion

No one warns you about sleeping for half the day

No one warns you about taking an hour to get out of bed every morning

No one warns you that doing the simplest tasks take all the energy you have

No one warns you that you will always feel tired no matter how much coffee you drink or how many vitamin supplements you take

And I wasn’t ready for not being able to live my life anymore

Also you get a really hard time concentrating and sitting still.

let me sleep in ur stupid t-shirts and hold ur dumb hand u piece of shit

She’s not suicidal But she is

She wouldn’t hang herself Or pull the trigger

But if someone else pulled the trigger Or if a car was coming

She wouldn’t flinch Or have second thoughts

She’s not suicidal But maybe she is

Please stop romanticizing  mental illness

You wouldn’t romanticize depression if you had to yank a pencil out of the hand of a loved one because they were trying to harm themself. You wouldn’t romanticize depression if someone you love had to go to the hospital for coming so close to killing themself.

You wouldn’t romanticize anxiety if someone you love sat up shaking at 2:00 AM from a panic attack, throwing up from pent-up nerves. You wouldn’t romanticize anxiety if someone you love scratched themself until they bled because of no other way to relieve the pain.

You wouldn’t romanticize eating disorders if you watched someone you love counting calories, and becoming angry, even violent if they went over that limit. You wouldn’t romanticize eating disorders if you had to hear “you have to eat” told to someone you love even a year after they’d gotten “better.”

You’d start getting flashbacks any time any time anyone mentioned suicide, sometimes shaking where you sit. 

You’d go home crying after one of your friends from school refused lunch because they “weren’t hungry.” 

You would get so angry any time anyone mentioned mental illness without understanding the full extent of what these disorders do to lives of the people suffering from them and the people around them.

The above examples are all true, by the way. All of my friends think I just do a lot of research, but I know about these things from personal experience. I know what happens.

 Mental illness is one of the hardest things a person and their loved ones have to deal with.

So fuck off, people who romanticize them.

— xxxtentacion

where I feel most at home…

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the album sounds amazing, just so you know