READ. EVERY. WORD. OF. THIS. Account of a medical team out in St. Paul last night.

Link to original tweet thread.

my childhood trauma didn't make me stronger, it fucking broke me, and people need to stop acting like it made me a better person. my positive traits didn't form because of my abuse, they survived despite it.

Depression

Depression is like rolling a dice, you never know which side of it you’ll get. All 6 sides hold different dangers and truth be told they’re all pretty equally sucky to go through.

Side number 1 is the side in which everything feels heavy and dark and like you’re a bird drowning in the sky or a fish trying to fly in the sky; it’s the uphill, never-winning battle that we continue to fight because it’s the only way. Side number one teaches you how to stay strong and adapt.

Side number 2 is the sadness, my god that sadness, the sadness that rips through you like a tornado and leaves you shaking and scared and of course sobbing; it’s the sadness that makes you envy the drowning birds and falling fish. Side number 2 shakes the world beneath your feet but you won’t fall, you’ll go through a bunch of kleenexes and need a helluva lot of comfort food and romantic comedies but the tears’ll stop and you’ll be able to breathe again.

Side number 3 is the lazy side, the side where your body fuses to the mattress and your head is just not cooperating today; the side where you just want the world to go away so you can sleep it all away and wake up in 10 years time. But despite side number 3’s best efforts, get up, take the dog for a walk, grab a cup of coffee, enjoy some sunlight even if it’s only for 10 minutes - use all the energy you’ve got that day just to defy it.

Side number 4 is the rage, the anger that boils up inside the sadness, the nostalgia, the madness of being trapped in this illness; the anger that leads to cutting, drinking, smoking dope, writing angry poems, cursing, and hurting the people we love. Side number four is painful and you’ll regret it tomorrow but you’ve got to remember that, although it’s no excuse, it wasn’t you talking - it was the depression. The real, mood-altering, mind-controlling, life-damaging illness. Forgive yourself for the snide comments or cynical retorts.

Side number 5 is the side no one talks about, for reasons unknown to me, because it is perhaps the hardest side to face when you get it, it’s the darkness - the point in which you just wanna curl up and let it all collapse around you because then at least it would end, it’s the side that makes you feel indifferent, numb, and guilty for not seeing any light because there’s always a light right? Someone always has it worse and here you are hiding underneath your covers like some damsel in distress, wrong - side five is the hardest because it makes you feel bad about your illness, guilty about it and it makes you question its validity, which for the record is very fucking valid.

Side number six is the side which everyone doesn’t understand, it’s the unknown or the other side; this is the side where you’ll be perfectly content, laughing with friends over ice cream or something equally delicious when you just stop because depressions snatched your laugh from you, when your going through your checklist for college in target and break down in the towel aisle because college is too far away and you don’t think you’ll make it, when you’re on a bus to somewhere and you see someone with scars on their arms and although you shouldn’t assume - you know where they came from and you know that pain all too well, when you watch a little kid being happy and high on life and get so goddamn down because they’ll have to face the music one day and you remember that day for you. Side 6 is all the others mixed together, at the unexpected, most unwanted times.

So yes, of course, depression’s a bitch and it’s an illness struggled with by so many in so many ways. But depression, on any given day, is the luck of the draw. Will you get a semi-survivable day? Or will you get a day with suicidal thoughts and surprise mood swings and stress out of this world? We don’t get to choose what day it’ll be, we just get to choose how we respond and how much power we go into battle with. We don’t get to choose when we get depressed or how, it’s chance.

I AM ABSOLUTELY LOSING MY MIND AFTER READING THIS PLEASE READ IT

READ PART TWO AND THREE BELOW !!!!!

Best thing ever!

This is so wholesome

Update: he finally got the cat to the vet to see if she had a microchip

I was already on board with his sweet wholesome open-to-love-and-nurturing heart but I was fully unprepared for getting to that last tweet and seeing how off the hook HOT dude is

https://twitter.com/pariszarcilla?lang=en heres his twitter is here there is also additonal cat photos of his children. 

CAT DAD IS BACK

aww, the kids grow up so fast. ;-;

HHHHHHHH I LOVE CAT DAD!

This is, by far, the single most adorable fucking thing I have ever seen. 

update:

I love that he kept …. All of them.

I’ve reblogged the earlier part of this thread before, and the new stuff makes it even better.

This is the Tumblr equivalent of a warm hug on a cold day.

You’re welcome.

I remember this thread, but I never saw the grown-up pics ❤

These babies are perfect

— brave princess

— M.C. Carini

Every single odd number has an “e” in it.

LISTEN-

Not all of them. 30 and 50 aren’t spelled with the letter e in it …

father god 

…if you can split a number in half evenly, it’s even. 30 and 50 are odd.

-_-’

(15+15=30

25+25=30)

25+25 = 30? You sure about that??

Lord have mercy….

Bye

3 days into 2018 smh

LMAOOOOOOO

One

Three

Five

Nine

And since everything else after that is a variant of these numbers, then all odds have the letter ‘E’.

🗣YOU FORGOT SEVEN!!

It keeps getting worse.

LMAOOO WHAT IS GOING ON

My head hurts…

This is why that Tumblr University shit was the dumbest idea ever just look at this

who failed yall?

IM SCREAMING

You whole ass forgot about eight - a number with an e and is pretty fucking even

why would 8 be brought up if it’s EVEN in a post about ODDS??????? the post said “every single ODD number has an ‘e’ in it” not “every single number with an ‘e’ is odd” what the fuck

3 days until 2019 and we’re still here

happy New year’s eve

I’m going to bring this flaming dumpster into 2019 so future generations can see what a mistake Tumblr was

Er, guys two is odd and doesn’t have an e. Just saying…

did you deadass just try to tell me two is odd? i’m fucking crying throw the whole website away

Reblogging for the last one😂

The one thing I notice is that no matter how much you want to throw this site away, you just can’t.

TWO IS ODD?!?! PFFFTT I’M SCREAMING

Wait what about zero that’s an odd number ,no?

ok but hear me out fifty and thirty make up for the fact they have no e by the way they are pronounces third-E fifth-E

bro why do 30 and 50 matter THEY’RE FUCKING EVEN

what the actual fuck is happening

1 is an even number

I’m gonna smack you

-30 and -50 have an e in them

Wait why are we so quick to throw away the Zero idea

Zero isn’t a number

It can’t be divided by two though, can it

It can??? 0/2=0??

OD NUMBERS

onE

thrEE

fivE

sEvEn

ninE

OD numbers huh?

Anything that ends with a 0,2,4,6,8 is even and the rest is odd (1,3,7,9) stop freaking out y’all

YOU FORGOT 5

DUDE WHAT ABOUT FOUR

What about it?????

THAT DOESN’T HAVE E IN IT

THAT’S BECAUSE IT’S EVEN?????

A R E Y O U G U Y S O K A Y

IM FUCKIN SOBBING HAVAGAFDHFDHHBJJ

im rblogging this again oof

Is it too late to change my major after I already received the degree? Asking for a friend… 😣

What happened to y'all?

Bruhh this has to be the funniest post I’ve seen so far this year 😂😂

I started thinking about prime numbers for some odd reason

game time!

every time you see this post you have to reblog with a different marvel quote (no repeats)

i’ll start: “i’m a god you dull creature!”

“We have a Hulk”

“I like your plan except it sucks. Let me do the plan and that way, it might be good.”

“What were you the god of again?”

“I’m not doing ‘Get Help.’”

“I have been falling….for 30 minutes!”

“I never wanted the throne! I only ever wanted to be your equal.”

“Your saiviour is here!!!”

“OWW!! MY NIPPLES!!”

“Bucky?” “who the hell is Bucky?”

“You had one job.”

“GET HELP!!!”

“you’re the spider-man, from YouTube”

“So was I”

“I already told you, I don’t wanna join your super secret boyband.”

“I was gonna make you an omelette, and TELL you!”

“I’m bringing the party to you.”

“I am Loki of Asgard. And I am burdened with glorious purpose.”

“Kick names, take ass”

“Doth mother know…you weareth her drapes?”

“Language!”

“I am Groot”

“Yeah man, it killed DiCaprio.“

“I’m kidding. Were vegetarians.”

“I assure you brother, the sun will shine on us again.”

“WHAT THE FU-“

“Footloose is always relevant.”

“I’m Mary Poppins y'all!!”

“I just feel you”

“ It’s terribly well balanced! ”

“I understood that reference”

“Don’t do anything stupid until I get back.”

“I know I said ‘no more surprises,’ but I was really hoping to pull off one last one.”

“Next time, you ride with me.”

“Please tell me you’re going to appeal to my humanity”

‘No amount of money ever bought a second of time.’

“How does Fury even see these?”

for wakanda? without question!

“I’ll do you one better, WHY IS GAMORA?!”

higher, further, faster baby!

ON YOUR LEFT

“How do you see in these” “Well you see I..” “They are so dim”

“Mr. Stark? I don’t feel so good”

“Phil!” “Phil? His name is agent.”

“I was having 12% of a moment.”

“ avengers, assemble”

sorry i keep reblogging this but i have so many)

“ i want one-”

“ no.”

“I am inevitable”

“go get him! I can swim!”

“No, no. You get the little one”

“Just like Budapest all over again!”

“You and I remember Budapest very differently.”

“you look,,,pretty,,,too.”

“Will that be all Mr.Stark?”

“We won, Mr. Stark. We won and you did it, sir.”

"It'll kill you"

"Only if I die"

"Yes... that's what kill you means ?!!"

:)!

Well fuck

I really mourn Aelin’s power. I can’t tell you why because I loved her as the snarky assassin Celaena. But it felt like so much of her identity was repeatedly beaten out of her…. I wanted her to keep something

On top of Rowan and Terrasan and the core of her court. Ig that should’ve been enough. But I really felt things ™ when she would use that godlike power and loved it and am sad they’re gone

— naked-expression (via wnq-writers)

For all the girls who feel they cant wear the hijab because it scares the "community"